No more cam shows, no more photo shoots, no more.

[yodajazz]

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I have found many things in life such as spirituality, love, self-love, and happiness with myself...
I have learned that this life is just one avenue (and not the only) that one could pursue, with many other open ones with better chances in life for mental, physical and spiritual survival. And while financially it was great, I found that my heart, mind and soul suffered....

Thanks for everyone who has been nice, and respectful, and those of you who have become friends, may you always be in the lap of the divine. For those of you on this path I have met who have been disrespectful, and ugly towards me, I also hope that life and whomever God/dess is to you, gives you it's best...

Bye Bye! XoXoXoX

I wish only the best for you. like that you wish for us. I can tell by your words that you have gotten some good spiritual food from somewhere.
I want to thank you personally for giving of yourself to us, the public. And also for even caring enough to say goodbye. You did not have to do it. I know from your words that you will continue to help others in the community.

The only other thing that I will leave you with is from my experience as a long time relatiionship partner. Make sure to always be responsible for your own happiness. Partners can help but ultimately it is our on responsibilty to choose happiness. From what I can see, youre on the right road.

[hugochavez]

Gianna, I wish I had gotten to know you when you were still escorting. I've seen your pictures and you are really beautiful.

[ARMANIXXX]

That's fantastic news, Girl!!!!! Good for you!

You know, you probably are making the right decision to cut this board and this "life" out completely to give yourself a real chance and a fresh start.

Perhaps in the future if you want to just come online for chats and conversation, there is nothing wrong with that. However, if you feel you may be seduced back into the life, it's probably better to stay off for good.

Good luck and best wishes!!!

xoxox





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Oh, so wait a minute,

Are you saying that being around this forum board encourages "the life" or behavior associated with it, TrueBeauty TS?

Honestly, since I'm not a TS, my own knowledge of this...... um......potential phenomenon is nil.

Might you care to educate?

Thanks.

The sad, and harsh reality is that the transcommunity isn't
always a healthy or empowering place to be.

I myself, left for decades.

I have only fairly recently returned, and there are times that
I question why.

I say, it is to assist in bringing about positive changes.

Often-times it seems like a futile uphill battle.

So if you don't have a product, a movie or a service to sell,
you may want to think long and hard why you are in the
community.

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I'm glad you're here Peggygee.

I've absorbed some of the knowledge you have imparted.

I'm appreciative.

That's on the real.

[ARMANIXXX]

I'm very glad that you have quelled your inner conflict, and I appreciate you coming here to give your personal update and testimony......it's great.

I never even realized you left under harsh circumstances or were feeling bad. heh..........I must've missed that episode.
They aren't harsh circumstances, in fact my circumstances in the past year of my life have been wonderful with my fiance, friends, and family. Better than they ever were as an escort or sexual entertainer. I am not feeling bad, I am feeling glad.



I've personally had only one semi-conflict with you regarding your response/implication of "black men don't work for me".....other than that, You've been, well.......you've been alright. lol
You must have the wrong person because I never said black men don't work for me, and I have dated black men in the past.


I do, however, believe what you are saying you want to do is selfish though. Again, I hope you never have to return to "the life" and you are able to accomplish the many and/or all the goals you set forth in your journey. But why do you have to shut yourself out? Why must you pretend you never were here and part of this community, even such as it is. Why can you not continue to impart your own personal cache of knowledge and experience to both the men and women that need it here?

I am shutting myself out of being a sexual entertainer, not from my fellow transsexuals and friends I have made. I am sorry if you think it's selfish you wont being seeing new photographs or videos of me naked. As far as my personal cache, there are many young and struggling transsexuals in my local area and online whom I help on a regular basis as well as young men who struggle with new found feelings of sexual attraction towards transgender women, without understanding why. I just don't masquerade or advertise that I help people. The people who need me, have a way of coming to me in the Universe and vice versa.

You claim you've changed and/or are changing.......well.......




based on the (our) previous issue/encounter that I beforehand mentioned, perhaps part of your change might circulate on NOT being just for self, and standing up to your fears or personal issues, looking them in the face, and not running away just when you feel like it simply because it's convenient for you at the time.
What fears would you be implying Dr. Freud? I have faced more fears in my life than you would ever know, and if I didn't I wouldn't be the person I am today. I am not only making this decision for myself but for the soon to be husband that I love, my family, and other loved ones who saw that being in a degrading environment such as the environment most sexual entertainers are put in by men who objectify them... But YES it is mostly for myself, because I am the only one who can make that decision. I am not afraid of the world of sexual entertainment, and I am not running away. I am MORE than *entitled* to walk away from it, just like any other career choice.

You don't have to go........but if you feel the need to continue to cut people off, simply because you've had differences in your past.......honestly, I don't see how that's changing at all.

The only thing I am changing is my career. I am not cutting the world off. And honestly what we are talking about here is a group of men who fancy transsexual porn. Are they honestly going to die without me posing nude for adult media anymore? I think not. I have had a really positive experience actually, and wouldn't change it for anything. I met a lot of great people and I thank Goddess that I never had a negative experience, except for negative nay sayers, who think that as a transsexual I am an object and/or that I have nothing else productive to do besides entertain them. I am always there for the people who really love and care for them. Just ask my "sister" and fellow poster on HA, Leoora, if she knows whether or not I will be there if she needs me. She's transsexual, and posts on this message board as well, but I am not leaving her behind... Honestly now, this is just a matter of what I am doing for a living!

But thanks for you assumptions really, I appreciate it. It's been humorous. And for all those people who have encouraged me, I really appreciate not only your encouragement but your mind set that a transsexual can go on and do other things with their life besides sexual entertainment if they so choose. The point is, that it's all about choice. There are many people I know who are more than happy as sexual entertainers, and I do not find it one bit wrong! Just so long as the person is happy doing what they do. It just no longer suits my lifestyle to sexually entertain men as a girl who is on the verge of being married, starting a family, and is re-discovering more every day their spiritual side. Do me a favor and live and worry about your own life and your own business. If I honestly *didn't* care about anyone here, and was being entirely selfish, why would I take the time to update people about my life, and explain that I am leaving, and why that I am leaving?


Good luck to you PrincessaGianna.

May God bless you.
Thanks, I really appreciate it. And though I am more blessed by the divine than I know what to do with, I appreciate it! The same to you sweetie, and it's been a pleasure.

That's alot of stuff there, but I quoted it anyway.

You're right, I went back and checked and you didn't say you didn't see black men......that was my bad on that. While you did, in your own way excuse the behavior, you didn't say you did that.


Well, if you read this, again, I wish you the best.

Take care.

[carrotoe]

Sorry to hear that, Gianna. You were always my favorite.

Good luck and take care.

[Azanti]

Aye Crumba - its your life, you do what the hell you want, you don't owe anyone anything but yourself.

You will be missed, good luck xxx