Well, I guess my life is over...

[Flaco]

I just fucked a tranny raw...

[Westheangelino]

Actually, your life has just begun! Giving or receiving?

[EvaCassini]

You gonna die? You know Trannies are monsters right...you fuck them and you get cursed like some Egyptian Mummy curse lol

[lifeisfiction]

The only question I have to ask, was it good then yea it was worth it, but it was meh. Sorry your only chance was wasted.

[Nikka]

hahahahahahaha

[amberskyi]

no shade some of you guys are so emo lmao

[EvaCassini]

hahaha

[Flaco]

Actually, your life has just begun! Giving or receiving?

It was giving, usually I start feeling demoralized after watching TS porn or after sex with a TS. But the last couple of times I've been with a TS sexually, I've started feeling like that during the sex. It's weird...When I think with my cock I want TS badly. When I think with my brain, I seriously don't want to do this. Usually, I go with how my cock feels smfh. Anyway, I was fucking this chick doggy and giving her backshots for quite some time. So we decided to switch it up, and she wanted to ride my cock. I let her get on top, and she rode me for a very long time. I was turned on mightily, but for some reason I still didn't come. So she took of the condom, and jerked me off for a bit. I still didn't come. Then she asked me if she could ride my dick again. I knew that she meant raw this time, but for some reason I just went along with it. I watched her mount me slowly, I had ample time to tell her to stop and grab another rubber. But I didn't. She rode me until I eventually pulled out and came on the side of her ass.

After I came, the usual thoughts of being gay, why do I continue to this etc all came flooding to my mind. But now it was multiplied by complete panic...did I seriously just fuck a Tranny raw?? I was super scared (And I'm still panicking now). I asked her after why the hell we just had sex raw when me and her both had plenty of condoms at our disposal. She told me that she had gotten tested 2 months ago, and that she was "clean". I'm highly skeptical, she was just too willing to fuck me raw for me to believe that. I guess it's time for me to get tested. I don't even know what to do if I have HIV, smh I guess that's what I deserve for being a fucking pervert. I have numerous genetic girls who are sexy as fuck who want relationships and yet I consistently pass up on them to pay tranny escorts for sex. I'm a very pathetic individual.

[amberskyi]

Why yes, yes you are

[Westheangelino]

Here's the deal dude:

Life is risky. About 30,000 people die in car wrecks in America every year. I enjoy driving. No one calls me crazy or sick for doing it. I also enjoy smoking a couple cigarettes a day. It may or may not give me cancer or other diseases. You weigh the risks. The fact of the matter is, while your behavior in this instance was "risky" compared to wearing a condom, the risk of you contracting HIV from this one encounter is still extremely low. Educate yourself and learn the statistics. You might already know them. However, the fact that you allow yourself to feel shame and guilt about fucking tgirls at all, only amplifies your fear and anxiety about HIV, making it more than simply caution, making it sheer irrationality. You really need to make some actual friends and connections in the community or perhaps a gay friend or two to realize that YOU ARE NOT SICK IN THE HEAD. I stopped trying to analyze my sexuality a long time ago. Basically, I like to date and fuck GG's, I like to get fucked and not date hung Tgirls, and once in a very long while get turned by but will not even think of actually fucking a huge hung scary dude. I enjoy myself. I sometimes get barebacked by Tgirls. I get tested very regularly and nearly all of my unprotected encounters have been with porn star girls who also get regularly tested and still work. It's a risk, but I take it. Your behavior is not nearly as risky as mine. Do yourself a favor and allow yourself to be yourself. Your truth will find it's way out anyways, so it might as well be on your own terms. Go and get tested! You are in NYC? I'm in L.A. and go get tested at the Hollywood GLBT center for free, which includes a free NAAT test, which can detect HIV virus in as little as ten days. Wait twenty days! Then go find a similar clinic in NYC. I'm sure there is one.

Oh....and love yourself!