Not Another Crazed Outburst

[hondarobot]

For a variety of reasons, I have been making frequent wildly insane rants on these boards for quite some time lately. The general themes in these bizarre outbursts are generally either related to my nearly psychotic pursuit of superstar Vicki Richter, or the fact that I believe I am in fact, uh, a woman. The causes for them are numerous, mostly related to stress over a stupid contest I didn't win (although I intend to continue to work on the process that the contest was related to).

Now, my attraction to Vicki remains undiminished, but I'm not going to continue forward under the delusion that we could ever be a couple someday. She's a great, sweet girl, but I'm just not her sort of guy. I'm not really any girls kinda guy, although I'm not gay and I'm not in fact a girl. This is what I really wanted to post about.

I think my throwing out that I believed for a time that I was cross-gender was, not only grossly innacurate, but possibly insulting to actual cross gender people. I didn't intend it as such, and it was the result of temporary lunacy on my part, but I think my reasoning at the time was "Hmmm. . .I'm kinda a sensative wuss, obviously girls want a manly guy. . .so maybe I'm a girl! That could work!" Like I said, I'm not cross or transgender, I'm just not a macho, take charge sort of guy. I don't think I ever could be, and I'm fine with that at this point. I'm also terrible material for a relationship with anyone, I just don't want to be life partners with anyone on that level, I never really have.

I do value my friends, though, and so I apologize for my behavior. Especially to Vicki, sh'e been more than patient with me for over a year now, since I sent her my first "I Love You!" email, and she has spent a great deal of time helping me to calm down and face facts. She's also made me realize that I can't just float along in life, continuing to get lucky and take things for granted.

I will now proceed to attempt to become lecherously wealthy (it's not entirely impossible, actually) and then my past tirades will be forgotten because when you're rich and powerful you're never crazy. You're just eccentric.

And I'll continue to watch porn, because when it comes down to a long term gratifying life path, masturbation is the most appealing option I can see. I've never had any problems with it.

If I ever post another crazy bunch of nonsense, I would appreciate it if someone would simply tell me to shut the fuck up.

:)

[GroobySteven]

Man, I hope you're collecting your past postings and keeping them for posterity or publication. It reads like a John Irving novel.
Great stuff - keep it up.
seanchai

[TomSelis]

I was just going to say...you need a blog site. I'd read that shit!

[hondarobot]

Thanks guys, actually I plan on making cartoons.

I'm not kidding, either. I think could make some pretty damn funny ones. I'll keep everyone posted.

[BeardedOne]

From one who rants, but who also knows where the "DELETE" button is:


Man, I hope you're collecting your past postings and keeping them for posterity or publication. It reads like a John Irving novel.
Great stuff - keep it up.

I should know that name. My brain is fuzzy, though. Any titles to suggest?

Personally, I am anxious to find an appropriate newsreader to cull my own posts to file. Aside from the fact that I am a narcissistic packrat that rereads his own stuff with perverse delight, I have discovered I also have 'fans'. :D You know who you are. :wink:


For a variety of reasons, I have been making frequent wildly insane rants on these boards for quite some time lately.

"Georgie? Is that you? Listen to your mother! Your father is very upset with you right now! Are the twins home? Put Laura on the phone! I told you to stay away from that chubby little malcontent, Mr. Rove!"


Now, my attraction to Vicki remains undiminished,

Are you stalking, Honda? Stalking bad. Not good. Bad Honda! Don't stalk! :x


I think my throwing out that I believed for a time that I was cross-gender was, not only grossly innacurate, but possibly insulting to actual cross gender people.

I never said I was a 'male lesbian'. More than one of my 'lovers', who happened to be dykes, did say that. Don't self-label, son, there's more than enough people ready to take on that task themselves once they meet you. :roll:


and it was the result of temporary lunacy on my part,

'Temporary' is relative. The Boston Elevated Railway built a 'temporary' terminal in Everett, MA that operated from 1919 through 1977. How old are you again? :shock:


I'm also terrible material for a relationship with anyone,

You and I could share a lot of cheap beer over this one. I'll pencil you in.


masturbation is the most appealing option I can see.

Hey, we all know that it's sex with someone you truly love, right?


If I ever post another crazy bunch of nonsense, I would appreciate it if someone would simply tell me to shut the fuck up.

What? And sacrifice the great base material? Not a chance, guy! :D

PS: Love the portrait of Gomez. :lol:

[hondarobot]

B1, John Irving wrote World According To Garp, Hotel Newhampshire, bunch of stuff, google him.

I've never honestly read his stuff, probably should, but I saw the movies. He's kinda a quasi Kurt Vonegut sorta guy. I never really liked Vonegut too much, although he's OK, I did like the part in Sirens Of Titan when the guys are trapped for years on a distant planet with their spaceship down in a crater, and then they finally think "Hey, let's try putting the engines in reverse!"

[BeardedOne]

B1, John Irving wrote World According To Garp, Hotel Newhampshire, bunch of stuff, google him.

Thanx, Honda. Never clicked on those (Though I absolutley adored Nastasia Kinky as 'Susie the Bear').

I am somewhat of a Garpist. I know TS's and someone was shot dead by park rangers in my backyard a couple of weeks ago. :roll:

"Are you kidding?!? How likely is it that that will happen again in our lifetime? This place is perfect!"

[Quinn]

Honda, it's all good. Your rants help to keep this place interesting. Like Seanchai said, keep it up.

-Quinn

[TrueBeauty TS]

2005 Winner, Hung Angels Most Retarded Post Of The Year.


You just won another honor!!!!


"2006 Winner, Hung Angels Most Inaccurate Thread Title"


Keep up the good work!! :D

[hondarobot]

Thanks Quinn, but I am going to stay away from the nutty posts in the future, they were the result of stress induced insanity (I really wanted to win that damn contest).

I have no idea what TrueBeautyTS is all about. She's speculated that I was some crazy stalker on another forum before. I think she just wants me.

8)

[Quinn]

I have no idea what TrueBeautyTS is all about. She's speculated that I was some crazy stalker on another forum before. I think she just wants me.


Maybe, just maybe, you have your own stalker now. Let us know how that works out :lol:

-Quinn

[hondarobot]

I don't really know anything about TrueBeautyTS, beyond the fact that she is a friend of Vicki and Felicia. A friend of a friend is friend.

[chefmike]

I'm sorry to hear that you lost the contest, Honda. It sounds like you put a lot of work into it. Well, you know what they say...if at first you don't succeed, blah, blah, blah.....