Falling in love with a t/g escort. A story.

[IMISSHER]

I figured this board would be the best possible site to tell my story. Dont care whos interested but writing it will be cathartic for me. also maybe someone will gain some insight from it.

Was in a club 3 years ago when across the room i locked eyes with someone that caused me to feel faint. this is know bs. before i know it i have her against the wall kissing her over and over. i stop and realize what im doing and shes says who r u? i am so overwhelmed i leave the club. the next day and the next i cant stop thinking about her. so 2 days later i go to another club that is open hoping she might show up. ten mins later she walks thru the door and sees me and smiles. we spent the next 6 hours kissing and talking. now understand i think i am kissing a girl. she says there is something u need to know. i find out and she begins to cry very hard. at that point my heart melt and i didnt care if she had 3 dicks, i was falling hard. i have never kissed anything but a girl in my entire life. im 35 at this point. so after we both calm down i hold her till the morning and bring her home. she seemed very upset that i didnt want to come in and make love. i explained that i wasnt ready and wanted to take one step at a time. next day we called each other and the happiest 4 months of my life began.

The summer months went by and we were slowly becoming a couple. didnt care if she was t/g. i was so in love i didnt care. her schedule seemed quite strange and it was hard for us to be together, thought she worked at a restaurant. didnt even occur to me that she might be anything then she was. she met some of my friends and one day i was sent a link on the net from a buddy and he said be prepared. there she was on eros. i was in shock and after reading the ad i became physically sick. never been with an escort in my life and seeing the woman u love explaining what she does for money in a way that left no doubt, my world crumbled.

over the next 2 1/2 years i experienced every emotion you can imagine. i could not stop loving her. heard her having sex with a john, saw the used condoms in the garbage, bailed her out of jail, held her why she cried so hard that she passed out and thru all of it she was the person i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with, i just knew it. i have never loved another human being in my life as i loved her.

after more time passed and we were spending more and more time apart due to her job, the sadness that would envelop me was unbearable. sex became non-ext due to fear of stds. everytime i would leave her i would feel so empty that i couldnt bear it. we would get back together and try again, and the same things would just happen again and again. i could not understand why she would continue with this when she had a future with me.

i have since moved on but miss her so much. i knew that if i stayed it would end only in a way that we would both be damaged forever. i read constantly that escort relationships can exist. when u love another human being in a way that it seem preordained sharing is not possible. the pain that it causes knowing she is with someone else is maddening. i am getting better but there still a part of me that will never be whole again. she calls evrey 2 weeks like clockwork and cries and says she cant stop she is addicted to the money and lifestyle. but she misses me so and wants to try again.

i mean this, be careful if this happening to you. if u are not use to this world you will see and feel things that u will not be able to get out of your head. i recently saw her at a restaurant and we talked for an hour. shes had multiple surgeries and doesnt even look like my baby that i fell in love with. says she makes a lot of money and would i consider living with her. i wouldnt have to work. i said, your pimp?, she said in a way. then she said chris are u gonna cry? i said no baby just sad. then she said, chris i cant even cry anymore, and when i think of you i cant work, so i try not to anymore. then she got up and left, then stopped and looked back at me and said i cant stop loving u, and u know what i can either no matter how hard i tried. i just wish like her i could just stop the tears, esp.when i close my eyes at night and think of what might have been.


thank you for listening to anyone who reads this. and please pray for her that nothing bad ever happens to her, Chris, story took place in LA, and this was a true story. thanks again


I miss her so fucking much, i can still smell her when she would sleep in my arms. why wont it stop?

[FreddieGomez]

no trannie is worth crying over....smh

[ed_jaxon]

Who said its supposed to stop?

Gets better over time though and eventually you are a different person with different goals and aspirations.

Guys get their hearts broken all the time.

That's what Jack Daniel's and Sinatra are for.

YouTube - Frank SINATRA - Drinking Again (Reprise 67) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvPozRyEpjc)

[lovesall]

Sorry to read about your predicament, all I can say is love will do strange things and hopefully time will heal all open wounds.

[pointblack]

WTF was this crap? BS! All we talk about here are race issues!

[IMISSHER]

You are fucking whooped bud....but that happens to the best of us...that is a really tough situation to deal with because when you are in love with somebody, its so hard to think about them being with anybody else, to the point where it can physically hurt you...

The other thought is, if you do truly love her, why not let her do her thing so you can be together? It is just her job and she isn't having emotional feelings for her johns, so if you can seperate the two, which is difficult, you can get through it...

Or just figure out a way to make a ton of money so you can pull her out...she can't do it forever and if you can find a way to co-exist and grow with her, anything is possible...

Tough situation you got yourself in, you probably should have pulled away as soon as you found out, but I guess by then it was too late...the one thing is, there are so many people on this planet that there is somebody else out there for you, if its not her. You just have to move on and open yourself up to the idea that she isn't the end all...and when you least expect it, the one you are truly supposed to be with will appear...good luck!
thank you. sharing her is never an option for me. poor or rich just as long its the 2 of us building a future together. thats all i ever wanted.

[FreddieGomez]

the whole fact that most trannies escort make me keep a wall up and not catch feelings....i couldnt fall for somebody who sleeps with other dudes, even if it is only for money...i wouldnt date a real chick who escorts either...fuck outta here....

[FreddieGomez]

No shit, but this thread isn't about you Frederick, this is about his story and how to deal with the sitution, so who gives a fuck about you not falling for somebody, he already has, so if you don't have advice for him, shut the fuck up...

that IS my advice..

[pointblack]

Originally Posted by T$420 http://www.hungangels.com/vboard/images/ca_serenity/buttons/viewpost.gif (http://www.hungangels.com/vboard/showthread.php?p=873791#post873791) No shit, but this thread isn't about you Frederick, this is about his story and how to deal with the sitution, so who gives a fuck about you not falling for somebody, he already has, so if you don't have advice for him, shut the fuck up...


that IS my advice..

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[pointblack]

Well, I wouldn't fall for a girl like that either, as soon as I found out she was an escort, I'd be pissed she lied to me for one, but he already fell hard, so he was past the point of return...now he is in a predicament that he can't figure out, so what would you do if you were him? Not you, if you were in his shoes and had this to deal with, what would do you think he should do?
The story is not true calm down!

[FreddieGomez]

Well, I wouldn't fall for a girl like that either, as soon as I found out she was an escort, I'd be pissed she lied to me for one, but he already fell hard, so he was past the point of return...now he is in a predicament that he can't figure out, so what would you do if you were him? Not you, if you were in his shoes and had this to deal with, what would do you think he should do?

i dunno. i guess i'm different....it takes alot for me to fall in love wit somebody anyway...i usually get tired of a chick after 3 weeks and my eye starts to wonder....

[FreddieGomez]

I believe it is true, why else would he take the time to describe in such detail about what he is going through?

it's a nice blog i guess....

[ed_jaxon]

T$ and Freddie.

Your avatars are too similar.

[FreddieGomez]

T$ and Freddie.

Your avatars are too similar.

*changin avatar*

[pointblack]

With the exception of me being white, wearing a wife beater and holding a bong in my hand...I guess you're right...
I not trying to be funny but I thought that was a funnel!
I thought you were changing your oil or something.

[ed_jaxon]

It was becoming a point counter point thing.

East coast Freddie and west coast T$. One facing left, one right. Both flexing.

Thanks Freddie. Makes it easier to keep up.

[pointblack]

I believe it is true, why else would he take the time to describe in such detail about what he is going through?
Ok while I was reading this... My dog got out and I went looking for him. I ran into this girl and we lock eyes. I thought damn to hell with my dog but I knew my cousin was Mike Vick and my dog was a pitbull. I call Mike and pleaded with him not to kill my dog if he loses the dog fight. Mike called me when I was making out with the girl I met and told me nano nano... I cried for the next 3 days because I knew this girl was going to leave me. She never looked back! I am lost now.

[pointblack]

haha, that is funny! More like a beaker from a lab actually, it was my favorite bong of all time....his name was Dirk Noripski, RIP...
Give me a better pic of it!

[onmyknees]

the whole fact that most trannies escort make me keep a wall up and not catch feelings....i couldnt fall for somebody who sleeps with other dudes, even if it is only for money...i wouldnt date a real chick who escorts either...fuck outta here....


What's up with that Perry Como sweater ??
Anyway...you're lying again. You're sweet on Amber, and you'd fall head over heels for her if she'd have you...what to do the...... Live another Lie ??????? LMAO

[FreddieGomez]

What's up with that Perry Como sweater ??
Anyway...you're lying again. You're sweet on Amber, and you'd fall head over heels for her if she'd have you...what to do the...... Live another Lie ??????? LMAO

The sweater is from LRG, art of hustling - shaken not stirred collection....but yeah the fact that she's an escort keeps that wall up.....

[PomonaCA]

Gentlemen,

I do believe that these events warrant that we summon THE BAW BUNNY!


http://www.bossarea.com/forum/uploaded/TouchWah/baw%21.JPG

[amberskyi]

a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.until i meet a man thats willing to change his world for me,im not changing mine

[FreddieGomez]

a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.until i meet a man thats willing to change his world for me,im not changing mine

Change for YU how?

[IMISSHER]

thanks for the compassion.

[lisaparadise]

no trannie is worth crying over....smhdont worry my little gay friend its never too late to admit your gay and come out of the closet.

[Ryz]

Been in this same situation. Just move on bud, it's not worth it

[amberskyi]

Change for YU how?

well for example my last ex and i broke up because he wanted me to stop escorting but after a year he still wasnt ready for me to meet his family.

[FreddieGomez]

dont worry my little gay friend its never too late to admit your gay and come out of the closet.

you waited until you were 45 to become a trannie....who u callin gay? smh

[PomonaCA]

you waited until you were 45 to become a trannie....who u callin gay? Smh

ouch!!!!! Omg

[lisaparadise]

well for example my last ex and i broke up because he wanted me to stop escorting but after a year he still wasnt ready for me to meet his family.and do you really think a clown like freddie would be any different?

[Ryz]

well for example my last ex and i broke up because he wanted me to stop escorting but after a year he still wasnt ready for me to meet his family.

Not many guys want to bring an escort home to meet the folks. >.>

[lisaparadise]

you waited until you were 45 to become a trannie....who u callin gay? smhim callin you gay freddie now get the cock outta your ass and pay attention.

[FreddieGomez]

well for example my last ex and i broke up because he wanted me to stop escorting but after a year he still wasnt ready for me to meet his family.

what can u do? blame it on society for making it harder on the men who are attracted to you....ya'll dont understand we get discriminated against too...u can be passable but once word gets out everybody thinks you're gay(even tho we aint) and bein gay has a negative stigma attached to it....plus i dont know what to do anyway since i still like gg's too.....it's not easy for me at all....

[lisaparadise]

Not many guys want to bring an escort home to meet the folks. >.>ya well my last 3 boyfriends did so like always your full of shit.

[Ryz]

you waited until you were 45 to become a trannie....who u callin gay? smh

http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcR9dfvTOCpbs0COMS9Ygs3EfYwYaDeUG HoqN3ja01wAVlnHuXH9Dw&t=1

[amberskyi]

and do you really think a clown like freddie would be any different?

um...im talking about my ex,not freddie.we're just having a discussion lol

[Ryz]

ya well my last 3 boyfriends did so like always your full of shit.

Well that's just fantastic boo

[FreddieGomez]

im callin you gay freddie now get the cock outta your ass and pay attention.

well i dont like dudes so try coming at me with something more original...u trannies get mad that u aint my type always call me a fag like it's supposed to hurt my feelings....maybe if i was gay i'd be attracted to u...!

[lisaparadise]

um...im talking about my ex,not freddie.we're just having a discussion lolwell it seems like both freddie and ryz are lovers and there both getting all faggatty.all bitching and fighting over who gets to be the bottom tonight.

[FreddieGomez]

well it seems like both freddie and ryz are lovers and there both getting all faggatty.all bitching and fighting over who gets to be the bottom tonight.

you're a bitter 50 year old trannie who waited until u were 45 to become a woman and you jus jealous no black dudes want you

[lisaparadise]

well i dont like dudes so try coming at me with something more original...u trannies get mad that u aint my type always call me a fag like it's supposed to hurt my feelings....maybe if i was gay i'd be attracted to u...!who are you trying to convince?the sweater speaks for itself.

[lisaparadise]

you're a bitter 50 year old trannie who waited until u were 45 to become a woman and you jus jealous no black dudes want youoh trust me there are plenty of black guys that rent me so no worries there fagboy.

[Ryz]

well it seems like both freddie and ryz are lovers and there both getting all faggatty.all bitching and fighting over who gets to be the bottom tonight.

Do you even know the difference between they're, their, and there? Your post are hilarious to read, bawahha

[lisaparadise]

ouch!!!!! Omgouch? you got a problem with that fagboy?

[FreddieGomez]

Do you even know the difference between they're, their, and there? Your post are hilarious to read, bawahha

yeah but she got a college degree remember? bwahahahaha....i

[amberskyi]

what can u do? blame it on society for making it harder on the men who are attracted to you....ya'll dont understand we get discriminated against too...u can be passable but once word gets out everybody thinks you're gay(even tho we aint) and bein gay has a negative stigma attached to it....plus i dont know what to do anyway since i still like gg's too.....it's not easy for me at all....

after him i realized that im no longer willing make excuses for men and their insecurities.im working really damn hard to be the woman i have to be.i have endured physical,emotional and mental pain to be where i am now and will endure more.if a man cant except me and treat me as anything other than a woman than he can kick rocks.i just wont accept anything else anymore.
my outlook is show me that your a man and i will play my position and be his woman (even if it means having to find a job).

[lisaparadise]

Do you even know the difference between they're, their, and there? Your post are hilarious to read, bawahhai feel sorry for amber you know getting involved with to queers kinda feelin left out so i found this for the 3 of you.YouTube - Mary MacGregor - Torn Between Two Lovers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1F5BLLFAeM)

[onmyknees]

The sweater is from LRG, art of hustling - shaken not stirred collection....but yeah the fact that she's an escort keeps that wall up.....


http://www.sears.com/shc/s/p_10153_12605_016B1783000P?sid=IDx20070921x00003c&srccode=cii_10043468&cpncode=22-98594571-2

[PomonaCA]

ouch? you got a problem with that fagboy?


A problem with what?

[Ryz]

yeah but she got a college degree remember? bwahahahaha....i
Maybe she has some sort of disability :shrug

after him i realized that im no longer willing make excuses for men and their insecurities.im working really damn hard to be the woman i have to be.i have endured physical,emotional and mental pain to be where i am now and will endure more.if a man cant except me and treat me as anything other than a woman than he can kick rocks.i just wont accept anything else anymore.
my outlook is show me that your a man and i will play my position and be his woman (even if it mean having to find a job).

Well, would you be okay if your man was having sex with alot of different women?

[lisaparadise]

http://www.sears.com/shc/s/p_10153_12605_016B1783000P?sid=IDx20070921x00003c&srccode=cii_10043468&cpncode=22-98594571-2hmmm 37 bucks must have been a bitch trying to save that much money on his paper route .

[lisaparadise]

A problem with what?what are you an idiot?

[FreddieGomez]

after him i realized that im no longer willing make excuses for men and their insecurities.im working really damn hard to be the woman i have to be.i have endured physical,emotional and mental pain to be where i am now and will endure more.if a man cant except me and treat me as anything other than a woman than he can kick rocks.i just wont accept anything else anymore.
my outlook is show me that your a man and i will play my position and be his woman (even if it mean having to find a job).

all i can say is do u....i dont think there are many dudes out there willing to wife up a trannie and would proudly take her home to meet his family...not sayin it aint possible, but it seems very rare wit most of them men ya'll are attracted to i doubt it...i'm jus sayin....

[amberskyi]

Maybe she has some sort of disability :shrug


Well, would you be okay if your man was having sex with alot of different women?

dude what does that have to do with what i wrote or even with what me and gomez are talking about??

[FreddieGomez]

http://www.sears.com/shc/s/p_10153_12605_016B1783000P?sid=IDx20070921x00003c&srccode=cii_10043468&cpncode=22-98594571-2

you're a comical dude huh?

[Ryz]

all i can say is do u....i dont think there are many dudes out there willing to wife up a trannie and would proudly take her home to meet his family...not sayin it aint possible, but it seems very rare wit most of them men ya'll are attracted to i doubt it...i'm jus sayin....

My mother knew my ex is trans. Made things really awkward for a while

[FreddieGomez]

Maybe she has some sort of disability :shrug




her spell check is broken...but on the real.. a chick who cant spell is a turn off....let alone a 50 year old one....

[lisaparadise]

her spell check is broken...but on the real.. a chick who cant spell is a turn off....let alone a 50 year old one....typical answer from the gay section,how tragic

[FreddieGomez]

My mother knew my ex is trans. Made things really awkward for a while

i know my mom would be ok wit it since her brother is gay, he's my godfather....but i worry about my son's mama findin out, she'd slander me to him and tell everybody as revenge....plus she'd try to keep him from me....

[amberskyi]

all i can say is do u....i dont think there are many dudes out there willing to wife up a trannie and would proudly take her home to meet his family...not sayin it aint possible, but it seems very rare wit most of them men ya'll are attracted to i doubt it...i'm jus sayin....

than id be getting this money forever lol...j/k...but naw theyre out there.i was dating a guy casually a few months ago and i met his boss and father no problem.unfortunately he was into me more than i was into him.not everyone is a coward.

[FreddieGomez]

another one bites the dust, i'm lovin this ignore feature...what's wit these older classless miserable trannies ? damn, act your age...shit....ya'll say ya'll women but u aint actin like one...and the hypocrisy is hilarious...callin me a fag but u got a dick and u fuck men too....smh

[lisaparadise]

another one bites the dust, i'm lovin this ignore feature...what's wit these older classless miserable trannies ? damn, act your age...shit....ya'll say ya'll women but u aint actin like one...and the hypocrisy is hilarious...callin me a fag but u got a dick and u fuck men too....smhim a bottom damn it

[nonnonnon]

you got that nice European guy, right?

[Ryz]

i know my mom would be ok wit it since her brother is gay, he's my godfather....but i worry about my son's mama findin out, she'd slander me to him and tell everybody as revenge....plus she'd try to keep him from me....

There's always gonna be a negative side to it; people judging you, and looking down on you. Not worth it for any typical tranny. But there are some out there worth bringing home ***bridget***

[Ryz]

dude what does that have to do with what i wrote or even with what me and gomez are talking about??

I'm just wondering. What if he was a stripper or also an escort. Would you be okay with it?

[FreddieGomez]

There's always gonna be a negative side to it; people judging you, and looking down on you. Not worth it for any typical tranny. But there are some out there worth bringing home ***bridget***

she lookin for a sugardadday tho....

[Ryz]

she lookin for a sugardadday tho....

She's probably kidding. She actually goes to school, and works. Sounds like a keeper to me :shrug

[amberskyi]

I'm just wondering. What if he was a stripper or also an escort. Would you be okay with it?

depends on how he handles his business..if he was professional and knew how to separate that aspect of his life from his personal life than yea.

[tslvr]

Why does every serious topic here have to veer from the serious issue at hand and head straight towards a fight about who's a fag and who's gay, blah, blah, blah.

[Ryz]

depends on how he handles his business..if he was professional and knew how to separate that aspect of his life from his personal life than yea.

I bet you're just saying that ;)

[amberskyi]

I bet you're just saying that ;)

you are more than welcome to make assumptions about me,a complete stranger lol

[IMISSHER]

i thought this thread had a chance of staying serious. oh well. more info, i did introduce her to my family and woul shave married her in a minute. bought the ring. the night i was to propose, she didnt know i was going to, she canceled our dinner date for a client. so please dont tell me just because she was t/g that would have made any difference. i wanted her to be my wife period. to love and everything that came with it, that night changes a lot. put the ring away and started to move on. maybe im old fashion, but i believe in love, marriage and to be 1-1 forever. thru bad or good. she was my girl and i was suppose to take care of her and support her in everyway. what man that felt like i did would stand by and let her fuck and be fucked for money, then come home to me? its simply insane.

[IMISSHER]

sorry about the spelling, a lot of feelings are coming back.

[AlternateName]

sorry about the spelling, a lot of feelings are coming back.

well, it is around Valentines day so,

[pointblack]

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[innocentbychoice]

well i dont like dudes so try coming at me with something more original...u trannies get mad that u aint my type always call me a fag like it's supposed to hurt my feelings....maybe if i was gay i'd be attracted to u...!


who are you trying to convince?the sweater speaks for itself.

OMFG LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!! I think I'm gettin you now Lisa. And you're freaking funny.

[innocentbychoice]

i thought this thread had a chance of staying serious. oh well. more info, i did introduce her to my family and woul shave married her in a minute. bought the ring. the night i was to propose, she didnt know i was going to, she canceled our dinner date for a client. so please dont tell me just because she was t/g that would have made any difference. i wanted her to be my wife period. to love and everything that came with it, that night changes a lot. put the ring away and started to move on. maybe im old fashion, but i believe in love, marriage and to be 1-1 forever. thru bad or good. she was my girl and i was suppose to take care of her and support her in everyway. what man that felt like i did would stand by and let her fuck and be fucked for money, then come home to me? its simply insane.

I hope I don't offend you but this sounds so corny, it's almost like it isn't true.

In any case, to keep it simple shit happens. And no matter how many times you've heard this, it is true, TIME WILL HEAL YOU.

[Jackal]

Nothing wrong with falling in love with a transgender woman, that is a great thing BUT this particular lady does not reciprocate your feelings. You deserve a woman who cares for you...move on

[PomonaCA]

what are you an idiot?


A problem with what?

[scroller]

I feel like I've read this whole thing before. Was it copied from someplace?

[phobun]

I figured this board would be the best possible site to tell my story. Dont care whos interested but writing it will be cathartic for me. also maybe someone will gain some insight from it.

Was in a club 3 years ago when across the room i locked eyes with someone that caused me to feel faint. this is know bs. before i know it i have her against the wall kissing her over and over. i stop and realize what im doing and shes says who r u? i am so overwhelmed i leave the club. the next day and the next i cant stop thinking about her. so 2 days later i go to another club that is open hoping she might show up. ten mins later she walks thru the door and sees me and smiles. we spent the next 6 hours kissing and talking. now understand i think i am kissing a girl. she says there is something u need to know. i find out and she begins to cry very hard. at that point my heart melt and i didnt care if she had 3 dicks, i was falling hard. i have never kissed anything but a girl in my entire life. im 35 at this point. so after we both calm down i hold her till the morning and bring her home. she seemed very upset that i didnt want to come in and make love. i explained that i wasnt ready and wanted to take one step at a time. next day we called each other and the happiest 4 months of my life began.

The summer months went by and we were slowly becoming a couple. didnt care if she was t/g. i was so in love i didnt care. her schedule seemed quite strange and it was hard for us to be together, thought she worked at a restaurant. didnt even occur to me that she might be anything then she was. she met some of my friends and one day i was sent a link on the net from a buddy and he said be prepared. there she was on eros. i was in shock and after reading the ad i became physically sick. never been with an escort in my life and seeing the woman u love explaining what she does for money in a way that left no doubt, my world crumbled.

over the next 2 1/2 years i experienced every emotion you can imagine. i could not stop loving her. heard her having sex with a john, saw the used condoms in the garbage, bailed her out of jail, held her why she cried so hard that she passed out and thru all of it she was the person i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with, i just knew it. i have never loved another human being in my life as i loved her.

after more time passed and we were spending more and more time apart due to her job, the sadness that would envelop me was unbearable. sex became non-ext due to fear of stds. everytime i would leave her i would feel so empty that i couldnt bear it. we would get back together and try again, and the same things would just happen again and again. i could not understand why she would continue with this when she had a future with me.

i have since moved on but miss her so much. i knew that if i stayed it would end only in a way that we would both be damaged forever. i read constantly that escort relationships can exist. when u love another human being in a way that it seem preordained sharing is not possible. the pain that it causes knowing she is with someone else is maddening. i am getting better but there still a part of me that will never be whole again. she calls evrey 2 weeks like clockwork and cries and says she cant stop she is addicted to the money and lifestyle. but she misses me so and wants to try again.

i mean this, be careful if this happening to you. if u are not use to this world you will see and feel things that u will not be able to get out of your head. i recently saw her at a restaurant and we talked for an hour. shes had multiple surgeries and doesnt even look like my baby that i fell in love with. says she makes a lot of money and would i consider living with her. i wouldnt have to work. i said, your pimp?, she said in a way. then she said chris are u gonna cry? i said no baby just sad. then she said, chris i cant even cry anymore, and when i think of you i cant work, so i try not to anymore. then she got up and left, then stopped and looked back at me and said i cant stop loving u, and u know what i can either no matter how hard i tried. i just wish like her i could just stop the tears, esp.when i close my eyes at night and think of what might have been.


thank you for listening to anyone who reads this. and please pray for her that nothing bad ever happens to her, Chris, story took place in LA, and this was a true story. thanks again


I miss her so fucking much, i can still smell her when she would sleep in my arms. why wont it stop?


Dude, you have issues a porn board isn't going to help you with.
You need to see a psychologist.

[dderek123]

Oy the melodrama. Move on pal.

[Prospero]

Phobun is right. Seek some professional help. Posting to this board is not useful to you - having read some of the stupid remarks here. I suggest that one of the only ways to get over a broken heart like this is to break off contact with this girl. In my view the fact she is transgendered is the least important part of the issue. The fact she is addicted to her lifestyle and cannot and would not give that up for a proper and sustaining relationship is the key thing. Give yourself a break. Change your number. Stop seeing her and seek some therapy.

[arnie666]

I figured this board would be the best possible site to tell my story. Dont care whos interested but writing it will be cathartic for me. also maybe someone will gain some insight from it.

Was in a club 3 years ago when across the room i locked eyes with someone that caused me to feel faint. this is know bs. before i know it i have her against the wall kissing her over and over. i stop and realize what im doing and shes says who r u? i am so overwhelmed i leave the club. the next day and the next i cant stop thinking about her. so 2 days later i go to another club that is open hoping she might show up. ten mins later she walks thru the door and sees me and smiles. we spent the next 6 hours kissing and talking. now understand i think i am kissing a girl. she says there is something u need to know. i find out and she begins to cry very hard. at that point my heart melt and i didnt care if she had 3 dicks, i was falling hard. i have never kissed anything but a girl in my entire life. im 35 at this point. so after we both calm down i hold her till the morning and bring her home. she seemed very upset that i didnt want to come in and make love. i explained that i wasnt ready and wanted to take one step at a time. next day we called each other and the happiest 4 months of my life began.

The summer months went by and we were slowly becoming a couple. didnt care if she was t/g. i was so in love i didnt care. her schedule seemed quite strange and it was hard for us to be together, thought she worked at a restaurant. didnt even occur to me that she might be anything then she was. she met some of my friends and one day i was sent a link on the net from a buddy and he said be prepared. there she was on eros. i was in shock and after reading the ad i became physically sick. never been with an escort in my life and seeing the woman u love explaining what she does for money in a way that left no doubt, my world crumbled.

over the next 2 1/2 years i experienced every emotion you can imagine. i could not stop loving her. heard her having sex with a john, saw the used condoms in the garbage, bailed her out of jail, held her why she cried so hard that she passed out and thru all of it she was the person i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with, i just knew it. i have never loved another human being in my life as i loved her.

after more time passed and we were spending more and more time apart due to her job, the sadness that would envelop me was unbearable. sex became non-ext due to fear of stds. everytime i would leave her i would feel so empty that i couldnt bear it. we would get back together and try again, and the same things would just happen again and again. i could not understand why she would continue with this when she had a future with me.

i have since moved on but miss her so much. i knew that if i stayed it would end only in a way that we would both be damaged forever. i read constantly that escort relationships can exist. when u love another human being in a way that it seem preordained sharing is not possible. the pain that it causes knowing she is with someone else is maddening. i am getting better but there still a part of me that will never be whole again. she calls evrey 2 weeks like clockwork and cries and says she cant stop she is addicted to the money and lifestyle. but she misses me so and wants to try again.

i mean this, be careful if this happening to you. if u are not use to this world you will see and feel things that u will not be able to get out of your head. i recently saw her at a restaurant and we talked for an hour. shes had multiple surgeries and doesnt even look like my baby that i fell in love with. says she makes a lot of money and would i consider living with her. i wouldnt have to work. i said, your pimp?, she said in a way. then she said chris are u gonna cry? i said no baby just sad. then she said, chris i cant even cry anymore, and when i think of you i cant work, so i try not to anymore. then she got up and left, then stopped and looked back at me and said i cant stop loving u, and u know what i can either no matter how hard i tried. i just wish like her i could just stop the tears, esp.when i close my eyes at night and think of what might have been.


thank you for listening to anyone who reads this. and please pray for her that nothing bad ever happens to her, Chris, story took place in LA, and this was a true story. thanks again


I miss her so fucking much, i can still smell her when she would sleep in my arms. why wont it stop?


Man up you big poofter. How does it feel to taste other men in your girls mouth? No man would put up with that . Once a whore always a whore, and whores lie.

[dderek123]

Arnie has a point. Escorts are experts at pushing the right buttons and so she can keep orchestrating your misery (and collecting what she wants) as long as she feels like. That is a pretty big judgment but I see it everyday over here in Thailand.

Just move on. Getting help is a good option too.

PS: The OP was way too melodramatic and sounds like it was from some sort of romance novel. BS?

[moonman]

the whole fact that most trannies escort make me keep a wall up and not catch feelings....i couldnt fall for somebody who sleeps with other dudes, even if it is only for money...i wouldnt date a real chick who escorts either...fuck outta here....
CO-SIGN!!!:iagree::iagree::iagree:

[lisaparadise]

CO-SIGN!!!:iagree::iagree::iagree:blacks are totally not mentaly tough enough to handle being with a tgirl period and thats exactly why all the white and latino men get the girls.

[putinyou]

lisaparadise is an old back alley tranny who has to be on oxygen machine to just bat off. why does race always have to come up with you. are you just mad that you are the real fagboy.also that black men wont touch you in your old state. lisaparadise i want to piss on you i am talking about that good piss. you have been waiting an hour to piss piss.i also want to rape you.just so you can shut up. i think she need to get some dick in her and she will start to chill out or she trys to fight the need to fuck something in the ass so hard that she lashes out at ppl.

i need to fuck boy aahahah, but no i not gay.i need to stop being old, no i am not old. fuck everyone there gay. no i cant let nobody no i am a nursing home tranny.

[FreddieGomez]

blacks are totally not mentaly tough enough to handle being with a tgirl period and thats exactly why all the white and latino men get the girls.

it got nothing to do wit yu bein a trannie, i wouldnt date a real chick who's an escort either....i doubt ya'll would date a dude who was an escort either so stop the nonsense.....

[lisaparadise]

lisaparadise is an old back alley tranny who has to be on oxygen machine to just bat off. why does race always have to come up with you. are you just mad that you are the real fagboy.also that black men wont touch you in your old state. lisaparadise i want to piss on you i am talking about that good piss. you have been waiting an hour to piss piss.i also want to rape you.just so you can shut up. i think she need to get some dick in her and she will start to chill out or she trys to fight the need to fuck something in the ass so hard that she lashes out at ppl.

i need to fuck boy aahahah, but no i not gay.i need to stop being old, no i am not old. fuck everyone there gay. no i cant let nobody no i am a nursing home tranny.roflmfao,straight from the cum suckers mouth how rich is that"

[lisaparadise]

it got nothing to do wit yu bein a trannie, i wouldnt date a real chick who's an escort either....i doubt ya'll would date a dude who was an escort either so stop the nonsense.....ok so would you have the balls to tell your family and friends your dating a non escort ts?

[BellaBellucci]

I see a whole LOT of generalizing here. Not every 'tranny' is an escort, not every one is obsessed with money, and certainly, not everyone that gets into the escort business makes it a point to manipulate men, unless they're clients, and then sometimes not even then. Some of us are just in the business because we like the freedom that goes with being our own bosses. We like travel, upscale surroundings, and the same companionship that we're actually being paid to provide, and some of us still just like to profit from sex because we feel it's a means to economic equality in a world that would see us so one-dimensionally. Personally, I love everything about my industry except the way a lot of people see it, and that means both girls and clients.

~BB~

[Ryz]

blacks are totally not mentaly tough enough to handle being with a tgirl period and thats exactly why all the white and latino men get the girls.

I have dated a tgirl, and my fam knew about it. So much for that theory of yours

[lisaparadise]

I have dated a tgirl, and my fam knew about it. So much for that theory of yoursoh what about your friends? i thought so

[Ryz]

oh what about your friends? i thought so

Yup some friends know too :wiggle:

[yodajazz]

Phobun is right. Seek some professional help. Posting to this board is not useful to you - having read some of the stupid remarks here. I suggest that one of the only ways to get over a broken heart like this is to break off contact with this girl. In my view the fact she is transgendered is the least important part of the issue. The fact she is addicted to her lifestyle and cannot and would not give that up for a proper and sustaining relationship is the key thing. Give yourself a break. Change your number. Stop seeing her and seek some therapy.

I agree with this post.

Very few men could deal with their woman being an escort, or even one who had slept around with other men, you know. Not only was it not honest to share that with you, she has continued for years. I dont know if I'm strong enough myself, but I know that there are plenty of women out there, who would be with you, and they would not have to give up what they're doing, because its legitimate stuff. Let her go, put yourself first.