My first adventure with a tgirl.....reality bites!!!
After being a big fan of tgirl movies for some years now, I decided to have my first tgirl adventure in Amsterdam at the red light district last Friday. I got a lot of tips from Peter in the Dutch topic so that helped me a lot.
I saw a pretty nice looking girl in the Bloedstraat. Her name was Alyssa or Alicia or something and she was half Columbian and half from Aruba. She said she was bottom only which was perfect since I wanted to be top only. As I walked in I noticed she spoke very good Dutch, this almost never happened to me with all the girls I visisted in the RLD both in Amsterdam as in The Hague. Anyway, she made me pretty comfortable by her very nice and friendly attitude. I told her this was my first time with so we talked a lot of the whole thing. We talked a lot like 15 minutes and after that I paid her and it was time for the actually sex.
I already had an erection so I had no problem penetrating her but after like 1 minute I got this weird mental block. Like while I was having sex with her I got this voice in my head saying I don't belong here or something. After that I lost wood and it didn't came back no matter what she or I did. It just wasn't gonna happen. I only wanted to do 1 thing and 1 thing only and that was get dressed and leave as soon as soon possible.
So now I'm thinking what happened and there are 3 options in my head.
1. I was very nervous the first time so that's why it didn't go the way I wanted.
2. I only like tgirls virtually but when it comes to actually have sex with them I can't do it, I get this mental block of actually having sex with someone with a penis.
3. Eventhough the girl was very nice and good looking perhaps she wasn't my type after all? Perhaps it could work with another tgirl better.
At this point I'm not sure I'm gonna try it again. I doubt I will. Maybe I should accept that fact that having sex with a tgirl for me is only like this big fantasy but in real life I can't do anything with it! Maybe I should stick with what I know and what I have done so far in my life!
Thank you for listening.
Ferdinand.