SirSmokeALot
12-06-2010, 09:36 AM
Now I know some people on here think that I'm a fake for posting my review of a lovely lady the other day, but I'm a real dude, just really came across this site the other day. But I have to ask the ladies and some of the vets on here for some advice. I'm a man who recently came to grips with my sexuality, but I haven't officially came out. However, since everything nowadays comes down to labels. I would consider myself a bisexual male. See, I was outed, basically video taped, unbeknownst to me, from a TS who set me up. I had to be with a TS several times (not the same one, but escorts obviously) to see if this is where I wanted to go with my life, but things got really out of hand quickly. Within a few days my life was completely ruined. Everywhere I went in this town, people knew me, they were laughing, calling me all kind of names. When it initially happened, I didn't deny it, but rather apologized for it. I felt ashamed, because my so called close friends and family, saw it as being dishonest, like I was lying about something, when it actuality I never lied about anything, rather kept those thoughts to myself, BIG DIFFERENCE. Its been four years since then and my life has just stopped. I refuse to commit suicide, because that essentially would give the people who outed me a victory. Also, I brought this on myself, no way did I deserve to be outed the way I was, but I brought it on myself. But with what I have going on, I like females (would like to have a few kids someday) TS' and really fem guys. Like the thought of a regular ass dude like myself, is just.....sick...But I know that TS' like guys who are not interested in their boy parts, but I am, as well some tight vajayjay.Does that make me weird? Like my ultimate fantasy is to be with a female and TS' at the same time. Does that make me weird? Am I a complete disgrace to the entire LGBT commnunity? Should I be given a second chance to reclaim my life?....I dont know, please help....Thank you for your time and consideration.