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[ian]

Always respect those that mean something to you more than those who offer only jest, jibes and affirmations of their own securities.

I think that is a fantastic quote. I understand what you mean perfectly.

[Vicki Richter]

I do miss Joanna. We have/had a lot of chemistry both on and off screen. We both debuted in the same video which I believe was also Barbie Woods last (unless she did a strokers).

The last I saw her she was sick with the flu during a visit to my neck of the woods which was supposed to be a lot of fun for both of us. We ended up driving to my house (which is in a really big neighborhood 20 miles in the middle of nowhere) and I think she thought I was planning to murder her. Of course I wasn't and it was a nice visit, but clouded because she didn't feel great.

J - I hate to hear you feel like this. You are really one of my favorite people.

[tsntx]

this is supposed to be a "fantasy" thing you guys....lol....we mess around a bit but it's not that serious...LOL

For me, it was something serious to me and which I will always regret for it's chemistry always failing disastrously apart without eye contact.

As is well known by all, I am "bisexual" in all directions and even for me, with such broad tastes, it is tough to find someone meaningful that you want to hook up with.

Labels mean jack shit and the one who plays on them is usually the sad bloke or bird that isn't going to get any.

If you are lucky enough to find someone that "does" it for you then great for you and don't let the inadequacies of anyone else stand in your way.

Because of bigotry, the fear of accepting a label, the fear of being labelled, the inability to see me as something more than just a pornstar and from the inevitable consequence of building barriers to avoid emtional hurt, people sacrifice what may have been the best thing in their lives.

Always respect those that mean something to you more than those who offer only jest, jibes and affirmations of their own securities.


This matters to me and I speak from the heart.
The last year 3 years have changed me deeply and hope that my experience will make you heed my words.

3 years ago, I believed that I could achieve anything but then find myself left by the person I loved and ripped out of the life of the person I treasured.
2 year ago, I lost my knight in shining armour, was hounded by the press, ran away from life and became an upscale vagabond, moving from city to city and country every week.
1 year ago, I tried to pull my life together and had to battle at every step and was attacked by all and everyone, from crooked producers to the US government.
Now, I am a bitter person that rarely goes out and is to all but the very few, a recluse and is unable to find in herself the trust for anyone but her tedddy bear. A teddy bear that I call Max and is the 4th most important person in the world and for whom, I barely avoided assault charges on a LAX->LHR business class flight.


I live on the fringe of the fringe and I am rejected by all except those that mistrust me.
Absolute loneliness is equivalent to a penance in solitary confinement in a cell that has no need for walls.


I feel as much pain as I did on 29th September 2003 but since then I have made a promise to someone that denies me from making the same choice.


Joanna
xxx

wow ive never talked to you before joanna but im truely sorry youre having a rough time and i certainly know alot about loss and pain and i greatly hope your life gets better... - j

[Bicycology]

as to Joanna - What can we do to help?

That's it, the only question that matters (to me)

As to the topic - I think it's just beautiful that Danielle (so gorgeous and feminine - lover her voice!) and Vickie (mmm-baby! kisses for evah!) could have a magical romance.

screw labels, but if that sort of feeling with either of you would label me, i'll take the label.

[drock]

I hope you're feeling better and you can get over what sounds like might be depression joanna.

[tsfarrah]

Joanna

I'm so sorry to hear your in so much pain

you'[ve been someone I have grately admired(being from the U.K,London myself)

and having been able to work with you and get to know you a little better I felt that we got on well

I know that we still dont know each other that well but really if there is anything I can to to help Iam here for you,seeing as were both in London.

please take care and hope to speak to you soon

xxxx

[sdman]

Hi everyone, this may sound wierd but I think Vicki is Bisexual...LOL

I like you and Vicki. I like two hot shemales sucking and fucking each other!

[figger]

If loving Viki makes me a lesbian than count me in, you girls look great together.... GO FOR IT!!!!

[figger]

I had a ts girl give me an enema last night , it was a major turn on, anyone else turned on by getting cleaned out , or am i just a freak!!!

[Nch22now]

Hey Danielle, I have a great idea to find out if you are a lesbian. I understand that this is supposed to be a bit of fun so here goes.

You and Vicky have to make a date, get drunk and spend the night playing with eachother. If you end up getting it on you're a lesbian.

Here's the rub though. You'll need a witness. I'll fly over and spend the night there too, that way you check if your feelings are still the same with me. I'd be happy for you to slip me one after Vivky, just so you can be sure.