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01-30-2007, 10:52 PM
I just wanna say I'm just looking for advice NOT asking if I'm gay or bi, I have no one to talk to about this. And I really just need some guidance.
So far I have never been with a guy, but I do find myself turned on by guys and girls.
I first felt like that a few years ago. While I'm not really into porn I do watch every so often. Normally I focus on the girl, but this one time the guy got my attention. Good-looking guy and a nice dick.
I think we all know what happens when we are alone with porn LOL. Since than I have been turned on by both guys and girls, while I am more attatracted to women, a big dick is more more of a turn on.
Not long after that I started talking with guys online. Even though it was just talk I never got off like that in my life.
But see this is my dilema. I met this one guy on line and all he wanted was a blowjob and to fuck me. No relationship just sex. And that was perfect I wasn't looking for anything more.
In the end I just couldn't go through with it. This happened once more.
I'm not looking for a relationship. And honestly if I were to settle down it would be with a woman. I'm turned on by guys, but I'm not attarcted to them like I am women.
I'm not sure if this just fantasy or not. Anytime I had the chance in the end it didn't feel right.
Please don't take that wrong. By that I mean it just not what I wanted.
Honestly I have no one to confide in. And that makes it even harder. Should I just take the chance and meet a guy and take it from there?
When it comes to women I don't have this problem. And by the way no I'm not afraid I'll like guys so much and only wanna be with men. I am also attatracted to women. It would have to be one hell of a dick for me to forget women LOL. So it has nothing to do with that.
It's just every chance I get I just feel that it's wrong for me and not what I want, but I am still attacrted to guys as well.
So I don't know if it's just some fantasy or not.
I just need some advice.
So far I have never been with a guy, but I do find myself turned on by guys and girls.
I first felt like that a few years ago. While I'm not really into porn I do watch every so often. Normally I focus on the girl, but this one time the guy got my attention. Good-looking guy and a nice dick.
I think we all know what happens when we are alone with porn LOL. Since than I have been turned on by both guys and girls, while I am more attatracted to women, a big dick is more more of a turn on.
Not long after that I started talking with guys online. Even though it was just talk I never got off like that in my life.
But see this is my dilema. I met this one guy on line and all he wanted was a blowjob and to fuck me. No relationship just sex. And that was perfect I wasn't looking for anything more.
In the end I just couldn't go through with it. This happened once more.
I'm not looking for a relationship. And honestly if I were to settle down it would be with a woman. I'm turned on by guys, but I'm not attarcted to them like I am women.
I'm not sure if this just fantasy or not. Anytime I had the chance in the end it didn't feel right.
Please don't take that wrong. By that I mean it just not what I wanted.
Honestly I have no one to confide in. And that makes it even harder. Should I just take the chance and meet a guy and take it from there?
When it comes to women I don't have this problem. And by the way no I'm not afraid I'll like guys so much and only wanna be with men. I am also attatracted to women. It would have to be one hell of a dick for me to forget women LOL. So it has nothing to do with that.
It's just every chance I get I just feel that it's wrong for me and not what I want, but I am still attacrted to guys as well.
So I don't know if it's just some fantasy or not.
I just need some advice.