I am in pain

I know I am not alone when I say the words I am alone...but...

I am feeling so painfully alone right now and I have no one to tell. I had a GG friend up until tonight, I thought we were so close and shared amazing feeling together that I could confide in her my feelings about Ts girls. But I was wrong... I know I am a deep person who is generous and caring... and I felt because I do the right things I would prevail...but I am wrong!

I feel a sucking of my soul going on right now.... I truly consider others feeling in my actions. Pain is consuming me at the moment....FUCK......

Help..... Tell me I am not alone....please.....

I walk this life, without knowledge of where it will bring me but with the faith that I will not be alone... I will not reside in this life without making a mark... but alas I may just do that.........

In the moments that I lay to sleep and darkness has over come me I imagine the world a better place than it has been. I am not alone........
Am I?

I am not breathing but simply moving my chest and inhaling air... it is not full filling, more a reminder of what I have within my finger tips but can't grab a hold of.

I now have no choice but to question my very exhistance, most of my life although very accomplished by conventional means is really a lie and a joke. The very people I love and care about have no idea the tribulations I live daily.

In Pain

Well, when i told my present GF that i liked ts's she didnt agree, but after a while she doesnt bring it up. I think you need to learn how to put more of your own priorities first even if other people dont like you for it, and those people arent the ones to be in your life. Those who realize that youre just trying to do your best will remain true to you and at the end of the day, youll like yourself more. Good luck in the future.

You are definitely not alone. There are alot of guys out there who shares the same situations as you.

Even transexuals who's very own friends and families they completely rely upon for acceptance and support abandoned them when they came out.

Accept yourself with open arms and never be ashamed of what you are and never feel the need to justify with anyone what you like.

Life is too short for such tribulation. And at the end of the day its your life your living not theirs.

Goodluck midpier!

~Kisses.

HTG

Nope, your alone....Guess theres nothing else to do with your life but eat a bullet, but hey...thems the brakes.



























Waits for it.......

Harajuku & blckhaze,

Thanks for the kind words and support I was definately having a moment of pity after much alcohol consumptoin last night. Things seem clearer this morning as you might guess. I think I just needed to vent and really got no one to tell so this forum was the ear last night.

Thanks again
Midpier

Blackadder,


YOU DOUCHE


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lol, I would have the same joke responce at times reading something like that but last night I was in a depressed state. We are all entitled once in a while.

Midpier, if you want to feel better, go to www.youarenotalone.com, and look on page 405 of the "people: section. You'll see BlackAdder's picture and write-up. At least you know that you're not that damn ugly, inside and out, like he is.

Your definatly not alone

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When I feel down, I knock back a few beers and either play violent video games, watch a great movie, whack off over pornography, or watch Tour of Duty all night.

Seriously I'm not joking, when down find something You like and seriously indulge in it until the Pain stops.

Back when I was a teenager I almost committed suicide, then realized that I wasn't prepared to let The World win, so life goes on. Then I found Transsexual entertainment and everythings been peachy since

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ah.... TS porn is there anything it cant do? dammit man it saves lifes!!!!!!

I don't mean to belittle your pain. Truly I don't. But some of us have been down the dark path, and you can't really appreciate what that's like till you've been there (and foolishly, I thought I knew, or had a clue, since I'd known quite a few friends who took the final solution.... till I ended up there myself).

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Midpier, if you want to feel better, go to www.youarenotalone.com, and look on page 405 of the "people: section. You'll see BlackAdder's picture and write-up. At least you know that you're not that damn ugly, inside and out, like he is.

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Whats the name?

BlackAdder. He has his avatar on the page. I wouldn't do this, but he was an asshole to post what he said.

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BlackAdder. He has his avatar on the page. I wouldn't do this, but he was an asshole to post what he said.

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No BlackAddr at 405

Pain is mandatory; suffering isn't. How you react to your pain determines your reality. In other words, do you shrink from it, or do you face it and grow stronger? Good luck.

-Quinn

I appreciate all your input... everyone of you. I take the kind words to heart. I decided to get out of dodge for a bit and booked a flight out to Miami for a week, leaving friday. Anybody got a good spot for a drink and maybe some hot Ts's let me know!

Ciao,
Midpier

I had a friend who started down the dark path one night, and he called me to say goodbye. I convinced to wait until I got there and rushed over to talk him out of it. He had lost his job, his girlfriend, and had been beaten up all in the space of a about 3 days. He was in such a dark place, he couldn't see the way out. I got him to listen to me and I started getting him a little boozed up. Not drunk, just more pliable to suggestion. Then we went out to a party I had heard about from some girls I worked with. This was an after hours underground anything goes kind of party, and I found us a couple of fine hotties to get busy with. Well, a couple of more drinks and a toke or two later, he was starting to see the light again. I had to make sure that he wasn't left alone, so I managed to get us all out of the party and over to a hotel I knew about. We checked in and continued to party. He and his playmate started getting naked while me and my playmate were still working with our clothes. The next thing I knew, his girl was sucking him deep and he was moaning and loving it. My girl said, "I wanna do that too." and started pulling off her clotehs. I did the same, and when I looked at her, I saw that she was a TGirl!

Let's just say that you can have a lot of fun with two guys, two girls, one pussy and three hard dicks between them all.

When we woke up the next day, the girls took off to do their thing, and we went our own way. He was still hurting from the breakup and the beating, but he was out of the dark place. Matter of fact, he started dating the TGirl after that. He also got a great job at a nightclub as an accountant.

Life can be funny sometimes, you know.

He is very lucky to have a friend like you.

If she cannot accept you as who you truely are, she is not for you, neither are you for her. So... you've lost nothing. You did the right thing flying to Miami. Party and move on! You'll meet the right one in the future but you gotta start getting yourself prepared now. Good luck and have fun!