Marijuana has changed my life.

[BellaBellucci]

I mean, if you've ever had a panic attack, you know what it feels like - it feels like a beating from an MMA fighter: the constant, all-encompassing pain, the heart palpitations, the muscle spasms, the tingling and twitchiness, the jumpiness, the headache and disorientation, the shortness of breath, the mental malaise. It's like PTSD that never goes away.

... and it's so misunderstood. I had a panic attack IN an interview for disability, and instead of a check, I got a letter stating that I was definitely disabled, but not disabled ENOUGH. Why? Because I've managed to find survival mechanisms and have never been institutionalized? Do I really have to deal with that stigma for the rest of my life in order to get help after I've gotten this far on my own DESPITE the government negatively interfering in my childhood when they were just supposed to be protecting me from my parents?

The entire system is fucked. There's no talk therapy that's going to change that, so the goal is to change ME instead? Pass. I'm not the one that needs to change.

~BB~

[Quiet Reflections]

Ice? Rockabilly say it isn't so.

[Chaos]

I mean, if you've ever had a panic attack, you know what it feels like - it feels like a beating from an MMA fighter: the constant, all-encompassing pain, the heart palpitations, the muscle spasms, the tingling and twitchiness, the jumpiness, the headache and disorientation, the shortness of breath, the mental malaise. It's like PTSD that never goes away.

... and it's so misunderstood. I had a panic attack IN an interview for disability, and instead of a check, I got a letter stating that I was definitely disabled, but not disabled ENOUGH. Why? Because I've managed to find survival mechanisms and have never been institutionalized? Do I really have to deal with that stigma for the rest of my life in order to get help after I've gotten this far on my own DESPITE the government negatively interfering in my childhood when they were just supposed to be protecting me from my parents?

The entire system is fucked. There's no talk therapy that's going to change that, so the goal is to change ME instead? Pass. I'm not the one that needs to change.

~BB~

Are you reading my mind??
My panic attacks manifest as hostility AND I have PTSD to boot...
Growing up I was told that I was only acting out and looking for attention...
I was told I was the problem and there was nothing actually wrong with me...
Cut to adulthood not changing me any and suddenly it's a recognized mental issue. If that doesn't prove the system sucks I don't know what does...

[luvshemales]

Legalization might bring in Big Pharma but just like what you have seen with microbrews and craft beers you will see with Marijuana cultivation. There will always be a market for good genetics and strains. I disagree knowing that Marijuana is just like another business its relative to supply and demand. When states have made medicinal MJ available(truly available not the sham like Fatass Christy is trying to make available in NJ) prices drop. The markup on MJ is relative to the risk involved in transport. Eliminate the risk and reduce the price. In Colorado and California the finest OG's and Sour's can be had for $200-$250 ounce compared to NYC/NJ area commanding a $400-$450

[rockabilly]

Ice? Rockabilly say it isn't so.

Only 3 times. Small amounts done with my wife.

[Dino Velvet]

Only 3 times. Small amounts done with my wife.

How were the other 2 times? I'm gonna clean-up at your next garage sale.

[rockabilly]

Great sex , but I'm not doing it so much to get addicted it's more of a treat for hard work.

[luvshemales]

Hmmm a republican morally opposed to marijuana never would I have believed that. Never understood the social agenda of the Republican even when I was once registered as one in my late twenties and I drank the kool aid.

[rasta]

Herbs are good for everything

[SammiValentine]

Too much work, not enough return, and you still have to treat the physical symptoms of years, sometimes decades of constant panic.

I'm sorry, but depression and anxiety are chronic. CBT treats the acute symptoms, but it doesn't repair the long-term damage. It usually needs to be taken in combination with pharmaceuticals regardless, so in that event, I'd still choose THC over other medications.

Personally, I only smoke about 2 grams a week anyway.

~BB~

Hi Bella, sure i appreciate people have different ways of coping - I just wanted to give some input on how i deal with a life long problem and what things are like in the UK.

I am fortunate enough to be very close to a clinical pyschologist(well Forensic Psychologist actually) who helped me, maybe the fact I am close to him meant I reacted to the help differently - I dont know. A lot of the following info is straight from the horses mouth you may find it interesting or useful .......or not but I want to share it in light of this thread. I do also realise in the US it is mostly psychiatry that deals wth this and your system is v. different to ours.

In the UK the profession does not describe depression/anxiety as acute/chronic, thats a crossover of terms from the medical model.

Unless there is a physical/organic reason for the dysfunction you fall under the term 'personality disorder' which is considered 'untreatable' by the medical model ie doctors or psychiatrists. It is firmly in the realm of clinical psychology, medication merely provides 'respite' for a short period - prozac, valium etc. or THC or whatever is simply papering over the cracks.
Psychotherapy and/or CBT are proven to be efficatious in most (not all) cases - there are some cases where nothing can be done because of the mindset of the patient.

Neither therapies are truly effective whilst the patient is under the influence of drugs - because it is not possible to correctly evaluate a patient if they are fuzzed out on mind/mood altering drugs.