My website updated

[melissacarter]

Hey friends,

Check out my totally udpated personal website:

www.melissacarter.net

Everything including photos and my life story has been updated. And look for my escort site to be updated shortly:

www.meetmelissacarter.net

I'd love your thoughts on the site, take the poll too.

xoxo

Melissa

[elo]

I´m not surprised someone clicked on the you "should die option".What the heck brought you to put in such an option? :lol:

I voted pretty cool,but it could be cooler.The site is pretty dark.Not really inviting imo.
Good thing is there are pretty much links,such as bio,story,blog etc.But i´m sure people(guys)would like to see more pics of you. :2cent

[melissacarter]

I´m not surprised someone clicked on the you "should die option".What the heck brought you to put in such an option?

I always take into account the dickhead factor.

And give the people what they want.

[elo]

I´m not surprised someone clicked on the you "should die option".What the heck brought you to put in such an option?

I always take into account the dickhead factor.

And give the people what they want.I understand.I propose next time you make a poll,put in also the "Shut up and bend over!"-option.

[Bicycology]

I liked the over-all format - looks clean... and the photos look good, too.

artistic indeed.

howver... sloooooooow to load.

your server needs a spanking.

[Hostile]

Lost in addiction, and having the money to finance it, I had become an out of control coke-smoker of the highest order. This seemed to go well with my lifestyle, or so I thought, and by July my life was nothing more than that of a crack whore. I shacked up in Atlantic City, D.C. and New York, taking appointments to fund my drug habit, running out of money and then crashing. I would take downers to knock me out so I didn't have to crash awake. I hated what I was doing. I would very quickly come to my end this way and I knew it.

I love what you wrote, its so dead on point and the story of most of these girls, especially the porn girls. pain killers are the breakfast of most girls in this industry.

You seem very smart with great talent for writing, I know the hooking pays your bills but its fools gold and one day will eat up alive. My hope for you is that you will realize that you are worth much more than a few hundred dollars for sex and one day use your education to get to the next level in life. Most of these girls have little to no education, you have all the tools to be different than the average TS hooker. I wish you love in your life as well as much success. I think what you wrote was fantastic and a must read for any TS. Best of luck to you.

[Alyssa87]

Melissa, maybe u can talk about how u kicked, and are living drug free on the site.

help out other people in active addiction :)

[Flying Dutchman]

Im sorry, but I hate websites with music :).

[Richctdude]

your hot

[melissacarter]

Im sorry, but I hate websites with music :).

Fair enough. Still, the music stays.

[ls1290]

Looks good, but my only suggestion is to make thumbs of your pics so the pages do not take a year and a half to load.

[melissacarter]

Lost in addiction, and having the money to finance it, I had become an out of control coke-smoker of the highest order. This seemed to go well with my lifestyle, or so I thought, and by July my life was nothing more than that of a crack whore. I shacked up in Atlantic City, D.C. and New York, taking appointments to fund my drug habit, running out of money and then crashing. I would take downers to knock me out so I didn't have to crash awake. I hated what I was doing. I would very quickly come to my end this way and I knew it.

I love what you wrote, its so dead on point and the story of most of these girls, especially the porn girls. pain killers are the breakfast of most girls in this industry.

You seem very smart with great talent for writing, I know the hooking pays your bills but its fools gold and one day will eat up alive. My hope for you is that you will realize that you are worth much more than a few hundred dollars for sex and one day use your education to get to the next level in life. Most of these girls have little to no education, you have all the tools to be different than the average TS hooker. I wish you love in your life as well as much success. I think what you wrote was fantastic and a must read for any TS. Best of luck to you.

Thank you, Hostile. I was always a writer. It flows freely and unforced. The real tragedy is, in the throes of this madness, I never wrote anything new this year, except for my story. And haven't seriously painted in years. These are much greater costs to me than the 10K I blew on base.

As for my vocation, people continue to say exactly what you have said, that "I'm worth much more than that." But honestly, I feel fine with it. I feel I'm fairly compensated for the experience. While sometimes repulsed, generally I'm pretty okay with the intimacy and have no problem kissing, making out and all those other intimate acts you hear escorts complain of. As long as the client is clean respectful and sober I can work with him. I have a counselor now who told me that 100% of sex workers were sexually abused. That makes sense. And I fall into that.

Perhaps I'm just chronically and permanently numb, but I sincerely have no problem being a sex worker and can honestly say this is the best job of my life. I'm going horseback riding today with my bf, then a long five-mile run and later a session with my counselor. How cool is that? These are MY days, I set 'em up, I live 'em. I will take this deal, along with the self-esteem issues, over my former wage-slave life. I see those commuters in traffic each morning outside my window and think, "they are lost in the minutia." I hated being one of them. For me, that's when the REAL low self-esteem kicked in, when I felt like just another bleep on the screen.

[Bicycology]

ah... music... that explains the slow loading...

by the way - you're gorgeous in a totally natural way [as ironic as that may sound!]

[Bicycology]

I was always a writer. It flows freely and unforced. The real tragedy is, in the throes of this madness, I never wrote anything new this year, except for my story. And haven't seriously painted in years. These are much greater costs to me than the 10K I blew on base

I'm not suggesting that you quit being a sex worker [god forbid! from my personal point of view =) ] but maybe you should write something of your story - for the betterment of all.

I don't think I've read a really well-written story that touches on all the topics your life has so far enveloped.

And i did read the Happy Hooker 30 years or so ago [it was pretty good, as I recall].

Just a thought.

[MonsieurValentine]

X the implants. You look divine as is.

[iloveall]

where is the let's have fun vote

[melissacarter]

X the implants. You look divine as is.

Thank you for your input. Surgery remains on schedule for November 24th. There is an entire thread devoted to this subject, not started by me:

http://www.hungangels.com/board/viewtopic.php?t=37613&highlight=

[melissacarter]

I was always a writer. It flows freely and unforced. The real tragedy is, in the throes of this madness, I never wrote anything new this year, except for my story. And haven't seriously painted in years. These are much greater costs to me than the 10K I blew on base

I'm not suggesting that you quit being a sex worker [god forbid! from my personal point of view =) ] but maybe you should write something of your story - for the betterment of all.

I don't think I've read a really well-written story that touches on all the topics your life has so far enveloped.

And i did read the Happy Hooker 30 years or so ago [it was pretty good, as I recall].

Just a thought.

The Happy Hooker is candy compared to the shit I've lived with.

And yes, I am in the midst of a story, "Plan Z", which I hope to complete before year's end.

[Aragon21]

Where is the Scrollbar? Making it black crops up the picture and the bottom, making it look as if there is none (Lastest News isn't a link with that underline and nothing written under it?...oh wait there it is.)

Just a suggestion but maybe black bar and grey/white scroll area...something to indicate there is more on the page. How else can i know you "quit" smoking yesterday :roll:

[dave252]

you are a beauty!!!!!

[Nikka]

you shud die - 3 votes LOL :mrgreen:

people is crazy melissa :)

[melissacarter]

Where is the Scrollbar? Making it black crops up the picture and the bottom, making it look as if there is none (Lastest News isn't a link with that underline and nothing written under it?...oh wait there it is.)

Just a suggestion but maybe black bar and grey/white scroll area...something to indicate there is more on the page. How else can i know you "quit" smoking yesterday :roll:

Thank you, you are right, I'm gonna change that scrollbar. Keep in mind I design and publish these pages on my own, learned it by doing, no training so please bear with me. These are excellent criticisms that will helkp make it a better viewing experience.

[melissacarter]

you shud die - 3 votes LOL :mrgreen:

people is crazy melissa :)

Right, because it gives the dickless spineless fucks a chance to dis someone anonymously. Notice none of those people cares to identify him/herself. Loser coward pussies.

I want more people to wish me dead, I consider it a great honor.

[eggbert]

Of course like the drooling perv that I am, I went right to the pics. Very slow to load but I liked them. I especially like your ballsy attitude on the beach.

[MrsKellyPierce]

Nice website girl, a little darker for my taste, you know me bubblegum pink and light colors haha but very nice.

[Justawannabe]

Love the site...

I don't often agree with you posts... just have a few real differences of opinion I guess.

Was shocked at how similar a lot of our emotional experiences have been. Just having a chance to read into someone else's journey was invaluable, thank you for putting it up.

The artwork was emotional, I'm not sure I can give a better response, but I found seeing it a valuable experience as well.

I wish I had more clarity and could give you back more... but I'm still locked up inside right now and can't give truly open responses. Maybe I can give back some more when the current depression lifts a bit.

Only issues with the technical side I saw was the slow load.

[melissacarter]

Love the site...

I don't often agree with you posts... just have a few real differences of opinion I guess..

That's okay, my opinions are hard to swallow. I don't always agree myself.

[CORVETTEDUDE]

Lookin' Good, 'Lissa!

[lisaparadise]

i checked it out this morning love the 2008 pix and wow your looking really really good awesome job on the website tx.

[FiremanforTS]

Looking great--both you and the site!

[melissacarter]

i checked it out this morning love the 2008 pix and wow your looking really really good awesome job on the website tx.

Thank you Lisa, that makes me feel good how nice you are to me. You're looking fabulous yourself!

[DC]

Melissa is a hottie, she was on cam in the chat room earlier, nice ass and very sexy.....

[the_corner]

Ehmm...

My only comment on the website.... the pictures on the gallery should have thumbnails... instead of the big pictures being resized via HTML ( img height=xx etc etc)

That way, the galleries would take less time to load, and would consume less bandwidth, and well, I don't know if the bandwidth of that website costs money, but if so... then that simple measure could save a couple of dollars apart of the improvement of the website loading faster.

Just my two cents.

[PeteIsHere]

I love your site and think you are beautiful and sexy.

[edward almond]

Girl you look great.Website is fantastic.To me ts are a cool new gender.You have it all.But if I wanted oral sex with you it would be about satisfying both of us, and I can't understand why that would keep me from being your boyfriend.I would think touching you with my mouth anywhere would be pleasurable. But I don't want to analyze you just dig your beautiful parts and vibes. love you.

[melissacarter]

Girl you look great.Website is fantastic.To me ts are a cool new gender.You have it all.But if I wanted oral sex with you it would be about satisfying both of us, and I can't understand why that would keep me from being your boyfriend.I would think touching you with my mouth anywhere would be pleasurable. But I don't want to analyze you just dig your beautiful parts and vibes. love you.

Wow thanks guyz I'm feelin it!

As for the oral sex thing, on second thought I retract my statement. That still makes you eligible, lol.

[melissacarter]

Of course like the drooling perv that I am, I went right to the pics. Very slow to load but I liked them. I especially like your ballsy attitude on the beach.

I would expect guys to go right to the pics, so consider yourself normal. I must confess, I'm a little disappointed that no one has mentioned my short stories but then again they may have mouse in one hand cock in the other.

Please do consider reading one of my stories, I would love some feedback.

My short story page:

www.melissacarter.net/writings.html

I’ll leave you with a poem from last year, “Dangerous & Deviant”:

Dangerous & Deviant

Dangerous and deviant
Totally harmless
If I tried to be charming
I’d be utterly charmless
Kind and considerate
I’ll snuff out your soul
If I look like a girl
I'm just playing my role

Intelligent, witty
I come across dumb
If I said that I love you
I was just having fun
If I looked like a boy
Then turned to a girl
Would it make any sense?
Might it rock your small world?

If I looked like a girl
Then showed up as an ape
Would the planets collide?
Can I please find my shape?
I am criminally sane
I’ll make killers complain
I’m so dangerous and deviant
So simple and plain

If I looked like a whore
But showed up as a rat
Would you cuddle and pet me
Till I purred like a cat?
I’m dangerous and deviant
Simple but pure
I’m puking my sickness
When I cry like a girl

I show up as an angel
Then flash! Turn to Satan
I’ll eat you for breakfast
With lunch still awaitin'
I was just having fun
Didn’t mean to break glass
You broke it you bought it
Its cash, grass or ass

I’m dangerous and deviant
Corrupt to the core
If I looked like a girl
Then moaned like a whore
If I looked like a cat
If I sweated and plucked
Till I looked like a rat
Till I felt soundly fucked
But showed up as a boy
And showed up as a brat
I’d be ugly and charmless
If I looked like a cat

[DolDagger]

Nice web page, you're a sexy girl

[mcaextreme69]

But your 2008 pictures rock. Looking Good....

[melissacarter]

Ehmm...

My only comment on the website.... the pictures on the gallery should have thumbnails... instead of the big pictures being resized via HTML ( img height=xx etc etc)

That way, the galleries would take less time to load, and would consume less bandwidth, and well, I don't know if the bandwidth of that website costs money, but if so... then that simple measure could save a couple of dollars apart of the improvement of the website loading faster.

Just my two cents.

The entire site is being redone by the designer who did my meetmelissacarter site. It will load much quicker.

Thank you for your feedback.