"Straight" male wanting to crossdress

[mikey_stl]

I generally refer to myself as a straight male, but I've always been intensely attracted to T-girls. I've only had scattered experiences, usually with escorts, but occasionally a one-night stand or an encounter at an adult theater. I've only had serious relationships with GGs. When I'm with T-girls, though, I prefer to suck and bottom. I've only topped a couple of times, but I do like to get sucked.

Anyway, recently I've been fantasizing about cross dressing and trying to have sex with straight men. I see a lot of ads on Doublelist from "straight" men looking for CDs, TGs, etc. I don't want to change my gender or anything, but I've always had a feminine side, perhaps more than other guys, and I have from time-to-time fantasized about going to an adult theater en femme and playing with the men that go there.

I was recently in an adult video arcade and went in one of the booths. There was a bag on the floor and when I opened it there was a blonde wig, a pair of black panties, and a black nightgown. I'm not sure who left it there, but it was a windfall for me. I'm now planning how I can become more feminine, getting makeup, painting my fingernails and toenails, etc. I don't think I'll ever be able to be passable, but I think I can be pretty cute looking as I have some feminine features. I have something of a baby face. I'm somewhat chubby and smooth, but I also work out, so I have some muscles too, muscular legs, especially. My back, underarms, legs, and butt are pretty smooth. I just shaved my pubic hair. I have some hair on my chest and belly, and don't really know what to do about that, but I think I might like to get rid of it, just don't know how.

I fantasize about how exciting it would be to be cock-whore in an adult theater or to be a straight man's dirty little secret. I also fantasize about having a "lesbian" relationship with another CD or a TG.

Not sure why I'm writing this here. Maybe looking for similar experiences or feelings that others might have, or maybe looking for practical tips. I really have no other place to talk about this. It's also a little scary. I guess it's a step out of my comfort zone.

[petitskinny]

Hello,

I'm feeling the same way, and i'm writing stories where I'm forced to dress as a woman by tall and strong man or woman, forced to suck cock, fucked by dick, strapon or fingers. I fantasize also to be lifted and carried, and bare bottom spanked. It helps me very much to keep balances in my every day life, and I do not feel the need to wear like woman. I've tried but I looked so ugly I've never do it again The guy I play with in my mind is much more thin, light and feminin than me.

May I know your height and weight ? Maybe a picture with face hidden ?

[mikey_stl]

Here's a pic. This is only one I have right now that obscures my face. I'm 5'8", 230, but carry it well. Would like to see yours if you feel like sharing. I would say that I feel much the same as you do. I don't think I'd make a very convincingly pretty girl. I admire those who can pull off a passable look, but I just couldn't do that. I just think I'd look like a man in a dress, no matter what I do, but I've seen some pretty awful looking crossdressers online and at adult theaters and at bars and so forth, and I think I'd look better than some of the ones I've seen.

[mikey_stl]

Also, here is a pic of my butt, which is naturally smooth and soft and pink, like a girls. I love having it stroked and licked and rimmed and penetrated. I've asked GGs to stick their finger in it, but sometimes that grosses me out. I fantasize about having a GG use a strap-on on me. Of course, there's nothing like being fucked by a trans woman.

[mikey_stl]

What I meant to say above is that when I've asked a GG to stick their fingers in, sometimes it grosses THEM out (not me). I love any kind of anal penetration.

[bigtrannylover]

Hahaha "Straight man"!

[mikey_stl]

Here's the thing. Anal penetration feels good to me. It's not about "gay" or "straight"; it's about what feels good. It really doesn't matter whether it's a dildo or a cock or a finger ... I like it all. I think, though, that a cock feels best of all, especially a trans woman's cock.

[bigtrannylover]

Ok "straight" male Lol