Ok here's the deal

[Corran]

About a year ago I was surfing the net for pics of hot redheads and came across a picture of a hot girl named Sarina. I was smitten, she had everything I look for in a woman, big breasts and ass and cute as hell face. The picture was one of her semi clothed (she was wearing panties) and when I searched more for her I found out..well, you know. I was surprised, before then I always thought of a transsexual as one of those dudes with wigs like you saw on Jerry Springer But here was a beautiful young woman with a hot little body who just happened to have a penis. I signed up for her website because I wanted to see more of her and that's where it all began. Sarina couldn't (appeared to me anyway) get hard and wasn't the best performer back then (she's improved loads since she dumped that annoying Spencer dude) and I looked around for other ts stars. Found Dany de Castro. Watching her cum while being fucked was a mind blowing experience for me, one of the sexiest things I ever saw. I was hooked.
I also continued watching straight porn and being attracted primarily to genetic girls in my personal life. Things have slowly began to change.
Don't even watch straight porn anymore, it does nothing for me. Used to prefer watching the guy top the girl but that too is slowly changing, especially since I discovered Venus Lux. She is such a sensual lover tho, I'd watch her do anything. And then this:
Couple of days ago I hooked up with a younger woman and things moved to the bedroom. Everything was going fine until we undressed and I saw what was between her legs. It wasn't what I wanted it to be so badly, I realised and things just went downhill from there, let me tell ya.
So I guess I'm confused. Men still hold no attraction for me at all. Now apparently neither does a woman with a pussy. I guess I'm somewhere in the middle? Needless to say, I'd love to try a transsexual but where I live the pickings are pretty slim, even with escorts. I want to know if I would want to be the top or open to being bottom..
It's confusing. I guess what I'm getting at is, do any of you have any ideas? been through something similiar. If I've embarrased myself in anyway..I don't care. I joined this forum to talk about things like this, so rather than playing the word game and telling Eva how hot she is I'm just gonna put it out there. Any advise/constructive criticism would be appreciated and thank you for reading.

[Corran]

and if anyone cares this is the picture that started it all.

[Jericho]

Yes...You're gay! :shrug

[tsluvr61]

Since I first observed a TS on video tape back in 1981 I have been attracted to them. Not the ones where a man is wearing a wig either. I am like you. I am VERY attracted to a sexy, feminine, TS with working parts. I have been married 29 years and over those 29 years had several affairs with GG's and loved my time with them. Thank God I was never caught and let me tell you I have been with many. Lucky I didnt catch something during my time playing with all the GG's around the beach where we lived. Even so the porn I would watch was always TS porn mixed in with regular porn and the wife liked DP porn so she could have cared less what I watched. Anywho, about 8 years ago I decided to meet a TS and see what would happen. I had no sooner give her my donation and I was on the bed and she was on her knees with her cock in my face. I was hooked. She was gorgeous. I have had the opportunity to be with Daisy once and I extremely enjoyed my time with her. So I will continue to meet with them as my time and finances allow. I no longer feel the need to chase after pussy, although if they are 21 and available I would never turn one down, especially a Red Head. I am partial to Red Heads.
So let me be clear. I am not attracted to men at all. I do not sit on the beach and watch men walk by and think " Yea I got to have that". NOT HAPPENING!
I do look at women though and think that. So you tell me what we are. I do not consider myself gay by any means, then again I am not straight either. I just enjoy my time with my special ladies and forget the rest. Its my own personal kink. There are many other kinks that I would condider much worse than mine!

[EvaCassini]

Awww so sweet hun....ill tell u my experience in a nutshell....
i used to watch GG, then as I learned more about myself, I started watching TG porn......and look at me now...i am in TG porn! :) and I love it! XOXOXO

[Corran]

Well at least now I know 'cause the internet said so :dancing:

[EvaCassini]

hahaha...we all are the gay! :)

[Corran]

That reply was to Jericho lol...Thanks Eva..and tsluvr..understood...maybe it's because it's something exciting and new and when I experience it things will change with how I feel about gg's. TS's just seem so much more....passionate. I'm a passionate man and want that. I also want to watch someone cum while I'm inside them, watch the pleasure I am bringing my partner and like I said, watching a ts woman cum while being fucked ranks at the top of the list of the sexiest things I've seen.

[MacShreach]

Awww so sweet hun....ill tell u my experience in a nutshell....
i used to watch GG, then as I learned more about myself, I started watching TG porn......and look at me now...i am in TG porn! :) and I love it! XOXOXO
That's brilliant Eva, so well said.

[EvaCassini]

That's brilliant Eva, so well said.

Thanks sweetie...i tell it how it is. ;)

[MacShreach]

That reply was to Jericho lol...Thanks Eva..and tsluvr..understood...maybe it's because it's something exciting and new and when I experience it things will change with how I feel about gg's. TS's just seem so much more....passionate. I'm a passionate man and want that. I also want to watch someone cum while I'm inside them, watch the pleasure I am bringing my partner and like I said, watching a ts woman cum while being fucked ranks at the top of the list of the sexiest things I've seen.

MMMM you wait till you've seen that for real, and you did it....

[Corran]

Been waiting..What's your phone number Eva? lol

[EvaCassini]

hahaha my phone is a 10 $ trac-fone.....only for emergencies.

we can talk on twitter tho ;) see my signature ;)

[shermanwt]

You have urges, act on them, check it out and see where it takes you. Don't get hung up on 'am i gay, am i straight'--that shit doesn't matter. As for porn and what you're watching, hell, don't worry about that either, I run the gamut from lily white mainstream to girls getting fucked by chickens. In this case, your self-exploration is a good thing. Better to regret something you did than something you didn't do.

[Corran]

Yea, I guess I'm just one of those guys who over analyses everything (not that you could tell from some of my board posts). It's not like I'm attracted to guys, these women are some of the prettiest I've seen in my life. After talking to some here and other places on the internet I've found out they are some of the nicest as well. I am mainly looking for peoples views/stories who have been through similiar experiences and how they dealt with it.

[giovanni_hotel]

Same shit. Different day.

Most guys have a similar if not almost the same 'awakening' to TGs as the OP.

I don't know where your journey is going to take you, but digging tgirls is well within the heterosexual attraction spectrum.

On HA you're meat and potatoes NORMAL.

I'm at the point now where a penis is just a sex organ. It's gender is totally determined by the person to whom it's attached.

Yeah I'm there right now where I'm fucking with a GG but sometimes wishing she was a tgirl. In fact to bust a nut quicker I have closed my eyes and pretended the girl I'm with is a tranny.

Doesn't happen all the time, but it does happen.
Too much demand, very little supply.
Life sucks.lol

[MdR Dave]

hahaha...we all are the gay! :)

LMAO!

Have you posted your "Am I the gay" thread yet?

[runround04]

I misread part of your post at first, I thought you'd had stumbled upon a Ts women without even realizing it until you got down to business. Sadly, I had misread it.

[Corran]

I misread part of your post at first, I thought you'd had stumbled upon a Ts women without even realizing it until you got down to business. Sadly, I had misread it.

No, I'd know what to do then...continue getting down to business lol