Originally Posted by PrincessaGianna
I'm very glad that you have quelled your inner conflict, and I appreciate you coming here to give your personal update and testimony......it's great.
I never even realized you left under harsh circumstances or were feeling bad. heh..........I must've missed that episode.
They aren't harsh circumstances, in fact my circumstances in the past year of my life have been wonderful with my fiance, friends, and family. Better than they ever were as an escort or sexual entertainer. I am not feeling bad, I am feeling glad.
I've personally had only one semi-conflict with you regarding your response/implication of "black men don't work for me".....other than that, You've been, well.......you've been alright. lol
You must have the wrong person because I never said black men don't work for me, and I have dated black men in the past.
I do, however, believe what you are saying you want to do is selfish though. Again, I hope you never have to return to "the life" and you are able to accomplish the many and/or all the goals you set forth in your journey. But why do you have to shut yourself out? Why must you pretend you never were here and part of this community, even such as it is. Why can you not continue to impart your own personal cache of knowledge and experience to both the men and women that need it here?
I am shutting myself out of being a sexual entertainer, not from my fellow transsexuals and friends I have made. I am sorry if you think it's selfish you wont being seeing new photographs or videos of me naked. As far as my personal cache, there are many young and struggling transsexuals in my local area and online whom I help on a regular basis as well as young men who struggle with new found feelings of sexual attraction towards transgender women, without understanding why. I just don't masquerade or advertise that I help people. The people who need me, have a way of coming to me in the Universe and vice versa.
You claim you've changed and/or are changing.......well.......
based on the (our) previous issue/encounter that I beforehand mentioned, perhaps part of your change might circulate on NOT being just for self, and standing up to your fears or personal issues, looking them in the face, and not running away just when you feel like it simply because it's convenient for you at the time.
What fears would you be implying Dr. Freud? I have faced more fears in my life than you would ever know, and if I didn't I wouldn't be the person I am today. I am not only making this decision for myself but for the soon to be husband that I love, my family, and other loved ones who saw that being in a degrading environment such as the environment most sexual entertainers are put in by men who objectify them... But YES it is mostly for myself, because I am the only one who can make that decision. I am not afraid of the world of sexual entertainment, and I am not running away. I am MORE than *entitled* to walk away from it, just like any other career choice.
You don't have to go........but if you feel the need to continue to cut people off, simply because you've had differences in your past.......honestly, I don't see how that's changing at all.
The only thing I am changing is my career. I am not cutting the world off. And honestly what we are talking about here is a group of men who fancy transsexual porn. Are they honestly going to die without me posing nude for adult media anymore? I think not. I have had a really positive experience actually, and wouldn't change it for anything. I met a lot of great people and I thank Goddess that I never had a negative experience, except for negative nay sayers, who think that as a transsexual I am an object and/or that I have nothing else productive to do besides entertain them. I am always there for the people who really love and care for them. Just ask my "sister" and fellow poster on HA, Leoora, if she knows whether or not I will be there if she needs me. She's transsexual, and posts on this message board as well, but I am not leaving her behind... Honestly now, this is just a matter of what I am doing for a living!
But thanks for you assumptions really, I appreciate it. It's been humorous. And for all those people who have encouraged me, I really appreciate not only your encouragement but your mind set that a transsexual can go on and do other things with their life besides sexual entertainment if they so choose. The point is, that it's all about choice. There are many people I know who are more than happy as sexual entertainers, and I do not find it one bit wrong! Just so long as the person is happy doing what they do. It just no longer suits my lifestyle to sexually entertain men as a girl who is on the verge of being married, starting a family, and is re-discovering more every day their spiritual side. Do me a favor and live and worry about your own life and your own business. If I honestly *didn't* care about anyone here, and was being entirely selfish, why would I take the time to update people about my life, and explain that I am leaving, and why that I am leaving?
Good luck to you PrincessaGianna.
May God bless you.
Thanks, I really appreciate it. And though I am more blessed by the divine than I know what to do with, I appreciate it! The same to you sweetie, and it's been a pleasure.
