Originally Posted by
blossam
I consider myself to be a straight male by definition since I have no attraction to men or masculinity. But, I have been addicted to shemale porn for 10 years. I've looked at plenty of other weird stuff involving females prior to that, but now I look at shemale porn exclusively. I have no problem attracting women and I prefer sex to porn, so I never have a strong desire to watch regular female porn.
I've been trying to stop watching porn for the last few years. I started out counting the days and keeping journals, but this kept it on my mind constantly and made it more difficult. I made it 6-8 weeks on a few occasions. Afterwards, I stopped thinking/worrying about it and it made it easier, but I would get a related dream or thought and end up relapsing a few days later after obsessing over it.
After watching shemale porn for days and getting to the point where I just convince myself that i have to try shemale sex. But I'm disgusted when I meet up with a shemale in real life and the masculinity turns me off completely. But, I continue spending 8-10 hours a day looking for the perfect feminine shemale like in the pornos. I think that maybe it's my true orientation and I'll enjoy it if I find the right one.
If I spend 3-4 weeks away from shemale porn, the interest begins to fade. Sometimes, I'll even find it unappealing when I first go back to watching it. But, something compels me to keep watching it and not stop or switch to normal porn. After a few days, I'm back into it 100% and it arouses me like nothing else can. I start to lose interest in having sex with females and invest all of my time to shemale porn or trying to meet up with a real shemale.
I know I'm not the only one who has fallen victim to this. The number of shemale porn sites out there is insane compared to when I first got into it.
Is there any way out?