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[raybbaby]

Really, if you're feeling good, or if you're even just mediocre, you should turn back now. I need to "vent", only that's something I need to do when I'm angry, and I'm not nearly so angry as I am just kinda bummed out. Seriously, stop reading now.

In early January, I moved to the San Fernando valley, affectionately known as "porn Valley" at least by those with an affection for porn. I had a pretty fair chunk of change to live on while I "broke in" and became an established male performer. I have had many an adventure and also misadventure in the past six months. Unfortunately, I haven't really established myself. My money has run out, and I'm gonna have to move back to un-sunny Washington. It's a big time bummer.

I thought I was willing to do anything to stay here and keep pursuing "the dream", but it turns out I have some limits. (who knew) I was talking to a gay porn director about possibly doing some work, but as we started to hash out the details, it occured to me there's pretty much no fuckin' way I will ever be able to do that. I had talked myself into doing what had to be done, but there's just no way. At least I recognized it before I got on set and wrecked a whole shoot.

Anyways, that's my big sad story, and yes, I do feel a bit better now. I guess at least I took the chance and rolled the dice. And I did have a lot of fun. Back to the salt mines for now.

[Dirky]

Hey, at least you gave it a shot. Most guys fantasize about being in porn but are too chicken to actually pursue it. I admire your guts. Who knows what's in store for you in the future? Just because you ran out of funds doesn't mean you can't rebound from it and give it another go.

[rockabilly]

Dude that sucks , but you had sex w/ Hazel Tucker ! HAZEL TUCKER dude thats like my dream goal and you did it. At least you got your shot ( pun not intended ) some of us never will ... HAZEL TUCKER! Good luck though Ray ...

sidenote - sex is not the only thing i would like w/ Hazel ... i would like a ltr and marriage ... love and be loved.

[WendyWilliams]

Have you contacted the following Producers for work?

Joey Silveria
Sammy at shemalestrokers
Steve at Devils
Nick or Isa at Shemale-Club

[timebomb]

Dude honestly I am glad you didn't take the dive into gay porn. Sometimes they say that there is a price for everything. But for a dude who is not gay, I don't think there is a price on your dignity. You could have taken the money, but you stuck by and decided its not for you.

Best of luck bro. And at least we can't make fun of you for taken "one for the team" if you know what I mean

[BellaBellucci]

Have you contacted the following Producers for work?

Joey Silveria
Sammy at shemalestrokers
Steve at Devils
Nick or Isa at Shemale-Club

I for one have been going crazy trying to find their contact info. Well, except for Isa. These are not easy people to get a hold of. Any suggestions?

~BB~

[tsmandy]

Sorry to hear this Ray.

Couldn't find much straight work either I'm assuming? You should try the directors that Wendy suggested, there are more companies to work for than just grooby.

What about the agencies? Did you try any of them?

[JohnnyWalkerBlackLabel]

Hey, at least you gave it a shot. Most guys fantasize about being in porn but are too chicken to actually pursue it. I admire your guts. Who knows what's in store for you in the future? Just because you ran out of funds doesn't mean you can't rebound from it and give it another go.

Said what I was gonna say, well fuckin done

best of luck to you dude, and worse come to worse you can always be a bouncer temporarily in NYC

[raybbaby]

I tried a few agencies, they don't really wanna talk to you unless you've got a fairly long list of shoots, I'd say at least 50 scenes. I've done maybe 10, and that's if you include bukkake and the great American suck off, which are hardly "scenes". And producers/production companies get mobbed by dudes like me all day long, so much so I actually feel sorry for whoever answers the phones and email. I guess I haven't really failed at much, or at least not as completely as I have at this. It fuckin' really smarts!

[GroobySteven]

Sorry to hear that Ray.
We get a load of guys contacting us asking for work and I usually advise them, if they're in the areas that we shoot hardcore (Vegas, Florida, NYC and LA) then we can probably use them but very few actually come through.
I also usually mention that it would be near to impossible to make a good living doing TS only porn (as a male performer) - companies like Grooby only needs about 12 US hardcores a month, the other production companies mentioned probably around the same or less ... so figure if your in LA maybe 40 hardcore scenes a month or less (given hardcores aren't only shot in LA) and they don't want to all use the same guy.
As you said, at least you give it a shot and kept your integrity to what you wanted to do.