I didn't remain engaged for two very important reasons.
1. I was in a four year relationship with a girl who is 9 years my junior. It was retarded to even think that marrying a 21 year old was a good move. Nobody kept me from my twenties and tying her down wouldn't have been kosher, just territorial on my part.
2. I have lofty goals which require a fair amount of capital. In order to keep myself afloat, run a recording studio and post production house along with producing web content that isn't bush league solo crap we had to make a decision about how I was going to make my money and how just how much time that was going to eat up to do it right. There simply wasn't enough time in my plans to honor a relationship properly.
It's not who or what I am - my timing was way off for that girl. I didn't earn the relationship. I am still pouring a foundation here. When I have all my ducks in a row I can be someone for somebody but right now I have to remain alone. It's like Billy Joel said in his song, "James" - 'Do what's good for you're not good for anybody.'
By the way, the girl in question was Megan Murray - do a Google search, you'll find it wasn't the sex industry that did it. It was much more substantial than that.
Ass.