lovelygirlyamy
10-28-2014, 12:23 AM
Hello,
I hope everyone is doing great. I just had some stuff on my mind and felt like venting and talking which is a rare occurrence for me. so here i go..
I am at that point in my life where my gender identity conflict is starting to hit hard.. it hit hard around age 16 and now that i am 25 it's starting to hit even harder.. i find myself thinking everyday how much longer tell i can be who i feel i am.. nothing will change unless i do something about it though.. but being self employed as a freelance web developer well it's just not a market that booms anymore cant compete with overseas freelancers at $5 an hour just not worth it. I have laser hair removal surgery's i need to pay for and i need about $3000 worth of it..
I have tried to get into the adult industry by submitting to Grooby and a couple of other websites, even tried to start my own little videos and photos to get my stage name out there.. but as well another hard industry to break into.. I think were a lot of the girls make there money is Escorting and that's just too risky.
Sometimes when life has you by it's grip and wont let go.. what do you do? I keep my head held high everyday and keep going at it trying to be successful..
Sorry, i just needed to vent.. i don't have lots of friends and just thought i could vent here since some of the issues i am having are related to what this forum is about.
I hope everyone is doing great. I just had some stuff on my mind and felt like venting and talking which is a rare occurrence for me. so here i go..
I am at that point in my life where my gender identity conflict is starting to hit hard.. it hit hard around age 16 and now that i am 25 it's starting to hit even harder.. i find myself thinking everyday how much longer tell i can be who i feel i am.. nothing will change unless i do something about it though.. but being self employed as a freelance web developer well it's just not a market that booms anymore cant compete with overseas freelancers at $5 an hour just not worth it. I have laser hair removal surgery's i need to pay for and i need about $3000 worth of it..
I have tried to get into the adult industry by submitting to Grooby and a couple of other websites, even tried to start my own little videos and photos to get my stage name out there.. but as well another hard industry to break into.. I think were a lot of the girls make there money is Escorting and that's just too risky.
Sometimes when life has you by it's grip and wont let go.. what do you do? I keep my head held high everyday and keep going at it trying to be successful..
Sorry, i just needed to vent.. i don't have lots of friends and just thought i could vent here since some of the issues i am having are related to what this forum is about.