Falling in love with a t/g escort. A story.

[IMISSHER]

I figured this board would be the best possible site to tell my story. Dont care whos interested but writing it will be cathartic for me. also maybe someone will gain some insight from it.

Was in a club 3 years ago when across the room i locked eyes with someone that caused me to feel faint. this is know bs. before i know it i have her against the wall kissing her over and over. i stop and realize what im doing and shes says who r u? i am so overwhelmed i leave the club. the next day and the next i cant stop thinking about her. so 2 days later i go to another club that is open hoping she might show up. ten mins later she walks thru the door and sees me and smiles. we spent the next 6 hours kissing and talking. now understand i think i am kissing a girl. she says there is something u need to know. i find out and she begins to cry very hard. at that point my heart melt and i didnt care if she had 3 dicks, i was falling hard. i have never kissed anything but a girl in my entire life. im 35 at this point. so after we both calm down i hold her till the morning and bring her home. she seemed very upset that i didnt want to come in and make love. i explained that i wasnt ready and wanted to take one step at a time. next day we called each other and the happiest 4 months of my life began.

The summer months went by and we were slowly becoming a couple. didnt care if she was t/g. i was so in love i didnt care. her schedule seemed quite strange and it was hard for us to be together, thought she worked at a restaurant. didnt even occur to me that she might be anything then she was. she met some of my friends and one day i was sent a link on the net from a buddy and he said be prepared. there she was on eros. i was in shock and after reading the ad i became physically sick. never been with an escort in my life and seeing the woman u love explaining what she does for money in a way that left no doubt, my world crumbled.

over the next 2 1/2 years i experienced every emotion you can imagine. i could not stop loving her. heard her having sex with a john, saw the used condoms in the garbage, bailed her out of jail, held her why she cried so hard that she passed out and thru all of it she was the person i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with, i just knew it. i have never loved another human being in my life as i loved her.

after more time passed and we were spending more and more time apart due to her job, the sadness that would envelop me was unbearable. sex became non-ext due to fear of stds. everytime i would leave her i would feel so empty that i couldnt bear it. we would get back together and try again, and the same things would just happen again and again. i could not understand why she would continue with this when she had a future with me.

i have since moved on but miss her so much. i knew that if i stayed it would end only in a way that we would both be damaged forever. i read constantly that escort relationships can exist. when u love another human being in a way that it seem preordained sharing is not possible. the pain that it causes knowing she is with someone else is maddening. i am getting better but there still a part of me that will never be whole again. she calls evrey 2 weeks like clockwork and cries and says she cant stop she is addicted to the money and lifestyle. but she misses me so and wants to try again.

i mean this, be careful if this happening to you. if u are not use to this world you will see and feel things that u will not be able to get out of your head. i recently saw her at a restaurant and we talked for an hour. shes had multiple surgeries and doesnt even look like my baby that i fell in love with. says she makes a lot of money and would i consider living with her. i wouldnt have to work. i said, your pimp?, she said in a way. then she said chris are u gonna cry? i said no baby just sad. then she said, chris i cant even cry anymore, and when i think of you i cant work, so i try not to anymore. then she got up and left, then stopped and looked back at me and said i cant stop loving u, and u know what i can either no matter how hard i tried. i just wish like her i could just stop the tears, esp.when i close my eyes at night and think of what might have been.


thank you for listening to anyone who reads this. and please pray for her that nothing bad ever happens to her, Chris, story took place in LA, and this was a true story. thanks again


I miss her so fucking much, i can still smell her when she would sleep in my arms. why wont it stop?

[FreddieGomez]

no trannie is worth crying over....smh

[ed_jaxon]

Who said its supposed to stop?

Gets better over time though and eventually you are a different person with different goals and aspirations.

Guys get their hearts broken all the time.

That's what Jack Daniel's and Sinatra are for.

[lovesall]

Sorry to read about your predicament, all I can say is love will do strange things and hopefully time will heal all open wounds.

[pointblack]

WTF was this crap? BS! All we talk about here are race issues!

[IMISSHER]

You are fucking whooped bud....but that happens to the best of us...that is a really tough situation to deal with because when you are in love with somebody, its so hard to think about them being with anybody else, to the point where it can physically hurt you...

The other thought is, if you do truly love her, why not let her do her thing so you can be together? It is just her job and she isn't having emotional feelings for her johns, so if you can seperate the two, which is difficult, you can get through it...

Or just figure out a way to make a ton of money so you can pull her out...she can't do it forever and if you can find a way to co-exist and grow with her, anything is possible...

Tough situation you got yourself in, you probably should have pulled away as soon as you found out, but I guess by then it was too late...the one thing is, there are so many people on this planet that there is somebody else out there for you, if its not her. You just have to move on and open yourself up to the idea that she isn't the end all...and when you least expect it, the one you are truly supposed to be with will appear...good luck!

thank you. sharing her is never an option for me. poor or rich just as long its the 2 of us building a future together. thats all i ever wanted.

[FreddieGomez]

the whole fact that most trannies escort make me keep a wall up and not catch feelings....i couldnt fall for somebody who sleeps with other dudes, even if it is only for money...i wouldnt date a real chick who escorts either...fuck outta here....

[FreddieGomez]

No shit, but this thread isn't about you Frederick, this is about his story and how to deal with the sitution, so who gives a fuck about you not falling for somebody, he already has, so if you don't have advice for him, shut the fuck up...

that IS my advice..

[pointblack]

Originally Posted by T$420 No shit, but this thread isn't about you Frederick, this is about his story and how to deal with the sitution, so who gives a fuck about you not falling for somebody, he already has, so if you don't have advice for him, shut the fuck up...

that IS my advice..

[pointblack]

Well, I wouldn't fall for a girl like that either, as soon as I found out she was an escort, I'd be pissed she lied to me for one, but he already fell hard, so he was past the point of return...now he is in a predicament that he can't figure out, so what would you do if you were him? Not you, if you were in his shoes and had this to deal with, what would do you think he should do?

The story is not true calm down!