sooooo
then if you feel that why
then why not log out, delete everything ts related
and stick to vag?
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Why not just leave the whole thing if you are ashamed of it? It isn't logical unless you just want to keep a reason to hate yourself or unless you think you can move past your issues with the overall dynamic. You may need to just step back and see who you are, the same guy as always, but you honestly don't mind if a girl has a dick. If you are too ashamed to do what you want to do, then you may have bigger issues than this, and it isn't a church issue IMO.
You have the tendencies to want to fuck ts girls, so you are just wanting a dose of shame thrown at you? I mean, would you tell the people there that you are fighting the "issue", wouldn't that kind of out you to your family and the community? Wouldn't that actually liberate you to think whatever you want in some way (once you are known by the community around you, you are known and then, what is there to fear?) and be a self defeating prospect?
I think you should just figure out if you can accept it or not. If the answer is yes, then ignore the molds that you have been trying to fit and just be you. If you can't, then keep living in that mold and leave this behind. I am pretty sure at some point or another, the issue will be found out, so the "closet" thing seems a little pointless (not to mention it would make you look like a hypocrite and you would be responsible for actively teaching your son to hate you).
One big thing is your association, you don't seem to like gay people, but you equate your attraction to being gay. I don't know what it is, IMO it is seperate from all the other stuff, it is the third sex IMO. It becomes subjective what you are to how informed your audience is. It is like guys who fuck a girl in the ass are considered gay by some idiots for not using her vagina. Some guys get fucked in the ass by their wives with strapons or fingered or whatever and would be considered gay for being willing to take part in sodomy. To the point, your equation of your behavior means that you are willing to hate yourself in public just to appease an image and you are willing to embody what you hate in your mind in private. Conflicted, but uninformed seems to be the biggest thing. You aren't any of the traditional sexual orientations if you like TS, you are simply into girls who came into their own later in life.
As a frame of reference, I am still attracted to ordinary genetic girls as well as TS. I like TS best, but I love the feminine form and just like the visual of a girl who has a boner a little more than I like ordinary pussy. That and I like the way with some ts girls, less is taboo to them. You can go wherever because all zones are usable for a lot (not all obviously).
You've got some soul searching to do Freddie.
You need to be comfortable w/ who you are and who you like before you worry about what other people think.
Do you wanna front w/ your boys and be a poser or do you wanna step up and be real?
He should front,its safe in the closet lmao
smh... alot of people dont realize the shit alot of these girls go through...Wether they are out to get food or simply shopping for the necessitates they get the 3rd degree especially if they are just starting off I have many many ts friends not one of them do I treat incorrectly unless they deserve a reality check as do I here with the straight up cunts.... Awe well, Respect transwomen but when a bitch is out of line check her shit!
You're right...there will be times in your life when you have to fight...but you have to be smart about it too. You will have to pick the odds in your favor...odds of winning, odds of winning without getting arrested (and the odds of the arrest affecting your job and your life), odds of losing...and of course (nowadays)odds of getting killed.
...everyone gets humiliated in life, sometimes you have to take a bit of it (you can always get even later...OH yeah...lol)...
...and sometimes you don't.
fags>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>