Mommy, what's a Peggygee?

[peggygee]

The uncut 'remix'
http://www.hungangels.com/board/viewtopic.php?t=11467

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Greetings, I am the person known as Peggy.

It, is truly an honor and privilege to make your acquaintance.

Questions have come up as to the nature, and purpose of my questions and posts.

Then, there is the question of who is Peggy?

I shall try to provide an answer, and be as brief as possible as I know that your time is valuable.

In private emails, under a seperate cover, to some, I have expanded somewhat on this answer, but perhaps for a broader audience, this shall suffice.

Perhaps, it might be best to start my answer with what I am 'not' trying to do.

1. I am not trying to usurp, or circumvent the authority of the forum owner, moderator or purpose of this or any group.

2. And, no, the nature of my questions, are not part of any degree conferring endeavour. Though learning is a life long endeavour, and I am a fairly well educated woman, there a few reasons for my many posts and questions, literally throughout cyber space.

One of them, is just just my naturally curious, and inquisitive nature. The other I will go into in a moment.

3. I am also not in this for the money or for any personal gain. I am not selling any product, nor I am I pandering myself, or engaging in any illicit activity, sexual or otherwise.

Then, what am I doing?

Well, I am finding that I am meeting a number of interesting, and good people. I am learning about a variety of subjects, myself included.

Maybe if I am lucky, I might even meet someone, and have that develop into an LTR, great if it happens, but also okay if it doesn't.

But my real reason, my raison de etre, is 'I am here for the women'.

Please allow me to clarify.

In my life I have done and experienced many, many things, some good, some bad.

Also in my life, I have for over three decades lived, full time as the woman I was born to be. A decade of that has been as a post op.

Due to many events in my life, most outside the scope of this letter, as soon as I was able to, I took the 'first train out of 'trannyville'.

When I went post op, I went even deeper under ground. Now, I am not trying to say I am 'un-clockable', but for the most part I pass, fairly well. And, I tend to be just 'another broad, in a sea of broads.

So, what brought me out of my self imposed exile.

There are a number of answers, but I think the most relevant one was I thought, and I think I can be of help to my Sisters.

I figured that while I was in the forum, I could share some of my insight. Perhaps get a dialouge going between the men and women, between the posts of 'Horny in Hoboken'. 'Want Some In Waco', 'Looking For A Shemale In LA, For A Hookup, Because, I Am Curious, And My Wife Doesn't Understand'. That and the ubiquitious spam.

I figured if people start talking they might find that, they have some things in common, For me the way to start that dialouge was to ask questions.


The 'girl' that got on that train out of 'trannyville' is not the same 'woman' , who is now back in the town, that has bittersweet memories.

That's the broad strokes of who Peggy is, and what her agenda is.

I will send a few other thoughts that may flesh this out a bit.

If I am guilty, of anything it is of being over zealous. I am a very, very passionate person, whether in an intimate relationship or vis a vis people I care about.

Well, I am going to wrap now, if you have read my posts, you know I can go on for quite some time.

Oh, and just one last thing, there are many facets to Peggy,
she is a multi-dimensional person, here is just another view.

After all, even do-gooders need love too. :)

[HiiiGH]

WELCOME as new member i'm hope that you'll have a lot of fun here i see thats you are a good writer and thats just perfect


good luck
HiiiGH

[peggygee]

WELCOME as new member i'm hope that you'll have a lot of fun here i see thats you are a good writer and thats just perfect


good luck
HiiiGH

Thank you so much HiiiGH.

Are you really a Tupac fan. I truly enjoyed much of his work as a rapper, actor, poet.

I am a big fan of his Mother, former Black Panther, but still active in the civil rights movement, Alfeni Shakur, as well.

[suckseed]

Welcome Peggy! I've really been enjoying your writings so far. Like most of the guys here, I was initially just a moth drawn to the light given off by the beautiful women pictured here. I liked the picture threads, the size and quality of those pictures, and the fact that there are actual people here that move about in and know something about this world. Eventually, I got curious about knowing more about some individuals as people. To me, it's interesting. I've seen women here portrayed and described as sex objects, troubled addicts, struggling young women, opportunistic party girls, misunderstood, angry, hurt, happy, successful...you name it. I've pondered sleeping with them, becoming their partners, their friends, and just getting to know them. I've even seen old rivals bury the hatchet, which was great.
Some of the things I still wonder about: Is it just me, or does is seem like transexuals are 'coming out of the woodwork?' Twenty years ago, there seemed to be a handful doing adult work, to use an admittedly crude and flawed measuring stick. Now, it seems like every month we're shown pictures of previously unseen beautiful women from all over the world. Is it just the improvements in the tools to transistion? Have the numbers changed? Are more people realizing they're transexual? How many of them are genuine? Is there something going on in our evolution that's causing so many people to be born into a gender that's not their first choice? What's the nature of this attraction I feel? Is it just this exotic, forbidden taboo thing? Or am I turned on by the fact that many have made themselves look like the sexiest gg's? Do I think that enough of the 'male mind' exists in their heads that conversation won't dry up after the initial excitement? It seems like (in general) my guy friends and I love to talk about minute details of music, film, art, etc., while our female friends don't enjoy that so much.
Kids today don't bat an eye about stuff that was a big deal a generation or two ago. Will there be a time in my lifetime where there's a well known public relationship with a transexual?
Peggy, what do you think about girls today escorting to pay for their transition? If we men patronize them, are we exploiting them, or just helping them pay their way? What's the longterm cost of sex work? (getting paid to get laid seems like fun, but if I couldn't pick who was going to come through that door...man, that would be rough...I don't know if I could do it.) I hope it's not true, as I sometimes wonder, that the whole thing has a cost that takes the wind out of the sails that brought the women to their destinations in the first place. It's easy to just click off the computer, but after all this time, I just naturally start to empathize.
How'd you do it? Did you ever escort? How'd you become a mom?
What is sex like for you? I'll stop now!
:wink:
Anyway, again, nice to meet you.

[BrendaQG]

@ peggy

Welcome. This place is different from most transsexual forums I have seen, where you have seen me. A real breath of fresh air. You will like it

[blckhaze]

welcome. glad to you and a few other ladies coming on the board. Looking forward to more of your posts.

[peggygee]

quote="suckseed"]

1.Welcome Peggy! I've really been enjoying your writings so far.


2. Like most of the guys here, To me, it's interesting. I've seen women here portrayed and described as sex objects, troubled addicts, struggling young women, opportunistic party girls, misunderstood, angry, hurt, happy, successful...you name it.

I've pondered sleeping with them, becoming their partners, their friends, and just getting to know them.


3.Some of the things I still wonder about:
Is it just me, or does is seem like transexuals are 'coming out of the woodwork?' ?



4. What's the nature of this attraction I feel? Is it just this exotic, forbidden taboo thing? Or am I turned on by the fact that many have made themselves look like the sexiest gg's?



5. Kids today don't bat an eye about stuff that was a big deal a generation or two ago. Will there be a time in my lifetime where there's a well known public relationship with a transexual?


6.Peggy, what do you think about girls today escorting to pay for their transition? If we men patronize them, are we exploiting them, or just helping them pay their way? What's the longterm cost of sex work? (getting paid to get laid seems like fun, but if I couldn't pick who was going to come through that door...man, that would be rough...


7. How'd you do it? Did you ever escort? How'd you become a mom?
What is sex like for you? I'll stop now!
:wink:




You have raised a number of great points, please allow me to answer as they are numbered


1. Thank you so much, I have enjoyed your writng immensely as well.


2. The women here, as are the men, are merely going to reflect what we generally see in society, no better no worse. It is just that we are in this 'room' together in cyber space, in close quarters, that may be impacting our viewpoints in a less than good way.

Without the visual cues, the smiles, the frowns, etc, we really don't have a valid sense of one another, either way.

As to the sleeping with them, try the getting to know them, becoming friend, then the sex part. :)

This is a good place to meet people fairly safely. But to the guys, I would perhaps suggest instead of wanking off to the screen or the video, take the step, meet the woman, take the risk, and grow.

Never ceases to amaze me at all the 'shit talking virgins'. And that's not a shot at you, suckseed, because A. I don't know your history, and B. You seem like a nice guy.

But of the guys, who bitch and moan the most, many will admit they have never been with a transwoman. :roll:


3. Yes the world is getting smaller, we are a global village. We can be in any place in the world in hours. And news, opinions, fashions, etc, can travel in nanoseconds.


4. 'That grasshopper, I can not answer, the truth you seek lies within.' :?: I will say that guys that see 'all' transwoman as 'super sexy, diva, Barbie dolls' are watching way too many videos, and need to get out more, we come in many flavors, shapes and sizes.


5. Ethics, values, etc, change sometimes for the better, sometime not. But in our lifetime someone famous professing their love to a t-girl, yes, and soon, I would say.

6. In this post I address how I funded some of my surgeries, and the consequences of my decisions: http://www.tgirltalk.com/board/platinum/viewtopic.php?t=2411&sid=e1d2e3ae8d442edafb1924e4ea4a9efa

I am not the morals police, I am not a Bible thumper, I believe a woman, TG/GG has the ultimate say so over what see does with her body.

Allow me to expand on that, though:

I am not 'Captain Save A Ho', I am not here to save her immortal soul. That is between her and the deity (God) of her choice or lack therof.

Rather, I am here much like a consiglierre, an advisor. Because i have walked in both Feraggamo, and Payless shoes.

Been there, done that, have the physical and emtional scars to prove it, thankfully most have healed, I need to stop picking at the scabs though.

If a woman wants to listen, and not get harmed in the mine fields of life I can help her, because I know where the mines are. :smh

If, she' ain't trying to hear that', that's cool too.

As, I have stated previously, I have been in this 'thing of ours' for decades. I am a 'made' woman, and I do know where the bodies are buried because, sadly I helped bury them. More of that, perhaps in another post.

And to those of you that just read that last sentence, and didn't understand the metaphor, or what it meant, I strongly urge you to ask someone to translate it for you.
:google


7. How did I do it, see 6 again.

How's my love life, or how's my sex life?

Well at this stage of my life, I am seeking quality, not quantity. And since, I am no longer a PYT :shrug . And I also tend to intimidate, insecure men, which is good, because it keeps the 'haters' at bay.

Let's just say many are chosen, few get to go, and hardly any get to 'come', which is perfectly fine with me. 8)

Like, I said I have done a lot in my life time

I have known, good love.

And I have known, bad love.

I am worthy of only good love :king

[peggygee]

@ peggy

Welcome. This place is different from most transsexual forums I have seen, where you have seen me. A real breath of fresh air. You will like it

Greetings, My Sister,

Tis true, there is never a dull moment, it challenges ones thoughts and pre conceived notions, which is a good thing.

Peace be with you,

Peg.....

[peggygee]

welcome. glad to you and a few other ladies coming on the board. Looking forward to more of your posts.

Thank you blkhaze, much love to the boogie down Bronx.

"Crooklyn', in the house 8)

[peggygee]

Welcome to the forum, Peggy. :)


Arianna,

If you ever need a moment to rest, I am ready and willing to give the'suckas and the haters', a whupping the 'old school way'

Mama, said, knock them out
That'what daddy said too. :lol:
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BTW, can, a scar be tatooed over, seriously? :(

[a994]

Welcome aboard, Peggy. We're glad to have you here.

[peggygee]

Welcome aboard, Peggy. We're glad to have you here.

Thank you.
I Have read, and enjoyed many of your posts

[a994]

Well, thank you, Peggy.

[peggygee]

It is 4 in the morning and I haven't been sleeping well,
a lot on my mind.

Perhaps writing this will help me to sleep.

At any rate as some of you realize, every so often I re-visit
a thread. Sometimes it is one of mne, sometimes it is
someone's else.

I am dusting off this 'chestnut' for those who have never read
it, and for those that may have forgotten what I said when I came
through the portal.

Much of what said then still applies nearly 500 posts later.

Now as it is 4:17 in the morning and Sir Spedius has made his
posts I shall begin mine.

[peggygee]

A few days ago, this question was asked:




demmie
Rookie Poster


Joined: 07 Jan 2007
Posts: 50
Location: NC

Posted: Mon Jan 29, 2007 8:20 pm Post subject: Is it worth it?

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Alright, I was wondering, is it worth it, losing everything, and actually SWITCHING genders?

You know, losing what you were born with?

Whether it's penis or vagina, is a transsexual ever at a point in their life where they feel comfortable with their life?

What is the meaning of life to a transsexual?

And, when everything has been done and over with, when you're like, 57, will you be glad that you had it done?

Or will you regret spending all that money on something that's high-maintenance, and has to pretty much be "renewed"? (i.e.=image)








Few are chosen, and even fewer get to their
destination.

Many may have in their minds, hearts and souls, the
thirst to see their dream come to fruition. However
for a variety of reasons most don’t make it.

For those that do, was it worth it.

Was it worth all the pain, both emotional and physical?
Were the blood, sweat and tears and untold anguish
worth it?

For me, un-questionably, yes.

The person that I was before my transition wasn’t a
very happy person, I daresay I was an evil, malevolent,
insecure, self-centered bastard.

I was often mean and hateful to those around me. I hurt
those that cared about me in un-told ways.

The damage that I performed wasn’t just directed outward
either, but in self destructive behavior of which drugs and
alcohol abuse were some of the ways I tried to ease a tortured
soul.

Of course as with any life there were highs with the abysmal
lows, but through it all there was one constant, and that was
to have my body be congruent with my mind.

As you may have a sense, transitioning is a difficult and painful
process, but it was one that I knew I had to embark upon.

Three decades ago I began the physical steps of my journey.
For two decades I lived as a pre op, with an eye to the culmination
of my life long dream which was to have SRS.

Throughout the period I experienced many things, much as I
had before the transition, for me, my life has never had a dull
moment. Like many other people I have made some very good
decisions and made some very bad decisions.

Also during that period I still struggled with substance abuse, as
I worked on the vestiges of my past..
.
Through a lot of prayer, therapy, and help from my family, ten
years ago, I was able to put the drugs and alcohol down, hopefully
for the last time. I was also able to complete my SRS.

Now, my relationship with my family is very good. I am a
devoted daughter to my Mother. As a son, let’s just say
I didn’t do a very good job, with my Father we are still
a work in progress. I have friends that depend on me,
and I on them.

I have a career, enjoy my work immensely, am compensated,
fairly well. I travel, get to do things which bring me much joy,
life is good.

Had I remained in my birth sex, there might have been a
different ending, for I was clearly headed for prison or the
grave.

For the life that I have now I am very grateful, indeed I am
blessed and highly favored.

Many times this is what drives my writing as I realize that
there is someone, somewhere who is struggling with feelings
of hopelessness, and helplessness. They may feel as if they
will never see their life come together as they had hoped it
would.
.
They may be battling with addictions, depression, or other
demons, to them I say “hold on there is light at the end of
the tunnel, and it’s not an oncoming train”. :)

Then too, I write as a sort of penance, perhaps in the hopes
that I may be able to undo many of the wrong things that I
have done in life to myself and others.

Perhaps the God of my understanding and the many people
that kept me alive and nursed me back to health will feel that
I was worth the effort.

Thus to answer your question, simply, was it worth it?

Yes.

[peggygee]

[i][b]And just so we don't have a Peggy-gate.

[peggygee]

I realize that my posts may be longwinded at times.

And I try to have line breaks to make them easier
to read.

Having said that, I would like to say two more things.

1. At your leisure try to follow the links, for I have tried to
provide information that may be useful to others, particularly
transwomen.

In my thirty years living full time as a transwomen I have
learned many things. Some of these are via my experiences
some of these are through formal training and study, thus
when I state something it's is usually based on a verifiable
fact.

2. Someone asked me a few months ago if it were important
to me that I be liked.

Again if you have read any of my posts, you realize that I
definetely have a opinion on things. Sometimes I state it
forcefully, sometimes very plainly.

And just like anyone else I would like to be liked, but for me
what is far more important is that I can be a positive voice
and influence.

Wherever possible I try to avoid flame wars and dissension
for I feel that would dilute the message.

Thus whether you love me, hate me, or have no opinion of
me whatsoever, try to read my posts with an open mind.

For even a stopped clock is right at least twice a day. 8)

[peggygee]

A number of people have inquired what IPOWA is, and
I am sure that many have wondered it as well.


IPOWA is the acronym for the International Post
Operative Womens Association.

Our mission statement:

Mission:
The primary objective of the International Post
Operative Women Association (IPOWA)
is education and advocacy on issues related
to post operative transgendered women.

Specifically:
Providing information to the general public, government
entities, academia, and our members at large.

Said information shall consist of, but not be limited to issues
of Law, Employment, Health, and Technology.

We will coordinate effective and efficient strategies, and
policies through continuity, communication, and collaboration.

Finally, IPOWA will never remain mute, to statements that are
libelous, slanderous, or derogatory in nature, that are made to,
or about women in general, and, transgendered and post
operative women specifically.


Expect to be heaing much more from us soon 8)

And boy will I be glad when my term is over, and it's not
even my day job. :roll:

I got the job cause I'm good at being a pain in the ass, and
enjoy it .

:soapbox :claps :claps :claps :soapbox

[ezed]

Peggy, I love your posts ( except some of the long ones). Although, I will read intently the ones that provide information of interest to me. Because your info is of value.

And I expect you to give me a spanking when my humor gets out of line. You are a beacon of wisdom on this site (seriously). :)

[peggygee]

Ezed, thanks so much for the compliment. :wink:

I realize that some of my posts do run a little long.
This is because I like to cover all the bases, and to
leave no stone unturned.

HA may be the only exposure that some people will
get to the topic of transsexuality, thus I try to give them
the full 360 degree picture.

[peggygee]

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