claire: life is good.

[iloveall]

lucky ny

[dbev]

News?

[youcancallmeclaire]

News is... I'm on Prozac and Adderall and have been creating art feverishly for weeks now. My room is a mess of canvases and drawings and musical instruments. I feel so alive, for the first time in my life. Everything is wonderful.

I have two artistic photoshoots scheduled this summer and I'll be modeling for a series of paintings on wednesday.

I want to continue doing the "porn" thing, but I really think I'll end up doing some kind of abstract and artistic interpretations rather than traditional stuff. Something that will turn people on and make them think at the same time. ^_^

Things are moving along nicely. I did some pictures not too long ago with a new look- I'll try to get those uploaded soon.

My main problem with doing traditional porn was attributed to my significant weight loss over the winter- probably the lowest point of my life; weight-wise and mood-wise. Things were bad. Today though, they couldn't be better. I gained about ten pounds and am well on my way to adding a few more.

So yeah... the stuff I have been doing lately has been kind of grungy and dark- due mostly to the fact that my ribs and spine are still visible. Not for long though.

Also, for the extreme body modification fans- I did a human suspension about 2 days ago. For the uninformed, that means I was pierced through a large amount of skin on my back and hung from the ceiling by deep-sea fish-hooks. Yes, it hurt. Yes, it was bloody. Why would anyone want to do this? Because very few people DO. I'll have some amazing stories to tell when I'm old simply due to my willingness to partake in things that are just totally insane. (If I live that long- I always say; "If you're not terrified, you're not doing it right.")
The pain lay mostly in the initial piercings- four 8-gauge needles pierced through a significant amount of loose skin on my back; and the next day I felt as if I had a brutal, deep-tissue massage combined with a sunburn. Also, I have something called "rice-crispies", which is when air gets trapped under the skin, and you can move it around and it makes a very odd "rice crispy" sound... like nothing I have ever experienced before. ^_^
While I was hanging, it was like being a cat and getting picked up by the scruff. The endorphin/opiate/adrenaline release was powerful enough that it nearly completely masked the pain of the pull, although it almost made me pass out. I felt stoned off my ass for about an hour afterward. It was one of the most euphoric highs I have ever experienced- magical.

Anyway, yes. That is what I have been up to. I have to go now (to an art show, yay), but I will keep in mind that I need to upload the new pictures here.

[DL_NL]

Heavy stuff, Claire. Glad you're feeling better...

[Tanuki]

adderall is a disaster.. it seems great while your on it.. but be careful with that stuff.. it'll make you do crazy things.. and then one day you realize its not you making you act that way.. its the adderall. ...

[iloveall]

can't wait to see new photos

[eclipsemint]

Hey Claire! Thank you so much for posting your story and your photos on this site. You are sweet and lovable, not to mention very cute.

Having been afflicted by Depression myself in the past, I uphold and empathise with your experiences. Take care, sweet girl.


Maybe this anecdote will bring a smile to your beautiful face...

I like your piercings. Very, um, provocative. I have often thought of getting a piercing too. Maybe starting with one in my nose.

Trouble is, in spring I get hayfever, and I am afraid a hole in the side of my nose might spring a leak if I get sneezy. Or worse still, spray out ten feet to the side because of the built up pressure and hit someone standing next to me. Or worse still, the nose-ring might fly off and become a deadly missile!

On the plus side, it would give me a place to carry my knives, spanners or CDs, so I am still undecided.

[asianphoenixx]

OMG Claire ..u have perfect facial bone structure

[T-girl hound]

Claire is a goddess

[kmod]

thanks for the table of contents on the first page for those of us that haven't read any of this, lol.

just gotta say what hasn't already been said a million times;

LOVE the piercings
LOVE the skin
LOVE the body

did i leave anything out???

you're gorgeous all around claire!