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Thread: LOSS OF A FATHER..
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02-23-2008 #1Veteran Poster
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LOSS OF A FATHER..
Just a few days ago i was forced to take on 1 of the most , if not the most difficult situation of my life....The passing of my dad. It seems like it was just yesterday he was walking me in the park , pushing me on the swings at the park and making me giggle more and more the higher he pushed me, or the scent of his favorite cologne that would dance on his skin while i sat on his lap.The way he used to tickle my ears with his mustache,, and make funny noises just to put a smile on my face. As a child growing up I always wanted my dad closer to me, and now that i am a woman i needed him to accept me more , ... he did in his own way , but I just needed him to tell me ,,, I love you , over and over again just so i can belive it. Its such a reality when you see a man who was so full of life, so strong just morph into a person who is wilting and then pass. Seeing my dad at his wake yesterday was even more harder for me than seeing him in the hospital minutes after he passed. I have never been nor seen person pass,till now... i guess, i just kept on hoping if i looked at him long enough he might wake up and just tell me he loves me, and that he always did. Dad, I will always remember the way you would dance and always be the life of the party , the way your eyes would gleam and shine when you smiled .... May you be smiling down on me and may you always watch over me and protect me.... I LOVE YOU PAPI..
.....ALWAYS!
............I am Bella Swan.
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02-23-2008 #2Platinum Poster
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My condolences on you & your family and this tragic loss. Think I'll go hang out with my father tomorrow in light of reading this.
snɯıʇdo snʇoʇ soʌ oloʌ
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02-23-2008 #3Junior Poster
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Sorry to hear Janira - i went thru nearly the exact situation this past may with my dad (he passed away less than 5 months after being diagnosed with a rare type of leukemia).
the best advice i can give is spend time with your family and friends and be willing to lean on others to get thru the next few weeks.
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02-23-2008 #45 Star Poster
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Janira honey please accept our heartfelt condlences from Jessica and I. I'm so glad you were able to enjoy the acceptance and love of your father, and you obviously return it. Thank you for sharing this with us.
All the best to your and your family.
Hugs,
TS Jamie (and Jessica)
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02-23-2008 #5Platinum Poster
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My deepest condolences to you and your family Janira. I know that losing a loved one is one of life's hardest things to accept. I'm s glad I made peace with my Dad while he is still with us. I love him so much!
May your dad rest in peace and in the arms of the almighty.
~Kisses.
HTG
HURDLE #1: If guys would learn to stop over complementing, and not compliment every tranny (or girl) they see and talk to (so a girl would feel it was sincere and that she's special), maybe they'd get somewhere but a dead end! lol
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02-23-2008 #6Silver Poster
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My sincere condolences go out to you for the loss of your father. You and I were blessed to have good fathers. The love he gave to you can never be taken away. You will always have it, and the memories of precious times. You will know what things in your life would have made him happy and what things he would like, even though he will not be there to say it directly. You will know. And as time passes you will better understand why your parents did certain things. Take comfort in the people who come to show their love and support. They come to confirm that, a person like your father, who leaves people behind who will miss their love, is one that is well lived.
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02-23-2008 #7Silver Poster
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Best wishes to you and your family Janira.
blckhaze- A quickie in the back of a carriage going around Central park south
RubyTS- been there done that :P
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02-23-2008 #8Professional Poster
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Janira, please accept my sincere sympathy and heartfelt prayers during this time of loss. The passing of a parent is hard for anyone; I would imagine it's even harder for a transgender--- sometimes it can be hard for parents to process the obvious LOVE they have and the frustration in trying to understand.
Take comfort in the time you shared--- it is a blessing. Though it would have surely given you great joy to have his words reassure you, I'm sure you know he loves you (still)! He helped raise a very thoughtful, sensitive and loving child, who just posted the most moving, soulful post I've ever read. I can tell he was a great man. Celebrate him!
Be blessed!
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02-23-2008 #9Platinum Poster
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I am so sorry to hear that, Janira...although you may rest assured that your father's spirit and memories will always comfort you. My father died fifteen years ago and yet to this day when I dream or think of him it's like he was still walking on this earth with me. You have my deepest condolences and I am very sorry for your loss, Janira.
"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity." - Poe
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02-23-2008 #10A Very Grooby Guy Platinum Poster
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Sorry to hear that Janira and thanks for sharing it with us.
The photo you posted of you and your Dad, is lovely.
seanchai
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