Well, I guess my life is over...

[danthepoetman]

Yes. It was Grim's work. So talented!
Hey! Prospero, I've been away a few months and there's about half the people I knew gone! It's terrible! Where is everybody?

[Prospero]

Revolving doors....

[MacShreach]

I've been away a few months and there's about half the people I knew gone! It's terrible! Where is everybody?

Shadow of its former self, man.

[Tits McButts]

Yes. It was Grim's work. So talented!
Hey! Prospero, I've been away a few months and there's about half the people I knew gone! It's terrible! Where is everybody?

Your avatar doesn't suck, Dan. I know who made it. Same guy who made mine. Seemed coincidental, that's all.

[fred41]

Your avatar doesn't suck, Dan. I know who made it. Same guy who made mine. Seemed coincidental, that's all.

So why the name change?

[Flaco]

I still haven't gotten tested yet, I plan on going on Wednesday. I've been talking to a new chick and I can tell she's interested in me. She's a shy, cute chick and the thought of this young chick catching an STD from me seriously fucks with me. God forbid. Anyway, I've had some time to do some thinking. I realize most of the time I've had sexual experiences with TS, I don't really enjoy the actual sexual act. There's a certain thrill I get from it though, a certain rush I can't describe. The sex usually feels unnatural for me but I needed that rush, so I just kept on doing it. If I have an STD from this, I really will never forgive myself. The sex wasn't even good so I don't know why I put myself in this position, it's weird whenever I go see a TS it's like I'm not even in control anymore. I just find myself going to the escort's place, doing the deed, and then wondering what the fuck just happened afterwards. I've pretty much fallen into a depression these past few weeks. I'm scared, frustrated, angry at myself. If I have HIV I have no one to blame but myself. What hurts the most is that I've always wanted to have kids and a wife and this would take that all away. I'm filled with regret and I think I need some alcohol...

[nysprod]

I still haven't gotten tested yet, I plan on going on Wednesday. I've been talking to a new chick and I can tell she's interested in me. She's a shy, cute chick and the thought of this young chick catching an STD from me seriously fucks with me. God forbid. Anyway, I've had some time to do some thinking. I realize most of the time I've had sexual experiences with TS, I don't really enjoy the actual sexual act. There's a certain thrill I get from it though, a certain rush I can't describe. The sex usually feels unnatural for me but I needed that rush, so I just kept on doing it. If I have an STD from this, I really will never forgive myself. The sex wasn't even good so I don't know why I put myself in this position, it's weird whenever I go see a TS it's like I'm not even in control anymore. I just find myself going to the escort's place, doing the deed, and then wondering what the fuck just happened afterwards. I've pretty much fallen into a depression these past few weeks. I'm scared, frustrated, angry at myself. If I have HIV I have no one to blame but myself. What hurts the most is that I've always wanted to have kids and a wife and this would take that all away. I'm filled with regret and I think I need some alcohol...

Dude, you gotta chill and go get tested...you're just punishing yourself by leaving things in limbo.

[amberskyi]

You need Jesus and a whole lot of therapy

[ed_jaxon]

Lemme step in here.

Don't wanna hit the free clinic? Go to Walgreens and get an HIV test. You might feel weird in the check our line (grab a paper to cover up the box) but the feeling of relief after you get the all clear is more than worth it.

Then feeling that confidence that you are cool, hit the free clinic and get tested for everything else. When walking out, grab a bunch of condoms and you are golden.

[mac.B]

I still haven't gotten tested yet, I plan on going on Wednesday. I've been talking to a new chick and I can tell she's interested in me. She's a shy, cute chick and the thought of this young chick catching an STD from me seriously fucks with me. God forbid. Anyway, I've had some time to do some thinking. I realize most of the time I've had sexual experiences with TS, I don't really enjoy the actual sexual act. There's a certain thrill I get from it though, a certain rush I can't describe. The sex usually feels unnatural for me but I needed that rush, so I just kept on doing it. If I have an STD from this, I really will never forgive myself. The sex wasn't even good so I don't know why I put myself in this position, it's weird whenever I go see a TS it's like I'm not even in control anymore. I just find myself going to the escort's place, doing the deed, and then wondering what the fuck just happened afterwards. I've pretty much fallen into a depression these past few weeks. I'm scared, frustrated, angry at myself. If I have HIV I have no one to blame but myself. What hurts the most is that I've always wanted to have kids and a wife and this would take that all away. I'm filled with regret and I think I need some alcohol...

Kinda sounds like me when I first started. It does suck feeling that way not just because youve done something wrong but b/c youve involved someone in your pain who not only is dealing with their own internal issues, but is someone who was paid to be penetrated aggressivley, paid to be sprayed with cum but was treated like a sort of pariah when the deed was done. You have no idea the psychological damage that can do to someone. Most of these chicks dont even want to be escorts. You look down on TS girls and you probably need to find out why. I understand the depression although I think its b/c you lack the self control to get away from a lifestyle that you have very low opinions about. When you learn how to develop your self control then the depression will stop. As far as the tgirls go, maybe you need to do some soul searching and find out why you like them in the first place, then figure out why you are not able to see these girls as human beings.

Like I said I've been where you are and I hated it. I had to ask myself the right questions and I had to find the answers for myself. No one can do that for you. No one should be able convince you that being with trannies is ok. Its ok for me b/c I had took the time to understand certain things about them and how those things related to my personal being and who I want to become.

Trannies go through a lot bro, almost as much as black people. The transition is actually life threatening for a lot of girls and they never make it past a certain point. Its like a sort of gauntlet where only a few make it throug. Some girls detransition for family/social reasons, some girls stay feminie gay men and become bitter to those who have transitioned. Some girls kill themselves. Some girls go to far with surgeries. Some girls do transition successfully but succumb to the pressures of the tgirl life. Some girls make it through and live happy well adjusted lives with mates.

Bottom line is I had to find answers. And what I found was that it takes a very strong person to go through all of the surgery, unsupported domestic lives, hrt, being in the wrong body and getting the money to correct that, becoming a TS and being ostracized for it, being part of a small community in which there is hardly any unity and just finding mates who dont suffer from any self hate b/c of their attraction, to them!!! Its a really hard process and I understand and respect anyone who does what it is that they have to do to become the person who they want to be. I guess I'm a tranny admirer in every sense of the phrase