Ashamed of being TS !!!

[Danielle Foxxx]

I have to shut off my phone when I am not taking calls due to the constant ringing day in and day out but once a week I check my voice mail for anything important.

As most of you have seen, I have been very nice and have not engaged in Drama due to the fact that I seriously don't need anymore in my life. Altho recently the topid " Why T Girls don't date black men " came up and I voiced my opinion only to be ridiculed and compared to such disgusting people as the KKK.

I want you now to listen to this audio clip from my voice mail today:

http://thethirdgender.homestead.com/badaudio.html

As I listen to this message it trully gives me a knot in the stomach, not only for being a transgender person but also for the heart of the person who sent this to me.

I trully do not understand how someone can be so heartless towards someone and say so many horrbile things to a lady. Given some of you, or should I say most of you don't see us as humans because we are whores and take it up the ass and are called faggot to our face and basically ridiculed in public I still think that you should see that we are humans and do not deserve this kind of disrespect.

My reasons for not seeing black men as clients do not validate any reason but a professional one, and I do not see blacks as being any less then anyone but it's this kind of behavior that makes me wish I was trully born differently.

It pains me to have to deal with constant harrassment from people who vow to love us, maybe secretly but appreciate us none-the-less. I am trully hurt and very disgusted to be part of such a tragic community.

It is a shame that we must misstreat each other and go as low as out of our way to pain others like this.

I may not have any more then a high school diploma and no more then 100 IQ which is as much as a gardner... But are Gardners less people then some who have a highwer education? Do we look down at them for that?

I am extremely devastated to read some of the way the male members treat the girls in here and talk to us. I was ridiculed by my family, friends, anyone I ever came in contact with and now I chose to associate with people who understand me and care for me, either for being a slut cheap dirty whore or for being the true person I am inside. The sweet, funny, carring, honest, smart, woman that I am.

I know alot of people do not agree with what some transsexuals must do to survive, and trust me, it is not our choice to do what we do. It is a deeper psychological issue that we must deal with, and have had to deal with all our lives. An extremely inteligent educated tgirl I know escorts... What for I have no clue. But if some don't escort, others are adicted to sex, and those who are unable to use their looks to get men go into deep depression.

It is a very ugly world we live out there... When you close the door and you are alone in your house or when you are playing the "straight" role to your family and friends. It is us ' THE FILTHY DIRTY NASTY WHORES " That provide you with what you trully need to be happy, so much so you have to hide behind the internet or lie to loved ones about it, because you conform to what people expect of you instead of living your life for the things that trully filfill you.

I am done bitching and I am just in a horrible mood right now. I trully cannot wait for the day I don't have to deal with this kind of ugliness and anger in my life. I am devastated and very sad.

[Nikka]

[hondarobot]

That phone message was pretty bad. The caller clearly has mental problems, and sounds like an idiot.

You don't need to feel alone and be sad, Danielle. There's almost 30,000 members on this forum. If just 1% of us are truly good people, that's still 300 people (the actual number is probably much lower, but you see the point). Check out how many people attack me here all the time, when I've never thought of doing anything mean to anyone, ever. Most people are bad, it's a fact of life.

The good people here are all friends, and I think we always will be.

I can't even enjoy Sim City Societies tonight because I'm waiting for the next asshole to take another shot at me. . . on a thread simply about the various terms for an asshole. The irony is stunning.

[whatislove]

whatsupwiththat said to me..

"these women have gone through so much on there journey... I would hate to add any pain to there lives."

Words to live by people, words to live by.

[MacShreach]

I am devastated and very sad.

Don't let the knocks crush your spirit, honey.

[andyuk]

wow,nasty message.
Danielle for whats it worth,and i know i dont know you as a person,and no doubt i will never meet you,but hun,i for one dont look down on you at all.
in fact i try not to judge anyone,if i can help it.
you will always get somebody who wants to run you down,call you names etc etc.you know the best policy?ignore it,if he sees he has got to you,he has won.
keep being you,and fuck the haters.
because hun,even the pope gets called names.
do i as i do.
and just keep being you.

[juggerman]

poor thing!

don't be sad. though the caller is on a rampage, i'm thinking he probably likes you alot. an insecure person who can't get what he wants reacts just like that. this environment is the way it is, so becareful.

[Luna555]

I once got a phone call from a supposed "sister" of mine here(I used to be in the ball scene...not very long cause that community is horrible no disrespect, but its all soo depressing to me how everyone acted at those balls) She just yelled at me for no reason, she said "LUNA YOU IS A BOY! YOU CROSSDRESSING BITCH", keep in mind this is another transgirl. Later on the "Mother" of the house told me, that I should pay no attention to her because she was dealing with insecurities and was jealous.

Basically...yes I understand what you mean...IN that said thread...I too was criticized and call all sorts of things...NEVER ONCE DID I SAY anything mean to anyone on there...I never got an attitude or said racist comments or words like the n word. Sometimes I ask myself why do people do this? What is it going to do for them? I really dont get it.

I hope people can start to understand what girls like us go through...although there are probably always going to be people that no matter what will never get why some of us transgirls do what we do.

xo, Luna

[Legend]

So that voice mail was because of your comments from that thread,also why did that loser indicate that you emailed him or threatened to do something to him,what's the whole story here.Why would you even asscoiate yourself with a person like that who displays so much anger.I mean beating treated badly isn't cool but sometimes you have to watch who you asscoiate with and what kind of things you do in life.

[peggygee]

Danielle, please check your inbox.