86lotus
04-23-2012, 06:29 AM
I don't remember how or exactly when I became interested in tgirls, but I think it was after stumbling upon a hot video on regular porn site a few years ago. I'm so straight it hurts and being turned on by tgirl porn was a bit of weird feeling as so many have written about before. At the same time, I've always enjoyed a nice dildo in my ass when playing with a kinky girl and been hit with a strap on a few times so I suppose there wasn't much of a psychic barrier to overcome. I started watching the occasional tgirl video here and there to break up the monotony of formulaic straight porn and eventually the idea of being with a tgirl for real started to rattle around my head.
The first time I tried I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. Big cock, small cock, asian/black/white/brazillian so I just went with a CL hookup. She was a petite, with probably a 6" cock that wasn't too think. The whole went off as planned, totally safe and I got fucked. I left feeling disappointed, like, "is that all there is to it?". It really wasn't any better or different than being pegged or having a smallish dildo inside me, but afterwards this new sensation/emotion took form .... that I wanted a bigger cock.
I felt kinda strange about that ... guilty, ashamed, weird. Its not like I felt a threat to my masculinity; more like, "what would my friends and parents think if they knew I was feeling like I needed a bigger cock inside me?"
That feeling plagued me for a couple of years and I tried to suppress it best I could. Still, I would go searching for big cock tgirl porn and found that i was seriously drawn to seeing a big black cock cum. I just couldn't (and still can't) get enough of that.
The other night I was a little baked, and tuned into ashemaletube. After watching a few decent videos I was suddenly overcome with desire to feel a really big tgirl cock in my hand, and to stroke it. I wasn't thinking of fucking so much, I just wanted to feel the girth, the warmth, the length, and to stroke it slowly and make her cum. I didn't act on it that night, but the next day the feeling was still with me and I started to look around. eros, backpage, CL. Nothing spoke to me. So I was casually using the google seeing if I could find something when I clicked on a cityvibe link. The link contained a very eloquently written bio and the pictures were frankly unbelievable. Had to be photoshopped. She described herself as having 10.5" and abel to get rock hard. You don't see too many rock hard big cocks in porn so I didn't know what that really meant. I know when my cock is rock hard I could break something with it, and I supposed knowing what that feels like made me expect it that way .. but I digress. Her pictures were so hot, and my trepidation at taking a really big cock almost stopped me, but somehow I managed to call her.
Her voice was soooo sweet, and feminine and seductive that I was captured the very moment I heard it. We made arrangements for a few hours hence. I cleaned up, and became overcome with nervousness, like shaking I was so nervous. I took a hot shower, smoked a bowl and got calmed down just about the time I needed to head over. I packed some magnums, and rolled out. She lived in a very respectable neighborhood, and buzzed me right in.
Oh My God ... The woman standing before me inside the apartment was something from another planet, like a mythological creature. Black, 5'11". She was wearing short shorts, heels and a tank top. Her hair was straight down to middle of her back. her boobs were fake, but well proportioned with beautiful nipples. Her face was so beautiful, and her legs, and ass, and torso were toned, and muscular like those of a dancer. She was beyond a perfect ten. She gave me a very genuine seeming hug, and she smelled incredible. I put my hands on her back, and I swear .. you could feel every twitch of her muscles as she moved. I don't know how to describe how incredible it felt to feel her body under my hands. I've been with fit women before but never felt anything like this before in my life.
We chatted for a bit, both of us saying we were nervous but after a few minutes she invited me to the bedroom and we laid down on her bed. She slipped out of her top and shorts revealing a lacy black bra and thong. the bulge in her crotch didn't seem that impressive to my inexperienced eyes and I felt a little wave of disappointment wash over me. Still, she was incredibly beautiful and the vibe I got from her was so welcoming and fem that I felt no need to leave, so I got over it. We talked a bit more, and started touching each other. My hands ran all over her incredible body, not believing such a body could even exist. She gave me a light massage, and we started getting closer on the bed. I began to worry that we were taking so much time talking and petting that I would run out action time, and I mentioned it to her. She assured me there was no rush at all and not to worry about it. So we slowly got to know each other. I told her how sensitive my nipples are, and she started to suck and pinch them while I caressed her body. I massaged her cock repeatedly but nothing much was going on. I felt insecure .. that I was not turning her on, or didn't know what I was doing, which of course I didn't. I started to focus more attention on her cock, and she obliged by pulling off the thong. Her cock was cut, and looked beautiful, though limp. I asked her I was touching her in a pleasurable way and she said yes, and not to worry. She said she doesn't really get hard unless she can feel skin touching her, and that the thong prevents her from getting hard. I stroked and massaged her cock for a few minutes, asking for guidance all the way, and soon discovered that her ad was no joke.
I felt her getting hard and very quickly it went from soft and limp to utterly rock hard, thick, and ten inches long. It was straight with just a little upwards bend towards the end with a perfectly shaped head. I just stared at it like an idiot, stroking it slowly, not believing my eyes. It was idealized, perfect, huge cock. I was terrified. Once I realized exactly how thick it was I knew I couldn't take it. I'd had a couple of women over the years try to get larger dildos inside me and it always ended up with me going, "ouch!" and pulling away so I was afraid to even try. I wanted to suck it, but being terrified of getting HIV I resisted the urge.
Once she was hard she got a little more aggressive and wanted to fuck me pretty soon. I told her I was very nervous about how thick she was but she assured me that she would be gentle, and if it didn't work it was fine, that I could fuck her and it would be all good. Her tone and manner was so gentle that I developed a feeling of trust that I don't often find with people, even people I've known a long time. I couldn't tell if she was a consummate professional, or truly empathetic, or if we had some kind of chemistry .. it was very mysterious to me.
She put a pillow under my butt and pushed my legs back. I'd never been in such a position, and hadn't shaved me ass or anything and suddenly felt so gross and like a hideous hairy man. I giggled nervously, and she knew what was going on. She said not be embarassed or shy, that the lights were down, she couldn't really see anything and it was all gonna be fine. I still felt a bit ashamed but stuck with it while I she rubbed some lube on my hole. She slipped her finger into me gently a few times, which felt amazing and then slipped on a condom. She lubed the condom, knelt between my legs and don't me to take a deep breath, and relax my legs, and back, and pressed the head of her cock against me. I took a few breathes and tried to relax best I could. She pressed harder and it just felt so fucking huge. No dildo ever felt that huge up against me and I was so scared that it was gonna hurt like a motherfucker if she pressed harder. I kept flinching when she pressed and told her it wasn't gonna work. It seemed like she *really* wanted to fuck me as she persisted and gave me more tips on how to relax. I tried so hard but it was futile. I just couldn't do it and I apologized. She was so sweet, and cool with it and didn't show any sense of frustration.
She crawled over closer to me and I pulled the condom off of her, and my god, so much precum was dripping out of her! I had never seen such a thing before. I don't know why, but it was absolutely beautiful. I took some on my fingers and rubbed it between them, I rubbed it on her cock. It was so incredible!! I mentioned this to her and she said it only happens when she's really turned on, and that we might have some chemistry. I didn't know whether to believe that or not given that this was a pay date but it didn't matter then, I was just so aroused by it ... I wanted to taste it. Throughout all my thoughts and fantasies about tgirls, sucking cock was never a focus. But in the instant that I pulled off that condom and saw the glistening stream of precum dangling from her cock I wanted nothing more in the world than to have it in my mouth. Still, wanting to play safe I resisted and just stroked her. She licked my nipples, stroked my cock, slid a small dildo into me and got me so hard I thought I was having a priapism, at which point I told her I had to fuck her.
I laid her down on her back and pulled her to the edge of the bed, her legs over my shoulders. Her cock was still hard enough that it didn't lay flat against her belly and the site her incredible body laying there with this huge hard cock hovering over her tummy was hotter than any woman I had ever been with before. The intensity of my reaction to seeing her this way confused me ... I'm a flaming heterosexual! I find gay porn gross, and I've been in orgies where men tried to play with me and even in that setting wanted nothing to do with them. But this was something else entirely. I slipped on a condom, gently lubed her up, and pressed my cock against her ass. She rotated her hips, put her hands on my hips and pulled me closer. She told me to be still, and slowly she rotated her hips back down and took me. I've got a decent cock .. 8", pretty thick and I was surprised at how easily she took it. I know thats some stupid pride, and that she does this all the time but still, there was no hesitation, it was like entering a wet pussy and just so fucking hot. She pulled me deeper and took me almost all the way. I fucked her. Gently at first, with long slow strokes until the hands on my hips made it clear she wanted it harder. She lubed her cock and started to stroke it. I took her legs in my hands and spread them apart so I could watch. As she writhed on the bed I could see every muscle in her body moving beneath her skin. I really felt like I was fucking a sexy alien ... I lack the words necessary to describe the visual feast that I was fucking. She told me not to cum, to make it last and we fucked for what seemed like an hour. She stroked at the same pace I was fucking her and told me over and over that she wanted to cum with me and in the end we did. She shot so much cum onto her belly. It just kept on spurting out of her in long ropes and the look on her face was one of pure ecstasy.
We laid on the bed caressed each other, basking in the afterglow for another 30 minutes. I got dressed, and she walked me to my car. I really didn't want to go home. As we said goodbye she whispered in my ear that she really wanted to see me again, and wanted me to learn how to relax with a big dildo so she could fuck me next time.
I went home in a dream state. I couldn't sleep. Memories of her face, her body, her cock kept rushing through my mind. I tried to jack off but had nothing left. A couple of days later I had to leave on some business travel and didn't get back for a few weeks. The whole time I was away I couldn't stop thinking about her.
I got back and the first thing I did was call her. She sounded happy to hear from me and we made a date. I went out and bought a really nice glass dildo, thin on one end, very thick on the other. I got some silicone lube and went home. I laid on my bed for two hours and learned how to relax. It took a while, but eventually I was able to relax enough to take the big end in and out of my ass without any pain, and it felt *really* good. The thick end was really just a big ball of glass though so I never felt full. I would feel the ball stretch me open, then slide inside me. Still it was amazing to feel that open. When the time came, I cleaned up, and went over, with the dildo.
She seemed even more beautiful this time, dressed in a red lace teddy. We hugged for longer this time and she remembered my nipples, going right for them with one hand while we hugged. She dragged me into the bedroom immediately and laid on the bed. I told her I had been thinking about her while I was away and told her how badly I had wanted her in my mouth last time, and my anxiety over being safe. Without asking she reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out her lab results from the previous week. Clean in all respects. I had gotten paperwork from that lab before myself and it all looked legit, and had her real name on it. So we dispensed with that paperwork and clinical conversation and got relaxed. I brought some weed with me and asked if she wanted to smoke a bowl with me. She said she had a blunt downstairs if I wanted to try it, which I did. We smoked each other out for bit and OMG we got so fucking high. It was a strong indica and my body became exquisitely sensitive. We took our clothes off and snuggled. Again I ran my hands and fingers over her body and marveled at its perfection. She sucked on my nipples and ran her fingers through my hair. I massaged her cock, and soon it was as hard as it was the first time. I laid her on her back, got between her legs and took it into my mouth.
It was the first time a cock had ever been in my mouth, and I was surprised at how much I loved it! I tried to be aware of all things I hate about the lousy blowjobs I've had ... teeth scraping against my cock, putting too much emphasis on the head and not taking it deep, going too fast, etc etc. I tried to use my hand in concert with my mouth and hoped I was doing well. I swear, it got harder. I don't know how its possible but it seemed to grow and it was not easy to keep my mouth open so wide. Suddenly, I started to taste something thick, in my mouth and I was afraid she was cumming already. I was taken by surprise and took her out of my mouth. She asked what was wrong and I explained. She said no, she didn't cum, but that it felt so good she wanted me to keep going. Then I looked at her cock, and saw the precum dripping from her as I had the first time. I realized it was precum in my mouth and suddenly I was on fire. It tasted soooo good. I don't know how to explain it. It was thick, and a little salty and had the slippery feel to it. I sucked it out of her! I would take it out of my mouth, stroke it and wait for it to drip out, and lick it with my tongue. I shared it with her in many sloppy kisses and sucked it some more. Eventually she said it was my turn, and flipped me onto my back.
Once again she slid a pillow under my ass, and then laid down with head near laying on my thigh. She took the dildo, lubed it up and started slowly working it into me, using the narrow end first. Her cock was in my hand hovering over my chest. As she probed me I slowly stroked it as more glistening precum dripped onto my chest. She flipped the dildo around and started to press the big end into me, asking me if it was ok as she did. It went in pretty easily (I had no idea if i would have tightened up again on the drive over but apparently not) and she worked it in and out over and over again. It was absolutely painless and felt amazing ... I could have laid there and her do that all night, but she was ready to fuck me, and again got between my legs and rolled the condom on. I was so much more comfortable this time. I'm sure the blunt had something to do with that, but also I felt so comfortable with her ... like a lover you've known for ages. She lubed me up a little more, lubed the condom and pressed her cock against me. It just slipped right into me with no pain at all. But then .... she just kept filling me! Slowly she slid as deep as she could in one long slow thrust and I my whole body went kind of limp with the most incredible pleasure I have ever felt. I just whispered, "oh my god, I never knew". Being so full with this huge cock in my ass was like a before and after sensation .. kind of like taking LSD the first time. It was indescribable, pure ecstasy. She pinned my legs back, and leaned over with her tits hanging over me and started to fuck me. My hands went to her ass and I felt her muscles working as she used her hips and ass to fuck me.
I cried.
I have never cried out of happiness or joy or pleasure before, only sadness. I looked at her face with tears streaming down my face and she looked like an angel. She fucked me, and fucked me, and fucked me. Never hard, never too deep, never hurting me. But she was deep inside me and knew exactly what she was doing. I never wanted it to end. I moaned like woman, begged her to fuck me and whispered,"oh god it feels so good" over and over and over again. After a while she wanted to change positions and pulled me to the edge of the bed so she could stand up. Started to stroke my cock as she fucked me and I couldn't control myself. I came almost immediately. She picked up the pace a bit and really started to fuck me. I wished I could cum a thousand times with her inside me ... the pleasure was excruciating. She came inside me. I could feel her cock throbbing as she pumped her cum into me and I thought I was going to die of a sexual overdose. She gently pulled out, ditched the condom, and collapsed next to me on the bed.
I laid there, the tears drying and she asked me what I was feeling. I told her that I experienced a life changing emotion. I had utterly submitted for the first time, and had a flood of emotions that I had never felt before and that somehow I felt at least part of what a woman feels when shes being fucked. I searched my mind for all the feelings I was having .. craving for her cock, wanting it in my mouth, wanting it inside me, the lust I felt for her body, and scarily, feelings of love and empathy I was having for her. She assured me this was all ok, and that she felt I had given her to hugest compliment possible. I laid there with her in my arms for an hour as we talked about it, and she seemed sincere when she said we had amazing chemistry. Eventually the weed wore off, and it was time to go. Agains she walked me to my car and this time, I just wanted to kiss her, and take her home with me. I felt these things in way I've never felt them for a woman. Thats not to say I don't love the women I'm dating, I just never had this particular feeling before. I drove home, and fell asleep immediately. The next day I was lost in a dream world, and laid there on the couch remembering how it felt when her cock first slipped into my ass.
Now, I want her even more badly. I want her to cum in my mouth. I want to swallow all of it. I'm desperate to taste her precum, and to feel her inside me again. But in the end, she is a hooker, and its not safe. I'm torn, and a little afraid that I've opened a door I wont be able to close. I'm having thoughts of seeking an actual tgirlfriend and contemplating the effect it would have on my social life.
I don't know what will happen next ...
The first time I tried I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. Big cock, small cock, asian/black/white/brazillian so I just went with a CL hookup. She was a petite, with probably a 6" cock that wasn't too think. The whole went off as planned, totally safe and I got fucked. I left feeling disappointed, like, "is that all there is to it?". It really wasn't any better or different than being pegged or having a smallish dildo inside me, but afterwards this new sensation/emotion took form .... that I wanted a bigger cock.
I felt kinda strange about that ... guilty, ashamed, weird. Its not like I felt a threat to my masculinity; more like, "what would my friends and parents think if they knew I was feeling like I needed a bigger cock inside me?"
That feeling plagued me for a couple of years and I tried to suppress it best I could. Still, I would go searching for big cock tgirl porn and found that i was seriously drawn to seeing a big black cock cum. I just couldn't (and still can't) get enough of that.
The other night I was a little baked, and tuned into ashemaletube. After watching a few decent videos I was suddenly overcome with desire to feel a really big tgirl cock in my hand, and to stroke it. I wasn't thinking of fucking so much, I just wanted to feel the girth, the warmth, the length, and to stroke it slowly and make her cum. I didn't act on it that night, but the next day the feeling was still with me and I started to look around. eros, backpage, CL. Nothing spoke to me. So I was casually using the google seeing if I could find something when I clicked on a cityvibe link. The link contained a very eloquently written bio and the pictures were frankly unbelievable. Had to be photoshopped. She described herself as having 10.5" and abel to get rock hard. You don't see too many rock hard big cocks in porn so I didn't know what that really meant. I know when my cock is rock hard I could break something with it, and I supposed knowing what that feels like made me expect it that way .. but I digress. Her pictures were so hot, and my trepidation at taking a really big cock almost stopped me, but somehow I managed to call her.
Her voice was soooo sweet, and feminine and seductive that I was captured the very moment I heard it. We made arrangements for a few hours hence. I cleaned up, and became overcome with nervousness, like shaking I was so nervous. I took a hot shower, smoked a bowl and got calmed down just about the time I needed to head over. I packed some magnums, and rolled out. She lived in a very respectable neighborhood, and buzzed me right in.
Oh My God ... The woman standing before me inside the apartment was something from another planet, like a mythological creature. Black, 5'11". She was wearing short shorts, heels and a tank top. Her hair was straight down to middle of her back. her boobs were fake, but well proportioned with beautiful nipples. Her face was so beautiful, and her legs, and ass, and torso were toned, and muscular like those of a dancer. She was beyond a perfect ten. She gave me a very genuine seeming hug, and she smelled incredible. I put my hands on her back, and I swear .. you could feel every twitch of her muscles as she moved. I don't know how to describe how incredible it felt to feel her body under my hands. I've been with fit women before but never felt anything like this before in my life.
We chatted for a bit, both of us saying we were nervous but after a few minutes she invited me to the bedroom and we laid down on her bed. She slipped out of her top and shorts revealing a lacy black bra and thong. the bulge in her crotch didn't seem that impressive to my inexperienced eyes and I felt a little wave of disappointment wash over me. Still, she was incredibly beautiful and the vibe I got from her was so welcoming and fem that I felt no need to leave, so I got over it. We talked a bit more, and started touching each other. My hands ran all over her incredible body, not believing such a body could even exist. She gave me a light massage, and we started getting closer on the bed. I began to worry that we were taking so much time talking and petting that I would run out action time, and I mentioned it to her. She assured me there was no rush at all and not to worry about it. So we slowly got to know each other. I told her how sensitive my nipples are, and she started to suck and pinch them while I caressed her body. I massaged her cock repeatedly but nothing much was going on. I felt insecure .. that I was not turning her on, or didn't know what I was doing, which of course I didn't. I started to focus more attention on her cock, and she obliged by pulling off the thong. Her cock was cut, and looked beautiful, though limp. I asked her I was touching her in a pleasurable way and she said yes, and not to worry. She said she doesn't really get hard unless she can feel skin touching her, and that the thong prevents her from getting hard. I stroked and massaged her cock for a few minutes, asking for guidance all the way, and soon discovered that her ad was no joke.
I felt her getting hard and very quickly it went from soft and limp to utterly rock hard, thick, and ten inches long. It was straight with just a little upwards bend towards the end with a perfectly shaped head. I just stared at it like an idiot, stroking it slowly, not believing my eyes. It was idealized, perfect, huge cock. I was terrified. Once I realized exactly how thick it was I knew I couldn't take it. I'd had a couple of women over the years try to get larger dildos inside me and it always ended up with me going, "ouch!" and pulling away so I was afraid to even try. I wanted to suck it, but being terrified of getting HIV I resisted the urge.
Once she was hard she got a little more aggressive and wanted to fuck me pretty soon. I told her I was very nervous about how thick she was but she assured me that she would be gentle, and if it didn't work it was fine, that I could fuck her and it would be all good. Her tone and manner was so gentle that I developed a feeling of trust that I don't often find with people, even people I've known a long time. I couldn't tell if she was a consummate professional, or truly empathetic, or if we had some kind of chemistry .. it was very mysterious to me.
She put a pillow under my butt and pushed my legs back. I'd never been in such a position, and hadn't shaved me ass or anything and suddenly felt so gross and like a hideous hairy man. I giggled nervously, and she knew what was going on. She said not be embarassed or shy, that the lights were down, she couldn't really see anything and it was all gonna be fine. I still felt a bit ashamed but stuck with it while I she rubbed some lube on my hole. She slipped her finger into me gently a few times, which felt amazing and then slipped on a condom. She lubed the condom, knelt between my legs and don't me to take a deep breath, and relax my legs, and back, and pressed the head of her cock against me. I took a few breathes and tried to relax best I could. She pressed harder and it just felt so fucking huge. No dildo ever felt that huge up against me and I was so scared that it was gonna hurt like a motherfucker if she pressed harder. I kept flinching when she pressed and told her it wasn't gonna work. It seemed like she *really* wanted to fuck me as she persisted and gave me more tips on how to relax. I tried so hard but it was futile. I just couldn't do it and I apologized. She was so sweet, and cool with it and didn't show any sense of frustration.
She crawled over closer to me and I pulled the condom off of her, and my god, so much precum was dripping out of her! I had never seen such a thing before. I don't know why, but it was absolutely beautiful. I took some on my fingers and rubbed it between them, I rubbed it on her cock. It was so incredible!! I mentioned this to her and she said it only happens when she's really turned on, and that we might have some chemistry. I didn't know whether to believe that or not given that this was a pay date but it didn't matter then, I was just so aroused by it ... I wanted to taste it. Throughout all my thoughts and fantasies about tgirls, sucking cock was never a focus. But in the instant that I pulled off that condom and saw the glistening stream of precum dangling from her cock I wanted nothing more in the world than to have it in my mouth. Still, wanting to play safe I resisted and just stroked her. She licked my nipples, stroked my cock, slid a small dildo into me and got me so hard I thought I was having a priapism, at which point I told her I had to fuck her.
I laid her down on her back and pulled her to the edge of the bed, her legs over my shoulders. Her cock was still hard enough that it didn't lay flat against her belly and the site her incredible body laying there with this huge hard cock hovering over her tummy was hotter than any woman I had ever been with before. The intensity of my reaction to seeing her this way confused me ... I'm a flaming heterosexual! I find gay porn gross, and I've been in orgies where men tried to play with me and even in that setting wanted nothing to do with them. But this was something else entirely. I slipped on a condom, gently lubed her up, and pressed my cock against her ass. She rotated her hips, put her hands on my hips and pulled me closer. She told me to be still, and slowly she rotated her hips back down and took me. I've got a decent cock .. 8", pretty thick and I was surprised at how easily she took it. I know thats some stupid pride, and that she does this all the time but still, there was no hesitation, it was like entering a wet pussy and just so fucking hot. She pulled me deeper and took me almost all the way. I fucked her. Gently at first, with long slow strokes until the hands on my hips made it clear she wanted it harder. She lubed her cock and started to stroke it. I took her legs in my hands and spread them apart so I could watch. As she writhed on the bed I could see every muscle in her body moving beneath her skin. I really felt like I was fucking a sexy alien ... I lack the words necessary to describe the visual feast that I was fucking. She told me not to cum, to make it last and we fucked for what seemed like an hour. She stroked at the same pace I was fucking her and told me over and over that she wanted to cum with me and in the end we did. She shot so much cum onto her belly. It just kept on spurting out of her in long ropes and the look on her face was one of pure ecstasy.
We laid on the bed caressed each other, basking in the afterglow for another 30 minutes. I got dressed, and she walked me to my car. I really didn't want to go home. As we said goodbye she whispered in my ear that she really wanted to see me again, and wanted me to learn how to relax with a big dildo so she could fuck me next time.
I went home in a dream state. I couldn't sleep. Memories of her face, her body, her cock kept rushing through my mind. I tried to jack off but had nothing left. A couple of days later I had to leave on some business travel and didn't get back for a few weeks. The whole time I was away I couldn't stop thinking about her.
I got back and the first thing I did was call her. She sounded happy to hear from me and we made a date. I went out and bought a really nice glass dildo, thin on one end, very thick on the other. I got some silicone lube and went home. I laid on my bed for two hours and learned how to relax. It took a while, but eventually I was able to relax enough to take the big end in and out of my ass without any pain, and it felt *really* good. The thick end was really just a big ball of glass though so I never felt full. I would feel the ball stretch me open, then slide inside me. Still it was amazing to feel that open. When the time came, I cleaned up, and went over, with the dildo.
She seemed even more beautiful this time, dressed in a red lace teddy. We hugged for longer this time and she remembered my nipples, going right for them with one hand while we hugged. She dragged me into the bedroom immediately and laid on the bed. I told her I had been thinking about her while I was away and told her how badly I had wanted her in my mouth last time, and my anxiety over being safe. Without asking she reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out her lab results from the previous week. Clean in all respects. I had gotten paperwork from that lab before myself and it all looked legit, and had her real name on it. So we dispensed with that paperwork and clinical conversation and got relaxed. I brought some weed with me and asked if she wanted to smoke a bowl with me. She said she had a blunt downstairs if I wanted to try it, which I did. We smoked each other out for bit and OMG we got so fucking high. It was a strong indica and my body became exquisitely sensitive. We took our clothes off and snuggled. Again I ran my hands and fingers over her body and marveled at its perfection. She sucked on my nipples and ran her fingers through my hair. I massaged her cock, and soon it was as hard as it was the first time. I laid her on her back, got between her legs and took it into my mouth.
It was the first time a cock had ever been in my mouth, and I was surprised at how much I loved it! I tried to be aware of all things I hate about the lousy blowjobs I've had ... teeth scraping against my cock, putting too much emphasis on the head and not taking it deep, going too fast, etc etc. I tried to use my hand in concert with my mouth and hoped I was doing well. I swear, it got harder. I don't know how its possible but it seemed to grow and it was not easy to keep my mouth open so wide. Suddenly, I started to taste something thick, in my mouth and I was afraid she was cumming already. I was taken by surprise and took her out of my mouth. She asked what was wrong and I explained. She said no, she didn't cum, but that it felt so good she wanted me to keep going. Then I looked at her cock, and saw the precum dripping from her as I had the first time. I realized it was precum in my mouth and suddenly I was on fire. It tasted soooo good. I don't know how to explain it. It was thick, and a little salty and had the slippery feel to it. I sucked it out of her! I would take it out of my mouth, stroke it and wait for it to drip out, and lick it with my tongue. I shared it with her in many sloppy kisses and sucked it some more. Eventually she said it was my turn, and flipped me onto my back.
Once again she slid a pillow under my ass, and then laid down with head near laying on my thigh. She took the dildo, lubed it up and started slowly working it into me, using the narrow end first. Her cock was in my hand hovering over my chest. As she probed me I slowly stroked it as more glistening precum dripped onto my chest. She flipped the dildo around and started to press the big end into me, asking me if it was ok as she did. It went in pretty easily (I had no idea if i would have tightened up again on the drive over but apparently not) and she worked it in and out over and over again. It was absolutely painless and felt amazing ... I could have laid there and her do that all night, but she was ready to fuck me, and again got between my legs and rolled the condom on. I was so much more comfortable this time. I'm sure the blunt had something to do with that, but also I felt so comfortable with her ... like a lover you've known for ages. She lubed me up a little more, lubed the condom and pressed her cock against me. It just slipped right into me with no pain at all. But then .... she just kept filling me! Slowly she slid as deep as she could in one long slow thrust and I my whole body went kind of limp with the most incredible pleasure I have ever felt. I just whispered, "oh my god, I never knew". Being so full with this huge cock in my ass was like a before and after sensation .. kind of like taking LSD the first time. It was indescribable, pure ecstasy. She pinned my legs back, and leaned over with her tits hanging over me and started to fuck me. My hands went to her ass and I felt her muscles working as she used her hips and ass to fuck me.
I cried.
I have never cried out of happiness or joy or pleasure before, only sadness. I looked at her face with tears streaming down my face and she looked like an angel. She fucked me, and fucked me, and fucked me. Never hard, never too deep, never hurting me. But she was deep inside me and knew exactly what she was doing. I never wanted it to end. I moaned like woman, begged her to fuck me and whispered,"oh god it feels so good" over and over and over again. After a while she wanted to change positions and pulled me to the edge of the bed so she could stand up. Started to stroke my cock as she fucked me and I couldn't control myself. I came almost immediately. She picked up the pace a bit and really started to fuck me. I wished I could cum a thousand times with her inside me ... the pleasure was excruciating. She came inside me. I could feel her cock throbbing as she pumped her cum into me and I thought I was going to die of a sexual overdose. She gently pulled out, ditched the condom, and collapsed next to me on the bed.
I laid there, the tears drying and she asked me what I was feeling. I told her that I experienced a life changing emotion. I had utterly submitted for the first time, and had a flood of emotions that I had never felt before and that somehow I felt at least part of what a woman feels when shes being fucked. I searched my mind for all the feelings I was having .. craving for her cock, wanting it in my mouth, wanting it inside me, the lust I felt for her body, and scarily, feelings of love and empathy I was having for her. She assured me this was all ok, and that she felt I had given her to hugest compliment possible. I laid there with her in my arms for an hour as we talked about it, and she seemed sincere when she said we had amazing chemistry. Eventually the weed wore off, and it was time to go. Agains she walked me to my car and this time, I just wanted to kiss her, and take her home with me. I felt these things in way I've never felt them for a woman. Thats not to say I don't love the women I'm dating, I just never had this particular feeling before. I drove home, and fell asleep immediately. The next day I was lost in a dream world, and laid there on the couch remembering how it felt when her cock first slipped into my ass.
Now, I want her even more badly. I want her to cum in my mouth. I want to swallow all of it. I'm desperate to taste her precum, and to feel her inside me again. But in the end, she is a hooker, and its not safe. I'm torn, and a little afraid that I've opened a door I wont be able to close. I'm having thoughts of seeking an actual tgirlfriend and contemplating the effect it would have on my social life.
I don't know what will happen next ...