The Life of Dating Melody💘💋💑♎💐💍💌🎶💜

[melody mayheim]

Before transitioning...My first love I dated on n off for 4 1/2yrs...He hated the idea of me dressing up and performing for crowds and getting attention from others. During our breakups Id date other guys temporarily but always went back to me. These guys were always so open about our relationship n introducing me to their family n friends. So after over a yr of splitting up..I finally could focus on me n become who i wana be. It was difficult cuz i thought eventually him n i would rekindle n live happily ever after. But i figured why be with someone who doesnt accept me. One of my best friends transitioned n educated me more on transgenders..But one of my hugest mistakes was to just wake up n be a woman. I think i should have slowly transitioned into things. I thought my first prescription was gona give me long hair n tits the next day lol my first yr transitioned was the biggest struggle..I just was so paranoid n insecure. And the men I started dating..didnt help. I was so used to gay men that the new men chasing me were completely different. I thought I wasnt good enough. Pretty enough. Used for sex n kept a secret. I was ashamed n embarrassed with myself. Crying everyother day. I felt like complete shit. The longer I transition i realize why my fellow ts girls turn to escorting. If Im gona be treated like a whore..Im gona get paid like one. My motto. I realized that its not me whos losing out but them. I feel for guys who live in the "closet" but guys need to figure out on their own. Its unfair to bring someone into their life..get involved if ur not comfortable in ur skin or open about it. Theres always porn. In fact you can check me out on shemaleyum.com lol. Go live ur "normal" life with ur wife n kids n be miserable for the rest of ur life. Im beautiful educated fun and finally realizing my worth. Im fortunate to have a supportive huge family n friends who love me...Life is great!

[saifan]

Nice perspective. Thanks for sharing.

[melody mayheim]

I try to be a non judgmental person. Who am I to judge? Im all about individuality and being you! But most men hide behind fake profiles and keep their interest in tsgirls to themselves. Which is fine but like I said if your gona do that than u shouldnt try to be involved with one. Its selfish. Then guys complain how ts girls r all escorts...all us girls want is love! Were good enough to sleep with but not good enough to be loved? Have a family? Be introduced to ur family and friends? Its quite sad.

[saifan]

I totally hear you. My GF who I love immensely is an escort.

[melody mayheim]

O wow how do u handle that? Ive escorted before n stay in touch with like 2 but its not me..I cant do it. Of course unless hes sexually appetizing to me. Then its easy!

[saifan]

O wow how do u handle that? Ive escorted before n stay in touch with like 2 but its not me..I cant do it. Of course unless hes sexually appetizing to me. Then its easy!

It's her job and I try and make sure we both clearly define when she is on the clock and when she's not. It doesn't bother me that much... all of the nonsense on Facebook bothers me so much more LOL. I don't know why she has to have so many friends and creepy ones at that!

She's planning to get SRS within a year or so and then slowly transition back into a more stable life. We'll see. I'm trying my best to be supportive.

[melody mayheim]

Props to you! I couldnt be in a relationship like that...

[ilovelamp]

Great post. Blunt and honest about your early transition struggles.

You are right that many people kind of just go along with what they perceive as "normal," afraid of how society will judge them, and consequently end up living a life that was not entirely true to who they were.

[scootin3131]

Awesome post Melody, thank you for the message!!!

[melody mayheim]

Exactly!!!! @ilovelamp