My Life... Continued

[jesseflo]

.....well my first shoot was done and the cat was saved.lol. then after that i got more offers so i decided may as well as i figured i would always do something in the adult business since how sexual i was .lol. ive done alot of sites and dvd's and enjoy my work, especially since the old days of after high school boyfriends-none of them would let me top so i had to be the bottom all the time for like 5 years straight. so i masterbaited ALOT!!!!!!!! lol. time went by and i was very popular around the world so i figured it was time for me to have my own site so i put a ad on one of my adult profiles and pretty much got nowhere with it. got one guy who said he wanted to start my site for me-fool that i was let him film us fucking each other as "my first scene for the site"-totall bullshit as when we were done he says you know i dont think i can do a transsexual site,i dont wanna see guys getting fucked. lol.later that year a company consisiting of 2 guys contacts me that they wanna do my site,a bit leary i accept and i hash out all my brillant ideas and desires for the site, and we get to work(or so i thought) i shot 2 solo movies and 2 photo sets and then waited was supposed to recieve my logo via email that week,never did,noone would talk to me unless i contacted them and i would get some bullshit response about why thing havent started.blah,blah,blah. so about 4months after i shot my stuff for my so called site i decided to cut ties as i felt i was being jerked around by guys who had no intention of doing anything for me.and the dream of a site was over.... or so i thought as i was shooting for a website i asked my photographer if he knew of anyone to help me get a site going? he said well the website ur shooting for most likely wood... well he asked and they were delighted to do it. so the process bagan and before i knew it i had a site...then a blog...then 2 forums. and its just the beginning as i have plans to become huge and world famous not just for porn. so thats my life so far... i hope to have each and everyone of you in it for life! love and kisses jesse p.s. the rides just beginning.....as for personal life heres the first boyfriend...
my first serious boyfriend was when i was in my senior year of high school i was barely 18 and he was 27-28 and at first it was great but the thing at first was that he didnt know i was a transsexual. but i told him and he didnt care as he was in love. he asked me to live with him pretty fast within a month so i did. but i felt like a prisoner there as i was not allowed to go out of the house alone(he said for my safety as he knew about my past rapes,etc but it was obvious it was cause he thought id find someone else and leave)but slowly more and more i felt like a experiment and a maid,as all i did was cook and clean and take care of him and then on the rare occassion as sex became less and less he would get in some kinda kinky mood and want me to fuck him or something,other than those moods he rarely touched me which made me feel awful as if i was not good enough or sexy enough.this boyfriend i felt aslo may have been ashamed of me but i didnt know why as i had met his friends and noone knew but i felt more and more he was worrying someone would find out. so that took a toll on me also. add to the fack he was a big pot head.lol. nothing wrong with spoking weed. not my thing but i wouldnt not date someone if they did a lil. but this guy would not go anywhere without his lil pipe.so i felt like i ranked #3 or #4 on his list of important things-his pipe#1, his truck#2, and maybe me #3 .lol. so as i stayed at home rotting away alone, as i hardly saw my family nor talked to them as he didnt like driving the 40 mins to take me to see them.so after quite a long time with him i finally gave up trying to be happy with him so i ended the realtionship and moved home for like a month til i found a job and a new boyfriend. to be continued.....

[HotBoy2k27]

It's a good thing you never expressed any of this to him in a letter as I'm certain he'd have absolutely no idea what you were saying.

[jesseflo]

It's a good thing you never expressed any of this to him in a letter as I'm certain he'd have absolutely no idea what you were saying.

oh he knew.

[Justawannabe]

sounds like you been jerked around a lot... =(

Sean

[DL_NL]

Kinda tough to trust anyone when you've been through all that.

[Bostonsub]

Jesse,

It doesnt seem like you stayed home "rotting"... but more like blossoming into the woman you are today. His loss.... and many others after him!!!

Dave

[jesseflo]

Jesse,

It doesnt seem like you stayed home "rotting"... but more like blossoming into the woman you are today. His loss.... and many others after him!!!

Dave

yeah ive yet to have a boyfriend who didnt make me feel like or actually treat me like shit. so im still waiting for that good guy to come along.

[Chaingunner]

yeah ive yet to have a boyfriend who didnt make me feel like or actually treat me like shit. so im still waiting for that good guy to come along.

Sorry I'm on the wrong damn continent Jesse! Woulda treated you like a Princess .

[flabbybody]

anxiously awaiting part III

[Star Angel 86]

Jesse,for everything that you have been through and the person you are today says so much about you.Just keep up you positive attitude and the sky will be the limit were your concerned.