beforehand i did a minor search for this topic never really found one so if there is one i apologize in advance.

I am considering becoming Transgender, the fact of the matter being the idea of waking up looking in the mirror and seeing a beautiful woman would be an amazing feeling and i feel i would be much happier. at the same time though its expensive, hard to find jobs for, i could lose both my friends and family. and even if i did start transition you never really know what your gonna end up looking like, what i think i may end up looking like and what i will end up looking like could be 2 completely different things.

I know this is a pretty serious decision, so i am looking for input, for now what i am thinking is i could get a couple hair treatments EX: Beard Back etc.
which i could easily get away with just be like ooooo woman don't dig my beard etc. and if i still feel this way in a bit talk to a doctor about HRT. i dunno, i guess i am just looking for input and advice -.-