KinkyDisaster
12-05-2015, 07:45 PM
I've been pretty good at not caring about what others think of me during my life, including my family; the vast majority being Christian and me being Agnostic/Atheist. In this dream, I'd brought my TG girlfriend to an immediate family visit, in which everyone was perfectly fine with this. I was so into her; I'm 5'8-9" and she was about 6'4", Caucasian, very cute. Everything goes well. Afterward, we go to a field in between cities just to hang out. We got along so well.
The next morning, I wake and read our text thread. I said something I don't remember saying, because we didn't text at all in the dream. "I'm too good for anyone" I said. She took it as me running away, and left me. I'm not like that at all, and I definitely did not want us to separate. It seems that I am afraid of how I'm viewed. I woke up ashamed of myself.
I've always tried to maintain an image of fortitude, because I am strong, and the world needs to know minds without bias, but they won't listen to me if I have too many blemishes in their opinion (Also military), unless I were entertaining them. I can throw logic in their faces all day, but it won't accomplish much. I don't have my brand of inspirational entertainment yet. So yes, I'm afraid of not being able to accomplish my life goals over something so trivial. I don't want to just live with the times, but I do want to change them. I need to do something about the state of my nation. Does anyone have any thoughts on this; they may help me.
The next morning, I wake and read our text thread. I said something I don't remember saying, because we didn't text at all in the dream. "I'm too good for anyone" I said. She took it as me running away, and left me. I'm not like that at all, and I definitely did not want us to separate. It seems that I am afraid of how I'm viewed. I woke up ashamed of myself.
I've always tried to maintain an image of fortitude, because I am strong, and the world needs to know minds without bias, but they won't listen to me if I have too many blemishes in their opinion (Also military), unless I were entertaining them. I can throw logic in their faces all day, but it won't accomplish much. I don't have my brand of inspirational entertainment yet. So yes, I'm afraid of not being able to accomplish my life goals over something so trivial. I don't want to just live with the times, but I do want to change them. I need to do something about the state of my nation. Does anyone have any thoughts on this; they may help me.