Thank Heavens I found you!

[CafeNoir]

I am a single black guy living in Thailand as part of a "junk the crap western values" exercise that is actually working rather well. I am however "confused" about what my sexual orientation is. Part of me tells me it really does not matter, just be yourself. But I guess I am joining the hords of men that want "the answer" What am I?

I am gobsmackingly turned on by ladyboys. Pre Op transexuals, call them waht you like. I am talking about the hotest women I have ever seen who also have a gorgeous cock to fill every hole one finds pleasurable. I have always had grilfrieds but nothing serious as in nothing over a year! I'm in my mid thirties now. I like having a girlfriend but I know deep down that I crave the intimacy and sexual experience only a Lady boy can offer. Living in the country it has been possible to explore this and I have found myselg become less and less shy about it. I really want to be proud of EVRY part of my life. I don't want to cary around a big dirty secret. I guess thats why I want to know who/what I am so when confronted I know how to deal with it.

Sorry if this is an age old theme. I am just so happy to have found somwhere to speak freely and I hope to make friends here and who knows what else. I know I am stil abit wet behind the ears so don''t judge me too harshly. I really would like some help so I can get to grips with who I am.

thank you for being here!

CafeNoir

[Eklipse]

Welcome Aboard Buddy!

[blckhaze]

welcome

[Jericho]

Well, if you're going to be confused, Thailand's the place to be confused in!
Plenty of places to work it out! :P

[peggygee]

I am a single black guy living in Thailand as part of a "junk the crap western values" exercise that is actually working rather well. I am however "confused" about what my sexual orientation is. Part of me tells me it really does not matter, just be yourself. But I guess I am joining the hords of men that want "the answer" What am I?

I am gobsmackingly turned on by ladyboys. Pre Op transexuals, call them waht you like. I am talking about the hotest women I have ever seen who also have a gorgeous cock to fill every hole one finds pleasurable. I have always had grilfrieds but nothing serious as in nothing over a year! I'm in my mid thirties now. I like having a girlfriend but I know deep down that I crave the intimacy and sexual experience only a Lady boy can offer. Living in the country it has been possible to explore this and I have found myselg become less and less shy about it. I really want to be proud of EVRY part of my life. I don't want to cary around a big dirty secret. I guess thats why I want to know who/what I am so when confronted I know how to deal with it.

Sorry if this is an age old theme. I am just so happy to have found somwhere to speak freely and I hope to make friends here and who knows what else. I know I am stil abit wet behind the ears so don''t judge me too harshly. I really would like some help so I can get to grips with who I am.

thank you for being here!

CafeNoir



I agree there a re some stunning white ladyboys but I find the thais very attractive. Hell, I can be in traffic and seea reallt femme guy hanging off the back of a bus and wonder... I'm still in the throws of "am I gay?".



Sawadee kha, trust that all is well in LOS.

By perusing your various postings, I can tell that you are very new to the
world of transgenderism.

It is very evident from your posts that you are in the fetish stage, and
are still coming to grips with your new found infatuation.

Perhaps a good course of action would be to perform a search by others
that were new and that were questioning their sexuality and their desires.

I think if you do some research beyond just the physical apects of your
predilections that you will find the insights that you seek. I will share with
you that this is a highly complicated area, and you would be well served
to do further investigations into it.

Good luck, and welcome.

[Kriss]

Good advice as ever from Peggygee, follow her guidance friend. From a MALE (tranny chasing) perspective........I think you should waste no time in meeting, and getting to know some TS girls, mentally and sexually.
Like many others, my first experiences and meetings with TS women were with Escorts, prostitutes, whatever you call the working girls. This is a good way to discover for yourself just how attracted you are to TS women without disappointing yourself and others. See a few girls, decide what you do or don't like (this is evolving in all people, sometimes you want this, sometimes that, nothing wrong there). Still, you really should read as much as possible and this site is EXCELLENT for getting a glimpse of what SOME ts women think(SOME OF THE TIME :lol: :roll: :wink: ).
I am not saying that seeing escorts is the best way to understand TS women but you must start somewhere and this is the easiest first step in knowing what you want. Your motivations sound realistic and very genuine, I was very "confused" at first but slowly the peices start to fit and this should work out fine for you, especially if you have recently "freed" yourself of the expectations of others. That was the big change for me, when i had engineered my life so that i could, if necessary, say to absolutely anyone "yes i like Transexual girls, actually been with quite a few, what of it?", with no fear of repercussions. There is a really good topic started by Hara-juku tgirl regarding "guys, does your friend or family know"?" . You have come to the right place. Hung Angels will fix you boy.
just be yourself and never try to be 'this type of guy' or 'that type of guy' to appeal to any particular girl, what some TS women think is thier ideal man is anothers worst nightmare and remember , these TS women are so different and slightly intimidating to us at first but they are still just WOMEN and thus prone to change thier minds from one second to the next. :wink:

seriously ---GOOD LUCK WITH THE "junk the crap western values" THING. Have to take my hat off to that.
:shrug

[CafeNoir]

PeggyGee,

Kop Khun Mak mak Krup!

Yes I think it is very early day for me but i didn't even know there were "Stages". I've tried google for help but until I found this sight it has been next to useless. I will search on here though and see what I can uncoverl. Would it be too much to ask what keywords to use?

Wadee ja,

CN

[Hara_Juku Tgirl]

Welcome to HA CafeNoir. :)

~Kisses.

HTG

[skyler]

welcome !! im sure you'll love it here :!:

[CafeNoir]

Thanks Kirss and everyone else for the welcome. Kriss you sound like you've got it very well sussed out. I have begun as you suggested. In thailand the gap between dating and "paying for it" is often blurred. I've only "Dated" one ladyboy and she was amazing. Nunny had the finest pair of thrupny bits I'd ever seen and when out eyes met across a crowed club I became fixated. Later when I left she followed me out we wound up goig to a hotel. I thought it was going to be a bar girl experiece but she was not after money, she just liked me. (RARE IN THAILAND FOR TG OR GG if you've been here, YOU KNOW IT!)

We hung out a few times and I even went to her family home where I have to say I was a bit nervous about making love while her mum was down stairs! (big house though...). Anyway she used to come from riding on top of me everytime and I loved how intimate it felt. Then sh told me she was moving to italy as it would be good for her. I was gutted and cut off feelings as I don't "do" grief. But while it lasted it was awsome and I honestly felt it was the first stages of "coming out".

[DJ_Asia]

Welcome to HA and Thailand!

Sent ya a private message....get back at me....

[Kriss]

Kriss you sound like you've got it very well sussed out.

Hardly, It's a fucking minefield out there. ':lol:' I guess It's easier for me to be militantly 'out' about TS girls, having always been somewhat on the edges of society. (read:total nutcase)


Welcome to HA and Thailand!

I think you're going to be allright buddy, looks like you jus got a new mentor........