Why does this still feel "Unnatural"?

[Flaco]

I've known about Transwomen since I was 13, and I'm 21 now and still this whole thing feels "unnatural". That's the best way for me to put it, if i watch Tranny porn I feel like complete garbage after I'm done. I had my first experience with a T-girl a few months ago and I shared it here. I told you guys The sex was amazing and it was, but I didn't say how I felt when I was on my way home...I felt like I just crossed a line that should never be crossed. I felt repulsed, ashamed, angry at myself for letting things go that far. Somedays I wake up and I'm so excited to have discovered transwomen, other days I wake up thinking "Why did I have to discover these people, what exactly is my problem that I can't just stick to genetic women?"

I'm sorry if this offends anyone, I truly don't mean to offend anyone. I'm just tired of feeling this way. A few years ago I used to think I would feel more comfortable with transwomen eventually, and I do feel a bit more comfortable compared to back then. But there are sometimes I just feel so guilty I can barely look at myself in the mirror. I need help.

[amberskyi]

Lmaooooooooo

[Flaco]

Lmaooooooooo

Thanks for the input, Amber.

[brickcitybrother]

If you think you need help - get a therapist and start sessions. Really! Otherwise accept who you are... you can on here talking about wanting to get topped. So why are you surprised that you're excited about your 'fantasy' coming true. You were already dreaming about t-girls and now you've gotten the opportunity to suck and fuck one (and she sucked you) so why the guilt afterwards? Think you're gay ... get a therapist. Think you're confused ... get a therapist. Think you've made a mistake ... yup - get a therapist. If you can understand that at your age* you're experiments ... then its all good. Experiment and find yourself 1st and then what you like (and perhaps love) 2nd. If you're not living a home, what are you worried about. A man who can support himself honestly... should be respected.

Soooo ... enough with the hand holding. Get the fuck up from the screen, look in the mirror and decide if you like who you see. Thereafter, work on loving that person and you'll be on the right road. Otherwise, be prepared for stupid decisions, hidden desires, guilt sessions and general paranoia.



*If you're really 21.

[Merkurie]

You need help.

[hngs]

Maybe because... *drumroll* it isn't. Natural, that is. Not that I care.

[Quiet Reflections]

This is the wrong place to ask for advice, talk to a pro(fessional not stitute).

[onThaLow954]

Yeah lil buddy, you'll get that the first few times. You start dry heaving yet? Don't sweat it, you will feel ashamed but you are stuck now... you'll come back, feel this feeling again then it will turn to guilty pleasure or at least that is how it is for me. That feeling of "this isn't normal" that sickening you will turn to "this isn't normal and i love it".

You got to get started while you are single at 21? Stop fucking complaining and get back in there.

[Ryz]

I've known about Transwomen since I was 13, and I'm 21 now and still this whole thing feels "unnatural". That's the best way for me to put it, if i watch Tranny porn I feel like complete garbage after I'm done. I had my first experience with a T-girl a few months ago and I shared it here. I told you guys The sex was amazing and it was, but I didn't say how I felt when I was on my way home...I felt like I just crossed a line that should never be crossed. I felt repulsed, ashamed, angry at myself for letting things go that far. Somedays I wake up and I'm so excited to have discovered transwomen, other days I wake up thinking "Why did I have to discover these people, what exactly is my problem that I can't just stick to genetic women?"

I'm sorry if this offends anyone, I truly don't mean to offend anyone. I'm just tired of feeling this way. A few years ago I used to think I would feel more comfortable with transwomen eventually, and I do feel a bit more comfortable compared to back then. But there are sometimes I just feel so guilty I can barely look at myself in the mirror. I need help.

[Winkle]

Youre young so youre just finding yourself sexually, it gets easier as you get older. As for right now? good luck.