this is probably bad to say....

[MrsKellyPierce]

But its being real. Since my surgeries last October I have not felt sexual or really the need for sex. I've had sex after my surgeries, but really didn't enjoy it. I was wondering if any other girls after having surgeries felt this way.

Also I notice I get tired easily now, and before I had a lot of energy. I go through spats of depression too, where I think god why don't I have more energy. I've taken vitamins and been to the doctor and he says everything is fine medically.

I also talked to my moms friend who is a psychologist and he said that after major cosmetic surgeries sometimes in our head we we make ourselves feel tired subconsciously and/or not sexually attracted to our lovers. Which I am very attracted to my boyfriend I love him very much. But I can't get in that mind frame with him for some reason since surgery. And I know this annoys him, but he is very patient, and says he loves me no matter what.

But for porn and doing stuff on webcam I am fine. Is that weird?????? Or acting sexual on stage during shows. Because I see that as acting. I see myself as a different person in these instants. I think its much harder to be intimate when its real and real emotion.

I don't know I was just thinking maybe I am not alone in this or maybe I am. I don't even know if I am making sense.

[andyuk]

the mind is a powerful tool.
maybe your tired of being treated as a sex object?
or maybe you built up what was going to happen after surgery and it did not materialise?

[MrsKellyPierce]

the mind is a powerful tool.
maybe your tired of being treated as a sex object?
or maybe you built up what was going to happen after surgery and it did not materialise?

yeah I think thats what it is, I think I expected a lot more from my surgeries and I don't see a lot of difference even though people in my life tell me I do look a lot different and/or people on the internet.

I mean don't get me wrong I am very happy with how the surgeries went I guess I just had a more built up image in my head.

And I don't think the sex object is the issue like I said I do fine still webcam modeling and/or porn but being intimate with my bf is 'trying' which is horrible to say.

[andyuk]

you will get there.
don't put pressure on yourself.
i"m sure he will understand.
work on loving yourself more,that way you will be able to give your b/f the love that you want too
take care

[hondarobot]

You're a person, you're a girl. That's about it.

Good night.

[MrsKellyPierce]

You're a person, you're a girl. That's about it.

Good night.

[bat1]

Maybe you been in porn too long. time to feel human again...not a sex object!..

it's time to slow life down and smell the flowers
your getting older you can't stay in the fast lane forever!

[MrsKellyPierce]

Maybe you been in porn too long. time to feel human again...not a sex object!..

it's time to slow life down and smell the flowers
your getting older you can't stay in the fast lane forever!

lol porn too long? omg getting older you jerk I am 26 lol

[Gmanfromthechi]

Perhaps you could have Mono? DId they do a mono spot when u went to the dr? Many times its easily overlooked

[MrsKellyPierce]

Perhaps you could have Mono? DId they do a mono spot when u went to the dr? Many times its easily overlooked

yeah he said I was perfectly healthy.