I'm not dead

[BellaBellucci]

Hey everyone, I took a little break from the site for a while, lurking a bit to see how things went on without my interference. I have some observations about the cast of characters here that are a bit more detached and objective than usual now that I have a little perspective, but nothing I want to share at the moment except:

On Yasmine Lee:

First of all, Mspretty isn't me. It's Ashley George (sorry Ash - I always know when it's you). I don't think the mods will admit it, but I'm about 99.5% certain. (And, yes Schimmel is still Dupre ;))

Secondly, I have mixed feelings about the appearance. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Yasmine to death. Every time we've met she's always been so sweet and she would never want to hurt anybody, let alone her own community, so I'm really happy that she got this opportunity. I think it's good for mainstream audiences to see how beautiful and feminine a TS can be, particularly in the context of the location, where 'ladyboys' are quite common and fairly well accepted. But on the other hand (and I haven't seen the movie yet), it seems like she, and by extension all TS's were the butt of the joke on this one as we're somehow abominations with whom one should be ashamed to have sexual congress. It's wrong, plain and simple. And I'm sure it was funny to some, but really, isn't it the oldest TS joke in the book? Sure the scene could have been hysterical, but the main punchline is ancient and should really be retired by now.

Anyway, just because I'm not posting, it doesn't mean I'm not here. I've been busy auditioning some new fuck buddies and continuing the search for a reliable photographer (someday my Members' Area will actually go pay!), and generally just taking time for a bit of introspection.

~BB~

[Dino Velvet]

Damn Bella, I was almost worried about you. Glad you're back. Place gets a little dull when you're away.

[BellaBellucci]

Damn Bella, I was almost worried about you. Glad you're back. Place gets a little dull when you're away.

I missed you too, and I know you were worried because I got your email, but I didn't answer because I was in serious need of detachment. I don't think there's a member here who doesn't understand that. On top of that, I've been a political warrior here for nearly two years straight and nearly every other girl here has a bloodlust for me, kicking my figurative ass every time I take a stand on something that more often than not, can only stand to benefit transpeople as a group. Nobody else seems to want to make a sacrifice. That takes a toll over time. I'll never sell out my principals, but I really needed a break.

~BB~

[Dino Velvet]

I missed you too, and I know you were worried because I got your email, but I didn't answer because I was in serious need of detachment. I don't think there's a member here who doesn't understand that. On top of that, I've been a political warrior here for nearly two years straight and nearly every other girl here has a bloodlust for me, kicking my figurative ass every time I take a stand on something that more often than not, can only stand to benefit transpeople as a group. Nobody else seems to want to make a sacrifice. That takes a toll over time. I'll never sell out my principals, but I really needed a break.

~BB~

That's fine. I'm sure a break was good for you. The thing that kept me from prowling the OC looking for you is the fact that you're a badass broad who can handle her own business. You know I dig 'ya big time and I'm very happy you're back.

[BellaBellucci]

That's fine. I'm sure a break was good for you. The thing that kept me from prowling the OC looking for you is the fact that you're a badass broad who can handle her own business. You know I dig 'ya big time and I'm very happy you're back.

Thanks baby. :)

~BB~

[dgs925]

Have fun on your hiatus, wish you luck on finding the fuckbuddy. Hope you don't get too many married guys that don't know what they want and flake out on you ;-)

[BellaBellucci]

Have fun on your hiatus, wish you luck on finding the fuckbuddy. Hope you don't get too many married guys that don't know what they want and flake out on you ;-)

Yeah, well, for a long time people thought I didn't bottom and were scared off (I'm sure some still are), but after some experimentation, I'm re-embracing my more submissive sexual nature. I'm actually as submissive sexually as I am dominant in real life. :D

... and I'm shocked at how wimpy some of these so-called 'alphas' are. Geez!

~BB~

[Dino Velvet]

Thanks baby. :)

~BB~

You're welcome.:cheers:

[rockabilly]

I'm not dead either , quite the opposite really. I'm living ... dating and partaking of the perks of having a gf.

[rockabilly]

Oh and welcome back Bella.

[ed_jaxon]

Who said Bella was a bottom?

[tsmandy]

I missed you too, and I know you were worried because I got your email, but I didn't answer because I was in serious need of detachment. I don't think there's a member here who doesn't understand that. On top of that, I've been a political warrior here for nearly two years straight and nearly every other girl here has a bloodlust for me, kicking my figurative ass every time I take a stand on something that more often than not, can only stand to benefit transpeople as a group. Nobody else seems to want to make a sacrifice. That takes a toll over time. I'll never sell out my principals, but I really needed a break.

~BB~

Yo girl we all make sacrafices and not every girl has a bloodlust for you. Alot of what you write strikes me as sanctimonious and it irritates me, but I don't wish you any harm or sucky times.

Life is hard for most of us, and it would be nice if you could try and talk about your feelings without casting blanket criticisms of every other girl around. Not cool, not welcome. You want to have community look for a way to build not tear down.

[BellaBellucci]

I'm not dead either , quite the opposite really. I'm living ... dating and partaking of the perks of having a gf.

Told ya so! :dancing:


Who said Bella was a bottom?

I did. :D


Yo girl we all make sacrafices and not every girl has a bloodlust for you. Alot of what you write strikes me as sanctimonious and it irritates me, but I don't wish you any harm or sucky times.

Life is hard for most of us, and it would be nice if you could try and talk about your feelings without casting blanket criticisms of every other girl around. Not cool, not welcome. You want to have community look for a way to build not tear down.

We do not all make sacrifices, and you know it! And plenty of us sacrifice more than others. And most girls in porn do have a bloodlust for me. Stop downplaying it. It is what it is.

Seriously? You think I cause the negativity as opposed to reflect it? That strikes me as intellectual dishonesty. Part of my introspection was determining where that line is and right now I'm convinced I'm a product of my environment as it pertains to HA. In fact I've always wondered how nobody has ever seemed to consider the possibility that I do what I do because I feel it's necessary. My break from this board has been quite, QUITE relaxing.

I don't want to go through this all over again; it's been played to death. It just bugs me that people still don't see the big picture. Show me kindness, respect, and respect for the community, and I'll reciprocate in spades. I haven't seen that yet and I've been here almost 2 years.

~BB~

[ed_jaxon]

Oh yeah, that's right you are a bottom!

[tsmandy]

We do not all make sacrifices, and you know it! And plenty of us sacrifice more than others. And most girls in porn do have a bloodlust for me. Stop downplaying it. It is what it is.

Seriously? You think I cause the negativity as opposed to reflect it? That strikes me as intellectual dishonesty. Part of my introspection was determining where that line is and right now I'm convinced I'm a product of my environment as it pertains to HA. In fact I've always wondered how nobody has ever seemed to consider the possibility that I do what I do because I feel it's necessary. My break from this board has been quite, QUITE relaxing.

I don't want to go through this all over again; it's been played to death. It just bugs me that people still don't see the big picture. Show me kindness, respect, and respect for the community, and I'll reciprocate in spades. I haven't seen that yet and I've been here almost 2 years.

~BB~

Most girls in porn have no idea who you are and are mostly concerned with paying the bills. HA (like many regions of the net) is a pretty negative environment by and large and I think you are right to step back.

You can stomp around all you want, complain about the big picture...whatever. You've been around for 2 years and you haven't done shit but stir the pot and try to make a name for yourself with dissonance and strife.

You come from a place of anger, self loathing and venemous hatred and it shows. When you learn some humility and compassion, trust me your sisters will embrace you. I know this as a lifelong freak and outsider, I have all the tendencies and I try really hard to keep them in check.

You are not a prophet, you are not pushing any radical agenda. Anyways...I wish you could find a way to be at peace with shit and have a good life.

see ya in another stupid argument with no substance in 6 months.

[BellaBellucci]

Most girls in porn have no idea who you are and are mostly concerned with paying the bills. HA (like many regions of the net) is a pretty negative environment by and large and I think you are right to step back.

You can stomp around all you want, complain about the big picture...whatever. You've been around for 2 years and you haven't done shit but stir the pot and try to make a name for yourself with dissonance and strife.

You come from a place of anger, self loathing and venemous hatred and it shows. When you learn some humility and compassion, trust me your sisters will embrace you. I know this as a lifelong freak and outsider, I have all the tendencies and I try really hard to keep them in check.

You are not a prophet, you are not pushing any radical agenda. Anyways...I wish you could find a way to be at peace with shit and have a good life.

see ya in another stupid argument with no substance in 6 months.

... if you say so.

~BB~

[Yvonne183]

Hi Bella,, I have a bloodlust for you cause I'm a vampire.

Nice to see you again.

[BellaBellucci]

Hi Bella,, I have a bloodlust for you cause I'm a vampire.

Nice to see you again.

Thank you. I appreciate your O-positivity. :)

~BB~

[socalrick]

Welcome back Bella, you were missed.

[CORVETTEDUDE]

Well, damn girl!!! I'm glad you're still here and OK! Shit, I thought maybe Al Qaida had talked you into being a suicide bomber!!:hide-1::whistle::praying:

[BellaBellucci]

Oh yeah, that's right you are a bottom!

Yup. And I've been getting a lot of practice lately. Turns out guys DO like to fuck me. :dancing:


Well, damn girl!!! I'm glad you're still here and OK! Shit, I thought maybe Al Qaida had talked you into being a suicide bomber!!:hide-1::whistle::praying:

Umm, huh?!

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~BB~

[hippifried]

Does this mean we have to cancel the wake?

[BellaBellucci]

Does this mean we have to cancel the wake?

I'm not saying I won't disappear without notice again (I'll try not to), but yes, you can this time. :lol:

~BB~

[kaiser1one]

Welcome back. Now on your knee's wench. *Unzips pants*

[BellaBellucci]

Welcome back. Now on your knee's wench. *Unzips pants*

Don't say it if you don't mean it. :fuckin:

~BB~

[CORVETTEDUDE]

I was thinkin' a little HA 'cockhound' Gang Bang, since you've been MIA....or was it AWOL??!!:salad:shrug:banana::kiss:

[BellaBellucci]

I was thinkin' a little HA 'cockhound' Gang Bang, since you've been MIA....or was it AWOL??!!:salad:shrug:banana::kiss:

AWOL? I need permission now? lol

... and yeah maybe the next HA social should be in my ass. :dancing:

~BB~

[CORVETTEDUDE]

AWOL? I need permission now? lol

... and yeah maybe the next HA social should be in my ass. :dancing:

~BB~


Let's get that on the calendar, right away!!!:rock2

[onmyknees]

I said some really nice things about you Bella in your absence....did you see them ? LOL..

I'm glad you're back...hope all is good. Caught ya on Cam the other nite, which is unusual for me....but you look pretty fucking hot !

Xo

[loren]

Welcome back Bella, I'm glad you're not dead.:kiss:

[theone1982]

Glad to see you back Bella! One question though, how do we know that the body snatchers didn't take the real Bella, and now we are talking to Pod- Bella? Just to be on the safe side, I'm going to have to have hot, sweaty sex with you to find out if you are the real one!:):dancing:

[BellaBellucci]

I said some really nice things about you Bella in your absence....did you see them ? LOL..

I'm glad you're back...hope all is good. Caught ya on Cam the other nite, which is unusual for me....but you look pretty fucking hot !

Xo


Welcome back Bella, I'm glad you're not dead.:kiss:

Thanks you guys.


Glad to see you back Bella! One question though, how do we know that the body snatchers didn't take the real Bella, and now we are talking to Pod- Bella? Just to be on the safe side, I'm going to have to have hot, sweaty sex with you to find out if you are the real one!:):dancing:

Wait now. Who's anal probing whom here?! :fuckin:

~BB~

[Helvis2012]

Thank God for that!

[yodajazz]

Does this mean we have to cancel the wake?
I no longer have to wear all black. Yay! I just wish I could see more of Bella in her dark hair look.

[phobun]

Hey everyone, I took a little break from the site for a while, lurking a bit to see how things went on without my interference.


You should come back and interfere.

[BellaBellucci]

You should come back and interfere.

Why? Nobody appreciates a damn thing, especially from me. I'm done playing referee.

~BB~

[lisaparadise]

Why? Nobody appreciates a damn thing, especially from me. I'm done playing referee.

~BB~im thinkin you look pretty hot for not having a pulse but what the hell nobody really thought you had a pulse on what goes on anyhow lol

[Dino Velvet]

im thinkin you look pretty hot for not having a pulse but what the hell nobody really thought you had a pulse on what goes on anyhow lol

I'd fuck Bella if she were dead. She wouldn't complain about me shorting the envelope then.

[Quiet Reflections]

glad your back. I missed you

[Dino Velvet]

glad your back. I missed you

I didn't go anywhere.

[runningdownthatdream]

Why? Nobody appreciates a damn thing, especially from me. I'm done playing referee.

~BB~

You're needed to keep people honest.....it's good to have someone challenge the status quo and be the iconoclast ;-)

[MdR Dave]

Why? Nobody appreciates a damn thing, especially from me. .

~BB~

Not true. Been kinda boring without you. Insightful, witty, and a "tough girl from back East" attitude" - love it.

Glad to see your name on the board again, Bella.

[giXXer_1k]

What about Battefield BElla.......... haven't seen you on there either?

[dderek123]

Welcome back Bella!

[goldensamba]

Hi Bella, I swear I saw someone who looks just like you in Anaheim the other day. Unfortunately I was in a rush and couldn't take the time to look closer.

[BellaBellucci]

You're needed to keep people honest.....it's good to have someone challenge the status quo and be the iconoclast ;-)


Not true. Been kinda boring without you. Insightful, witty, and a "tough girl from back East" attitude" - love it.

Glad to see your name on the board again, Bella.


What about Battefield BElla.......... haven't seen you on there either?


Welcome back Bella!

Again, thank you boys. I'll still post my observations, but I don't intend to waste my time arguing about it anymore. My insight is lauded by many, so people here can take it or leave it. I don't care anymore; people are free to ignore my warnings at their own peril.


Hi Bella, I swear I saw someone who looks just like you in Anaheim the other day. Unfortunately I was in a rush and couldn't take the time to look closer.

It was probably me. :)

~BB~

[goldensamba]

It was probably me. :)

~BB~

Oh nice. You are right by me. We should meet up for a drink or two.

[oak]

Welcome back Bella. Always good to have someone around who sees through the bullshit. Did you say you're auditioning fuck buddies...:)

[Dino Velvet]

Alright Bella, five pages of ass kissing. We like you. We really like you. Can you kick down some of that Beantown Beanhole? Spread those cheeks nice and wide and cough.:salad

[BellaBellucci]

Alright Bella, five pages of ass kissing. We like you. We really like you. Can you kick down some of that Beantown Beanhole? Spread those cheeks nice and wide and cough.:salad

I need new photos again but here are a couple from 2 months ago. :)

~BB~

[theone1982]

I need new photos again but here are a couple from 2 months ago. :)

~BB~

FEET!!!!:Bowdown::):jerkoff

[BellaBellucci]

FEET!!!!:Bowdown::):jerkoff

Fetish freak. :party:

~BB~

[theone1982]

Fetish freak. :party:

~BB~

HOT!!!:Bowdown: Right on!:party::)

[phobun]

Why? Nobody appreciates a damn thing, especially from me. I'm done playing referee.

~BB~


Don't play referee. Just get back into the ring. The crowd loves you.

[Dino Velvet]

I need new photos again but here are a couple from 2 months ago. :)

~BB~

Atta girl!:salad

[oak]

Smoking hot pics. Keep em coming. As lovely as ever

[robertlouis]

I'm re-embracing my more submissive sexual nature. I'm actually as submissive sexually as I am dominant in real life. :D


~BB~

Fuck! That's one hot combination, Bella.

So I can bang your ass AND you yell at me at the same time? Although that sounds too much like being married....

[BellaBellucci]

Fuck! That's one hot combination, Bella.

So I can bang your ass AND you yell at me at the same time? Although that sounds too much like being married....

Well played. Very well played! :lol:

~BB~

[Dino Velvet]

Bellucci hasn't gone full-on Belushi yet. She lives!

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