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Thread: A Little Trip Through Hell
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09-18-2006 #1
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A Little Trip Through Hell
I just finished off my last bit of whiskey. There's no more booze in the house. I could go out, go to work, drink for free, but I'm not going to do it.
I'm gonna detox. It's gonna suck, but it's something I wanna do. I have nothing against casual drinking, but I've been a raging drunk and have been for most my life. I liked to party, then I took it home with me. It will kill me sooner or later.
This is going to be painful. If anyone is interested in the process, I'll keep ya posted in this thread.
Tomarrow is gonna be bad. Not looking forward to that shit, but what ya gonna do? It's interesting. . . I'm already feeling a slight ache in my bones.
I'm fairly certain this will get worse. hehe. Probably a lot worse.
This is not a cry for sympathy, just an online documentation of a process.
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09-18-2006 #2
Cool. Let us know how you make out. I am not quite ready to give up booze yet, but this is interesting to me.
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09-18-2006 #3
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My suggestion is not that you try to detox totally. Wake up, have a busy day eat well and then have three drinks or less, period. Do that for a month and watch your life improve.
Then after that it will be easier to graduate to two drinks a day---which makes you a social drinker.
If you just go cold turkey it will be much easier to rebound then if you gradually come down.
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09-18-2006 #4
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Re: A Little Trip Through Hell
Originally Posted by hondarobot
Had set up residence in Hell, back when I was using.
If, I had kept up it up I would have been a permanent resident in one of the three.
Vaya con dios, amigo.
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09-18-2006 #5
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I like the idea of having the two or three drinks at the end of day. Of course I like the idea of drinking in whatever proportions and at whatever times, or else I wouldn't have indulged in the process for so long and so enthusiastically.
That's the problem with being a maintenance drinker. It's not some Leaving Las Vegas bonanza of alcohol abuse. It's all very controlled and plotted out. Ordinarily, since this is a day off for me, I'd do my morning routine, take some vitamins, eat, shower, clean the apartment, and then drink.
Days off are special in that they become broken down into three drinking sessions: morning, nap, evening, nap, night, sleep. Liquor was the grease that made the machine run seemingly smooth and steadily.
Nothing really dramatic to report thus far. Hands are shaking slightly, but I think that's more psychological then anything else. My body knows what's about to happen to it.
Tough love. Hehe.
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09-19-2006 #6
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OK, this sucks so far. Anyone planning the "drinki drinki" detox, here's what ya got comming:
Unspecified irritation, boredom (I laid on the couch watching Dr. Phill and a bunch of other shit today), shakey hands, muscle spasms, feeling like you have the flu, thinking "what the hell am I doing? I liked drinking!", and just generally feeling like shit.
Things for me accelerated to the point where I had to run to the local liquor store tonight because I became convinced I was on the verge of having a heart attack or something.
It was just detox anxiety, but it can really fuck with a person.
Got a pint and a half bottle of beer (gone already) and a pint of whiskey. Had one whiskey. Feeling OK now. I'll get some sleep and see what happens.
It's kinda funny really. This shit can really get it's claws in a person over the years.
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09-19-2006 #7Originally Posted by hondarobot
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09-19-2006 #8
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Very interesting thread. I will be checking this regularly. Wish you the best of luck too.
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09-19-2006 #9
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Flow with it. I'm a textbook functional alchie...so I know the drill. But I'm very disciplined. Not to say this is any life, but it's the only life I like... The bad thing about success (which i have) is that it can simultaneously breed or reinforce bad habits....who knows. I love whiskey and knowledge and love and people...necessarily in that order.
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09-19-2006 #10
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Hey ezed, good to see ya. I agree, it's called "the hard stuff" for a reason.
Nice to meet ya olite71. I say stick with what works for ya. Being a drunk clearly hit the wall for me, so this is where I am now.
Day 2: Hard to type, hands shaking pretty bad (not that I was ever a great typist to begin with). It's almost amusing in a way, like having a duel case of Evil Hand Syndrome.
Difficult to sleep last night, kept waking up from weird dreams. Those are the aspects I think I'm going to really hate, the things I have absolutely no control over. Maybe I'll look stuff up on "Lucid Dreaming Techniques" or something, try to get that stuff under control.
And I feel hungover, even though I didn't in fact get drunk last night. Not by my criteria, at least. I'm drinking tons of water, that seems to help things.
Plan for today is to get two large bottles of beer, hold off until later tonight, drink them and go to bed. I'm glad I'm not going through this when I'm old, I think I picked the right time to slam the brakes on.