TIL that I am ugly

[Yoite]

... Le sigh. Feelsbadman

[BigDF]

What is going on?

[goliath_91710]

Pshaw! As if!!! Looksgoodman!

[Teydyn]

... Le sigh. Feelsbadman
Someone lied to you...


What is going on?
I had to google that too

Til - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TIL) is also an abbreviation for "Today I Learned", common Internet slang

[Dino Velvet]

Till???

http://i452.photobucket.com/albums/qq244/ichbinrammstein/RAMMSTEIN/till.jpg

[dgs925]

TIL that I jerk off to ugly transsexuals :_(

[Yoite]

*pats Dgs925 on back* it's ok friend, I do it too sometimes. We could start an anonymous meeting where we share our experiences and try to help eachother move on to watching normal porn.

Not sure how to solve my problem though, I guess more working out and less video games? :/

[SirCumsAlot]

*pats Dgs925 on back* it's ok friend, I do it too sometimes. We could start an anonymous meeting where we share our experiences and try to help eachother move on to watching normal porn.

Not sure how to solve my problem though, I guess more working out and less video games? :/

You look cute in my book if that means anything to ya :shrug

You cant let what one person say or tell you effect your life though. World is way too huge to worry about what one person may have said. Yeah it could be hard if it came from someone u were in love with, but ya'll wouldnt or shouldn't have fallen in love if he didnt think u were cute in the first place right? You'll be surprise the power your brain has if you focus on positive energy, thoughts, and confidence. Thoughts alone can actually subconsciously effect what/how people may feel about u and even your livelyhood, not to sound like I'm preaching or anything :?

Idk ur situation or what happen though. I'm guessing its a body thing since u stated working out? I think people should workout in general just to stay healthy (im just a health nut), and in the end result, your body will, or should, look good. Most of todays lifestyle has too many people sitting down all day and not enough physical action

[Yvonne183]

Yoite, you are not ugly. Don't take others words as gospel truth, quite a few people in the world use words like ugly just to hurt. But, this forum might not be the best place to have a serious discussion on this subject cause many here are kinda superficial on their outlook.



Anyways,,,, TIL that I am truly insane. That's what they told me, maybe I shouldn't believe them,,, maybe it's not true,, then why are they taking me away.

bye

[runningdownthatdream]

You are not ugly

[BigDF]

You are not ugly, Yoite. Ugly has more to do with personality than it has to with outward attractiveness. I've met some very ugly people in my life who were very attractive on the outside but were lacking the inner beauty that most people have. The very best thing you can do for yourself is to learn to love the reflection in the mirror. That's very difficult at first, especially when someone that you find attractive has voiced such an opinion. But whoever has said this about you is far more ugly than you could possibly be and likely feels the same about his or her self.

When you look at yourself in the mirror, smile at the wonderful person you see reflected there. Once you can manage to do that and feel good about yourself, smile at the next person you meet and greet them. Most people will smile back at you at least. And if someone doesn't then fuck them if they can't take joke or joke them if they can't take a fuck. :)

[Yoite]

I just wanted to shoot with buddy for yum ._.

[doctor screw]

Show us your trans-pussy,then we can see If your truly ugly.It better be clean....

[LAKidd]

TIL y buddy said no?
that don't sound like buddy

[onmyknees]

Yoite...you're cool with me. You're as pretty as you feel baby.

[Helvis2012]

Don't worry about it. People say stupid things all the time.

[Quiet Reflections]

I think you look great. And didn't you do a shoot once long time ago? I thought you had at least one pro set out there floating around

[SirCumsAlot]

I just wanted to shoot with buddy for yum ._.

ooooooooooooooooh ok I see... well I'm sure you'll get your chance. I mean I'm just judging by that one small profile pic, but u seem hot, but of course there's other features we haven't seen that they prob have. Just keep trying.

[Yoite]

no i didn't talk to buddy XD

[SirCumsAlot]

no i didn't talk to buddy XD

oh, well im confused! lol

Just me jumping to conclusions I guess :shrug

If or when u do talk to him good luck :grin:

[Jackal]

I think you're a beautiful lady.

[Merkurie]

Yoite is a babe no doubt.

[GroobySteven]

Your first set was popular and based on that we would have reshot you but it was I that said no to a reshoot this time based on:

a) the last time Buddy saw you in NYC at a club night he reported you were dressed/looked like a boy.

b) when I saw you less than a year ago at the Tranny Awards, you were dressed/looked like a boy.

The actual email I sent you stated:

"Based on how you looked the last time, I couldn't offer you more work - if you want to drop us some new photos and change my mind?"

Stupid postings like this, do nothing to encourage me to think otherwise.
It's a model position, we have nothing to go on other than what you looked like when we saw you.

[Yoite]

Consider the following:
When I went to NYC it was halloween.
I take the train into NYC and have to walk to the venue about a mile.
It was my first tile going to the venue, I didn't know anyone or what type of people went there.

These things in mind, I dressed very conservatively so as to make the walk comfortable (walking a mile in heels is not fun and I try to save some money on the trip whereas cabs can get a bit expensive). Not only that, but I didn't want to attract any unnecessay attention on said wall or at the club. I was a bit intimidated by NYC late at night on Halloween and had no idea what kind of people would be out and about. Clearly I was thinking with regards to my own safety.

When I went to the event in February in LA I dressed very conservatively and wore slacks with a sweater for a few reasons as well. It wasn't my night. I wasn't getting an award, I wasn't walking the red carpet. I had gone with Amy and some of her friends. I didn't want to attract a ton of attention to myself. I still wore make-up, still had on a cute pair of heals. To me though I didn't want to dress skankynor slutty as I was meeting you for the first time. You as in Steven. In person for the first time. That was a huge deal to me so I dress conservatively for fear that you wouldn't take me seriously if I hadn't. I didn't want to come off as some dumb girl or escort or something. I wanted to be presentable and professional so that if I had come to you and looked for work that you would realize I'm relatively mature, reliable, and professional. Notice I didn't drink at all on the night of he tranny awards, I didn't want to come off as an (excuse my language) asshole in front of Steven. I practically idolize you. I was super nervous to meet you and didn't want to screw up a first impression. Apparently I did not accomplish that. I apologize with that respect. To me, I had done a job for you and took it very seriously. I wasn't looking to fraternize, just for a nice to meet you and a pat on the back for a job well done. Had you wanted me to get some grand dress and told me to walk the red carpet with someone I would have dressed very differently.

If say I was hosting a party or had to perform or something like that then yes of course I would dress much more revealing. Going to new places and feeling like I'm going by myself, I dress conservatively because I don't know what type of people will be there and I value my safety.

With this thread I posted how I felt after being rejected by you, but made no reference to that being the cause for my grief. I didn't want to target you as 'the bad guy' as I really respect you. In retrospect I still feel content with the decisions I made given the situations for how I dressed myself. I most certainly live my day to day life as a girl and my job pretty much requires it (at work no one knows about me being a tranny or any of my on goings outside of work). I very much like to keep my work and private life seperate. For me doing modeling work is about having fun. It's a part of my private life. For a while it wasn't all that fun, but more recently I've found my interest rekindled. The reason I like shootin for yum is because it's Steven's company. I never shot with smc or anyone else was because I liked Steven and his photographers. They made it fun for me. I would love to shoot with Buddy again because I think he's a great guy and would love hanging out with him again. The same goes with Frank or pk Vegas (though I only meet him the one time at the tranny awards). I loved meeting all the grooby people at the tranny awards. I had a great time in the booth with them and at the after party as well.

I didn't mean for you to get involved, I was just hoping for some people to cheer me up. I wasn't making some big anti grooby post because you guys have been nothing but be nice to me and make me feel included when I have gone to your functions. That's probably why I think so highly of you and your company.

[needsum]

Wow, that is honestly the most respectful, sincere and thoughtfully worded post I have ever seen here. Yoite, I applaud you for the decisions you made and for staying true to who you are and how you hope to be perceived. I'm sure that thngs will work out--whenyou are ture to yourself, you will never fail. you may not achieve the original goal you set out to hit, but something always happens for the better. I wish you all the best :)

[GroobySteven]

Everything which could have been said in an email to me! We've talked about various things in the past so you know my door is open.

We/I only have photos to go on or the last time we saw you. I didn't say flat out "No" ... I pretty much said, shoot me some new pics over because I'll need to see what you look like. There was no need to be down about it - if anything, put on some makeup and send over a few pics.
Your reasonings on why you were more conservatively are sound - but that's all I have to go on.

Anyway, no need for either of us to harp on about it here.

[loveboof]

If you're going to an industry event, and you want to potentially promote yourself with certain people (as a model), then you really should have made some effort to look how they want/expect you to be.

[needsum]

boof, you make a good point. Excet that if you go back and read Yoite's last post agin, you will see that the intent was not to promote herself--she went to these events supporting other girls, and purposefully downplayed herslef so as not to draw any attention away from the girls who were there for a purpose. That, and she also just wanted to meet Steven and say hi. She even eludes to the fact that if she knew she was being judged for future work she'd have done things differently.

[Merkurie]

Yoite,
You have a good head on your shoulders and I definitely enjoyed your shoots. I like the sexy non-skank style you have. I hope you get everything you are after, you deserve it.

[amofemboy]

in my opinion you are very beautyful and aboveall sexy despite there isn't more of your photo in this forum!!

[loveboof]

boof, you make a good point. Excet that if you go back and read Yoite's last post agin, you will see that the intent was not to promote herself--she went to these events supporting other girls, and purposefully downplayed herslef so as not to draw any attention away from the girls who were there for a purpose. That, and she also just wanted to meet Steven and say hi. She even eludes to the fact that if she knew she was being judged for future work she'd have done things differently.

If this is true then she is incredibly naive about how the world works. Nobody would go to an interview in jeans and a t-shirt, and if your career involves networking (especially in a social, or evening capacity) then it's just as important to meet certain expectations.

If you want to be a model, then people expect you to be fashionable and attractive. I can understand dressing down for the NY party, but there is no excuse for the LA industry event. Sorry.

[drnick9333]

Yoite is a SUPER babe. I would watch anything with her in it and pay good $ for a glimps of her ...she is smart, fun and super sexy

[runningdownthatdream]

If this is true then she is incredibly naive about how the world works. Nobody would go to an interview in jeans and a t-shirt, and if your career involves networking (especially in a social, or evening capacity) then it's just as important to meet certain expectations.

If you want to be a model, then people expect you to be fashionable and attractive. I can understand dressing down for the NY party, but there is no excuse for the LA industry event. Sorry.

Dressing to impress isn't as important when you have an established relationship with the party you are seeking employment with. If you previously delivered quality work then there should be a reasonable expectation that you will do so again.

With regard to fashion: it's porn. You don't seriously suppose that porn producers give a fuck about what the talent look like outside of the shoot, do you? And what's the difference between a NY event and an LA event? Or between a London event and a Toronto event?

She may only appear to be naive to those of us who are more cynical than others.

[loveboof]

Dressing to impress isn't as important when you have an established relationship with the party you are seeking employment with. If you previously delivered quality work then there should be a reasonable expectation that you will do so again.

With regard to fashion: it's porn. You don't seriously suppose that porn producers give a fuck about what the talent look like outside of the shoot, do you? And what's the difference between a NY event and an LA event? Or between a London event and a Toronto event?

Obviously you're wrong in this instance seeing as Steven has already said that was one of the reasons he did not consider her for another shoot.

And the difference was not between the cities, but the circumstances.

[maaarc]

I think you are wicked cute and sexy Yoite :)

[runningdownthatdream]

Obviously you're wrong in this instance seeing as Steven has already said that was one of the reasons he did not consider her for another shoot.

And the difference was not between the cities, but the circumstances.

Obviously, the real reason he did not consider her had nothing to do with how she was dressed - their business involves being undressed. But if you believe what he wrote here then maybe you're the naive one. However, that's between she and him to figure out.

[loveboof]

Obviously, the real reason he did not consider her had nothing to do with how she was dressed - their business involves being undressed. But if you believe what he wrote here then maybe you're the naive one. However, that's between she and him to figure out.

I said that it's important to meet 'certain expectations'. You're the one who summed that up with dress-to-impress.

IMO she did not help herself by dressing down to go to a porn industry awards event. It is not a very business savvy thing to do if you want build up a name for yourself.

(edit: And I'm sorry to say this because Yoite has always seemed really cool on here, but until this thread I had no idea she was a tgirl at all, let alone one who had a porn shoot out there. Bad publicity - which is down to her)

[runningdownthatdream]

I said that it's important to meet 'certain expectations'. You're the one who summed that up with dress-to-impress.

IMO she did not help herself by dressing down to go to a porn industry awards event. It is not a very business savvy thing to do if you want build up a name for yourself.

(edit: And I'm sorry to say this because Yoite has always seemed really cool on here, but until this thread I had no idea she was a tgirl at all, let alone one who had a porn shoot out there. Bad publicity - which is down to her)

Let's just agree that she's cute and deserves a shot at fulfilling her porn dream!

[tsadriana]

ur not ugly u just need more attention,and now u got it.

[loveboof]

Let's just agree that she's cute and deserves a shot at fulfilling her porn dream!

Cool. I wish her well :)

[doctor screw]

Cool. I wish her well :)

blah blah blah....shut up,pussy.....lol

[loveboof]

blah blah blah....shut up,pussy.....lol

Let me know when you're about to start 'caving in my world' ok? lol

[doctor screw]

Let me know when you're about to start 'caving in my world' ok? lol

It's a slow,but effective process....you'll see MR.DB

lol

[loveboof]

Cool. Keep me posted dude - I don't wanna miss it :P

[doctor screw]

Trust me,you wont*evil laughter goes here*lol

[loveboof]

I was wrong... You obviously do get humour - you're fucking hilarious! :D

[doctor screw]

I was wrong... You obviously do get humour - you're fucking hilarious! :D

Surrrrre Mr.DB....lol

[loveboof]

Here's a riddle for you:

What does it mean when a douchbag calls you a douchbag? ..... (fuck all)

[doctor screw]

Here's a riddle for you:

What does it mean when a douchbag calls you a douchbag? ..... (fuck all)

It means you're a douche-bag calling me a douche-bag....duh

Ohhh Mr.DB......lol

[loveboof]

Do you have anything to add about Yoite's thread?

[doctor screw]

Do you have anything to add about Yoite's thread?

She should start her own site,and not depend on others.Build connections with other girls on this site,and go from there.

Also,hold my pocket Mr.DB....lol

[loveboof]

Also,hold my pocket Mr.DB....lol

Hahaha. Are you like that old dude from Family Guy?

I don't want to grab your penis screw...

[doctor screw]

Hahaha. Are you like that old dude from Family Guy?

I don't want to grab your penis screw...

No,I was just talking about my pocket........:screwy

Are you that greased-up deaf guy from family guy?

lol

[loveboof]

Are you that greased-up deaf guy from family guy?


U Neva Gowna CAtch meee

[tsadriana]

hmmmmmmmmmmmm...gay chat ...i ,ove it

[onmyknees]

Your first set was popular and based on that we would have reshot you but it was I that said no to a reshoot this time based on:

a) the last time Buddy saw you in NYC at a club night he reported you were dressed/looked like a boy.

b) when I saw you less than a year ago at the Tranny Awards, you were dressed/looked like a boy.

The actual email I sent you stated:

"Based on how you looked the last time, I couldn't offer you more work - if you want to drop us some new photos and change my mind?"

Stupid postings like this, do nothing to encourage me to think otherwise.
It's a model position, we have nothing to go on other than what you looked like when we saw you.



What the fuck is this.....Boardwalk Empire and you're the King Maker of Atlantic City? Dude...she made no reference to you whatsoever, and I nor anyone else drew any reference to you. It was clear to me she just needed a little "pick me up"...plain and simple. Why post parts of a private email exchange? I got no beef with you....you do what you do, and it appears you're pretty good at it....but Your email drips with condescension and harshness....You're a tad oversensitive for a guy in your position. Take a few tokes of that fat cigar, sip some whiskey, and relax....your empire remains intact.

[doctor screw]

hmmmmmmmmmmmm...gay chat ...i ,ove it

Yum.....lol