My Life- a bit of it at least.

[jesseflo]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.

[flabbybody]

thx for posting this jess
I need to read it a few times to take it all in

[keepingitreal470]

Dont come a knockin when the rv is rockin. tsseduction

[jesseflo]

Dont come a knockin when the rv is rockin. tsseduction

lol gotta love it.

[Ts CinthyaNY]

Girl I feel you , I believe we all struggle trough our life and so far you been taking where it's coming to you and made the right decision.

You have accomplish many of the thing you have dream. Congratulation in all of that , and keep loving your parents, it's hard to find understanding and loving parents in all cases ..
Blessings...

[ARMANIXXX]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.

Where are you from originally, jesseflo?

[lupinIII]

You've come a long, long way, through hardships a lot of us couldn't even conceive, and you were almost always alone during these struggles. What makes you even more amazing though, is that you've come through, still holding onto the desire to live your life. You're freakin' invincible. Congrats. You're an incredible woman.

[msbhaven]

Jesse,

I think it's a wonderful thing that you were able to share all of that with us. Being open about who you are can be one of the hardest things to do when so many are ready to tear you down and humilate you for doing so. I think you have a lot of courage to live a life that other's might not approve of but that makes you happy. I look up to girls like you as role models for the kind of person I should strive to be in my own life. I think it's a shame that you don't feel like you have many friends. Even though we may be seperated by many miles I don't think I am alone in saying that I would be honered to call a girl like you my friend.

Hugs,
Ashlee

[jesseflo]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.

Where are you from originally, jesseflo?

im originally from a town called norco here in california, also much love to lupinIII and msbhaven. your comments make me smile and i appreciate it

[barefootjoe69]

Jesseflo,
You are a very beautiful girl .
Anyone that says otherwise is either a fool, jealous or blind.