Quote Originally Posted by blossam View Post
I consider myself to be a straight male by definition since I have no attraction to men or masculinity. But, I have been addicted to shemale porn for 10 years. I've looked at plenty of other weird stuff involving females prior to that, but now I look at shemale porn exclusively. I have no problem attracting women and I prefer sex to porn, so I never have a strong desire to watch regular female porn.

I've been trying to stop watching porn for the last few years. I started out counting the days and keeping journals, but this kept it on my mind constantly and made it more difficult. I made it 6-8 weeks on a few occasions. Afterwards, I stopped thinking/worrying about it and it made it easier, but I would get a related dream or thought and end up relapsing a few days later after obsessing over it.

After watching shemale porn for days and getting to the point where I just convince myself that i have to try shemale sex. But I'm disgusted when I meet up with a shemale in real life and the masculinity turns me off completely. But, I continue spending 8-10 hours a day looking for the perfect feminine shemale like in the pornos. I think that maybe it's my true orientation and I'll enjoy it if I find the right one.

If I spend 3-4 weeks away from shemale porn, the interest begins to fade. Sometimes, I'll even find it unappealing when I first go back to watching it. But, something compels me to keep watching it and not stop or switch to normal porn. After a few days, I'm back into it 100% and it arouses me like nothing else can. I start to lose interest in having sex with females and invest all of my time to shemale porn or trying to meet up with a real shemale.

I know I'm not the only one who has fallen victim to this. The number of shemale porn sites out there is insane compared to when I first got into it.

Is there any way out?
Go meet some really good escorts and enjoy. But your real problem is your obsession with just the image, not the person.