Goodbye

[STARTUP999]

Let's focus on Miranda rather than some insensitve comment.

Those of you who have industry contacts could you reach out to people she has worked for or others who know her personally, and get her address and have someone in the Bay Area check on her?

I sure hope she looks in on these posts and sees that she does not have to face what her challenges are alone.

[Prospero]

BLKGSXR.. keep your crap remarks to yourself or to other threads.,,

[GroobySteven]

Ohh he just made my black list with that comment.

Prospero deleted this before I saw it but I have had someone to reach out to Miranda.
As far as the asshat who calls himself Blkgsxr is concerned, he's banned. He's a fucking waste of time who has nothing to shout about and I've met him personally.
Just one of these guys who has hung around the scene, thinks he knows what he's talking about and is part of the inside crowd - and is a bit of an embarressment to himself. Don't bother coming to my house, son - or anything we run. We're about being positive, not your negativism which helps nobody but your ego.

[Prospero]

I doff my hat to Seanchai's greater judgement.

And I hope that the reaching out helps. Miranda is clearly a very vulnerable person and I hope she can be reached.

[Dino Velvet]

Miranda is clearly a very vulnerable person and I hope she can be reached.

Amen to that. Me too.

[youngblood61]

Miranda is such a sweet heart. Good luck Miranda!

[dderek123]

I wish her the best of luck. We sent a few PMs back and forth and she seemed really intelligent, sensitive, kind and respectful. Once she gets things sorted out she'll do well with whatever she puts her mind to.

[broncofan]

I'm not capable of doing adult work -- or much of anything -- anymore. I've been taking down my online presence and just wanted to leave a final note to the effect of "don't expect to see or hear from me further." I've just hit the logical conclusion of my life's trajectory and am consequently done with everything. I'm glad some of you enjoyed my content and/or me, and I'm sorry I can't provide more of both. Goodbye.

You are capable. I don't want to say something that sounds like a diagnosis over the internet, which I'm would not be qualified to give in person, but what you're saying sounds like clinical depression. Not the blues, not temporary melancholy, but the kind of catastrophic dip in self-confidence that goes with depression. I say this as someone who suffered with depression for 10 years and still struggle with it.

When you're depressed you cannot self-evaluate, and you have a persistent negative bias in how you look at life and everything around you. You also are not likely to believe someone when they tell you that you're a talented and intelligent person. You are. You might think, "well how does he know that, he doesn't know me". True, but it's come across in online conversation and probably comes across to people fortunate enough to have met you.

You're still very young. There's no reason to write yourself off because you don't like your current trajectory. Redemption comes out of the blue. Again, I'm not saying you have depression; just that what you describe sounds like it. You must know the difference between what you tell yourself about yourself and what other people see. What others see in you is mostly positive...don't let that be pressure but encouragement.

[youngblood61]

This is so sad. Miranda you are a beautiful young women with alot of years left. Life sucks some time,be strong.

[The Piper]

This is a great great shame,losing such a lovely lady from the forums.
Good luck and best wishes to Miranda.