Chaos
06-15-2014, 07:11 AM
So I've been thinking (dangerous, I know :P ).
It occurs to me that in my time here I've more than likely upset a few people/small lynch mob...
I know I am a difficult,weird,sometimes obnoxious,somewhat crazy,jackass and not at all easy to understand/deal with.
To ANYONE I have upset in the past or likely will in the future, I apologize wholeheartedly. I admit I have made mountains out of mole hills at times,and while it is EASY to chalk it up to what goes on in my head,I still have to take responsibility for it,it's still ME...And also likely not to change,as I have been this way my entire life.
I never set out to be antagonistic or a pain in the ass,but I sometimes let my problems dictate my actions....especially when it comes to arguments of any kind. There is a part of me that sees ANY attention as better than being ignored, I can't help that,I've tried. I am also a smartass and sarcasm can be hard to shut off,ESPECIALLY since it's also a defense mechanism,as much as my sense of humor. I don't respond well to hostility,instead of ignoring it,I return the favor.
It's not an endearing quality...ever.
Maybe I'm just getting old and getting over being "Billy Badass",or maybe I'm just starting to look at the things I've done in a realistic light, I don't know.
Part of why I am doing this (a small part) is because I look around and see nothing but bullshit arguments in a LOT of threads here,and some blatantly antagonistic shit throwing...and I don't like it. Sure,there have always been arguments,and at times there have been a lot,but it seems to never stop anymore. All I know for sure is that I have contributed to it at times...and for that I am sorry. Just had to get that off my chest.
It occurs to me that in my time here I've more than likely upset a few people/small lynch mob...
I know I am a difficult,weird,sometimes obnoxious,somewhat crazy,jackass and not at all easy to understand/deal with.
To ANYONE I have upset in the past or likely will in the future, I apologize wholeheartedly. I admit I have made mountains out of mole hills at times,and while it is EASY to chalk it up to what goes on in my head,I still have to take responsibility for it,it's still ME...And also likely not to change,as I have been this way my entire life.
I never set out to be antagonistic or a pain in the ass,but I sometimes let my problems dictate my actions....especially when it comes to arguments of any kind. There is a part of me that sees ANY attention as better than being ignored, I can't help that,I've tried. I am also a smartass and sarcasm can be hard to shut off,ESPECIALLY since it's also a defense mechanism,as much as my sense of humor. I don't respond well to hostility,instead of ignoring it,I return the favor.
It's not an endearing quality...ever.
Maybe I'm just getting old and getting over being "Billy Badass",or maybe I'm just starting to look at the things I've done in a realistic light, I don't know.
Part of why I am doing this (a small part) is because I look around and see nothing but bullshit arguments in a LOT of threads here,and some blatantly antagonistic shit throwing...and I don't like it. Sure,there have always been arguments,and at times there have been a lot,but it seems to never stop anymore. All I know for sure is that I have contributed to it at times...and for that I am sorry. Just had to get that off my chest.