Watch my YouTube video!!!!

[blonde_sweetheart]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

[Fox]

Very nice. :)

[TsJennifer]

great video! Lots of potential!

[Legend]

Awesome

[blonde_sweetheart]

Wow thank you both! Jennifer you are soo beautiful I'm a little intimidated =))

[muhmuh]

that barney (?) suit pic is hilarious

[rockabilly]

Beautiful ;)

[2009AD]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

Very pretty.

[blonde_sweetheart]

that barney (?) suit pic is hilarious

haha i know right!!! i loved my barney..my dad got me a barney plush toy that i wanted sooo bad the first time i peed in the toilet =)) LOL

[Distance]

Potential? The person here is a human being with a lot of will and courage, not a superficial product. :roll:


Carry on Miss, and live the life you want to. You seem to have endured a lot so far, with a really cool smile. Keep it up. :)

[Legend]

Potential? The person here is a human being with a lot of will and courage, not a superficial product. :roll

You're kidding right?

[ed_jaxon]

wow

great vid little lady

[dgs925]

nice, now listen closely: DON'T DO PORN

[Distance]

Potential? The person here is a human being with a lot of will and courage, not a superficial product. :roll

You're kidding right?

:roll:

[xuto]

10

[blonde_sweetheart]

Thanks for the responses =)))

[TsJennifer]

Wow thank you both! Jennifer you are soo beautiful I'm a little intimidated =))

Thanks girl. No need to be intimidated, be inspired!

Jennifer

[Legend]

Potential? The person here is a human being with a lot of will and courage, not a superficial product. :roll

You're kidding right?

:roll:

Way to twist someones encouraging words around for blatant ass kissing.

[shemale-411]

Great video, only thing I would change is instead of "THe End" it might say "to be continued" .
My best friend is a gorgeous post-op, and one of the things she is always saying is the next generation of girls is going to look like theye were born into it, I think you would confirm that!

[Solitary Brother]

The key thing is you started EARLY.
When you start early you generally get good results.
Plus it looks like you have a good support system.
When people start their transition late they can almost guarantee being non passable.

[EyeCumInPiece]

Youve come a long way. Very awesome. You look great.

[Disorder2007]

niceee! :D great body too!

[rameses2]

I don't know, for a fact but, it seems as though you had the good fortune to have support system to help you through your transition. All of your photos have happy, fun people in them. I hope that the rest of your life is as happy as this phase of it looks. BTW, the 96' date stamp on one of your early pics only served to remind me that I am as old as dirt :roll:

[blonde_sweetheart]

thats very true...I have amazing parents..a sister who is beyond great and accepting friends!!! I mean,Id like a boyfriend but I guess you cant have it all LOL!! All in all I have aloooot to be thankful for!! =))

[yodajazz]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

I have the greatest respect for you being able to acknowledge your past. It helped make you into the beauty you are today. That beauty is more than physical beauty. Those pictures also show you have support from friends and family. That is something that is more valuable than money. I would not be suprised to see many more good thngs from you. Thanks for sharing.

BTW, the 96' date stamp on one of your early pics only served to remind me that I am as old as dirt :roll:

Rameses2, you're a still a kid. I'm older than dirt. Dirt was invented when I was in high school.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

I have the greatest respect for you being able to acknowledge your past. It helped make you into the beauty you are today. That beauty is more than physical beauty. Those pictures also show you have support from friends and family. That is something that is more valuable than money. I would not be suprised to see many more good thngs from you. Thanks for sharing.

Aww thank you!!! I used to hide from the past but now I think Im embracing it...I dont have to be a stealth post-op to be happy =))) Although I would like to not be broke anymore haha!!

[Ryz]

nice video, you have gotten really beautiful

[El Nino]

u are smokin baby

[timebomb]

First of all your are extremely attractive and second, I have a feeling you are going to be getting alot of attention around here. And when I say attention I mean everyone is going to go crazy (crazy in a good way :lol:) over you!

[blonde_sweetheart]

First of all your are extremely attractive and second, I have a feeling you are going to be getting alot of attention around here. And when I say attention I mean everyone is going to go crazy (crazy in a good way :lol:) over you!

haha ive been here for a while...i wouldnt say ive gotten too much attention LOL!! =)))

[timebomb]

I think that's all about to change :-) Did you just graduate high school?

[rockabilly]

Having a supportive family is great. A boyfriend will come in time ... be patient . ;)

[JamesHunt]

thats a sweet vid 8)

[daleach]

Thanks for sharing, that was cool.

[gotchagood]

LOL!! To me, you were hotter than the gg's in the "school" pictures!! No wonder I keep coming back here.

You're a doll, loved the vid.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I graduated this year class of 09 lol =))))

[Solitary Brother]

thats very true...I have amazing parents..a sister who is beyond great and accepting friends!!! I mean,Id like a boyfriend but I guess you cant have it all LOL!! All in all I have aloooot to be thankful for!! =))





"I mean,Id like a boyfriend but I guess you cant have it all LOL!"


Oh shit why did you have to say that?
Now all these thirsty guys are going to be bothering you.
Good luck with that.

[blonde_sweetheart]

thats very true...I have amazing parents..a sister who is beyond great and accepting friends!!! I mean,Id like a boyfriend but I guess you cant have it all LOL!! All in all I have aloooot to be thankful for!! =))





"I mean,Id like a boyfriend but I guess you cant have it all LOL!"


Oh shit why did you have to say that?
Now all these thirsty guys are going to be bothering you.
Good luck with that.

haha..well ive never had a boyfriend!! its somethin i would like im gonna be honest :)) lol

[muhmuh]

I have the greatest respect for you being able to acknowledge your past.

it was rather unexpected to see so many pre transition pics

so kudos to you for being confident about your past self


BTW, the 96' date stamp on one of your early pics only served to remind me that I am as old as dirt :roll:

feels a bit weird complimenting a girl who presumably was underage in most of those pics doesnt it? particularly on this forum
no matter how appropriate a compliment would be in all its inappropriateness

[phobun]

What are your plans regarding SRS?

[timebomb]

Oh shit why did you have to say that?
Now all these thirsty guys are going to be bothering you.
Good luck with that.

Dude that comment made me laugh out loud. A friend of mine usually cracks me up by saying dudes who haven't got it in a while will come on to girls like vampires. He calls it the "thirst". It reminded me of that when I saw that line.


blonde sweetheart - whats the plans after finishing HS?

[blonde_sweetheart]

I dont really know yet...I do want to go to medical school though! Its been my dream for a while =)) As far as SRS...at this point I dont want it.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Maybe some shemaleyum is in my future?....couldnt say =))

[timebomb]

Well that is definitely a very big goal, best of luck! no plans for a certain college or university in the mean time?

[rameses2]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

BTW, the 96' date stamp on one of your early pics only served to remind me that I am as old as dirt :roll:

Rameses2, you're a still a kid. I'm older than dirt. Dirt was invented when I was in high school.yodajazz, I'm more than TWICE sweethearts age, but thanks for the compliment :wink:

[phobun]

Maybe some shemaleyum is in my future?....couldnt say =))

Might modeling on a porn site keep you from getting admitted to a medical school or other professional school?

[blonde_sweetheart]

Maybe some shemaleyum is in my future?....couldnt say =))

Might modeling on a porn site keep you from getting admitted to a medical school or other professional school?


Maybe....thats true but maybe they wont find out ;)

[phobun]

Maybe some shemaleyum is in my future?....couldnt say =))

Might modeling on a porn site keep you from getting admitted to a medical school or other professional school?


Maybe....thats true but maybe they wont find out ;)

Yeah right.

“It's no good being nice and young and naive. There's no good in that at all. You've got to do it all yourself, and you've gotta learn quick. And you can't look for sympathy either.” -- Johnny Rotten

[badboy69]

wow you are a natural beauty.

[alyssats]

wow nice video, youre blossoming to be a beautiful woman

kudos!

[transmaven]

You're a hidden treasure of HA, kiddo! I always enjoy seeing your posts and your sweet smile. Love the Jodeci song on your myspace, as well, you have good taste. ;)

You'll find the boyfriend one day soon. Believe me.-- :)

[Chuck]

Clearly you have the love and support of your family. Everyone should be so blessed. Thanks for sharing those wonderful photos.

And by the way...no shemaleyum in your future. It may seem cool now but picture yourself doing your residency in about 10 to 12 years. The worldwide web does not have an expiration date. As dysfunctional as we characters can be on this board I guarantee that we all wish you the best. While many of us tend to encourage young girls such as yourself to exploit yourself to our personal delight I think even the worst of us are encouraged by you and what you have shared with us.

[Quiet Reflections]

You are just to damn beautiful!! Stick with you schooling and I'm sure you can achieve all your goals

[Distance]

Wow thank you both! Jennifer you are soo beautiful I'm a little intimidated =))

Thanks girl. No need to be intimidated, be inspired!

Jennifer

I don't 'kiss ass' or 'suck ass' or anything close to it, for that matter. You are obviously a specialist, and I shall leave you to it. :roll:

[vman2375]

Thanks for the responses =)))LUV U ASHLEY!!!

[TheGuard]

You've come a long way m'dear. It's nice to see someone who is transitioning so successfully. Keep on keepin' on kiddo.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Aww all of you are so sweet =)) Your responses made me smile LoL.Anyone have any suggestions for what I should do for my next video??

[timebomb]

Aww all of you are so sweet =)) Your responses made me smile LoL.Anyone have any suggestions for what I should do for my next video??

I would really like to see "a day in the life of..." show us around, your room, tell us a bit about yourself. Let HA get to know you!

[blonde_sweetheart]

Aww all of you are so sweet =)) Your responses made me smile LoL.Anyone have any suggestions for what I should do for my next video??

I would really like to see "a day in the life of..." show us around, your room, tell us a bit about yourself. Let HA get to know you.

that is such a greaaaaat ideaa!!! wow i love it...im gonna do that!! :)))))

[rockabilly]

I love your new avatar and those cute pouty lips. :)

[blonde_sweetheart]

I love your new avatar and those cute pouty lips. :)

Thanks!!! No "duck lips" for me LoL =))

[rockabilly]

Your a beautiful young lady ;)

[Quiet Reflections]

Aww all of you are so sweet =)) Your responses made me smile LoL.Anyone have any suggestions for what I should do for my next video??
since i know I'm not the only one thinking it I'm gonna say ME! And since i know that wont happen id like to see a video of you Grilling a Steak in a bikini. I'm just playing i really have no good ideas that could go on you tube but i will watch whatever you put up there

[Quiet Reflections]

Your a beautiful young lady ;)beautiful and all natural

[rockabilly]

Do you play video games ? Movie reviews maybe.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I do play video games!!! I've always loved them...yes I'm a dork I know but a cute one! hehe =)) I used to have a PS2 and I have tonssss of games...but now I have a 360...the only game I currently have is GTA 4 but it got scratched so i cant play it =(( Im sort of broke so i havent gotten any new games.



Your a beautiful young lady ;)beautiful and all natural

YES.No plastic surgeries for me! I'm all about the natural look...although I would like so nice D-cups lol...someday hopefully.
And next time my mom cooks on the grill I'll throw on my bikini and take over!! haha =))

[rickster128]

you should give a quick sexy video on xtube?

[blonde_sweetheart]

I actually used to have an xtube!! haha but I dont have one right now...Ill probably get one tho!

[rockabilly]

A gamer too !! You are the perfect woman! I reccomend Bioshock and Fallout 3 for your 360 ( i love those games ) and pick up GTA4 dlc , it's being put on a disc for retail you get the lost and the damned and the new dlc the ballad of gay Tony for i think $40 or less.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I looooove shooting games!! I hope thats what those are cause ill check them out for sure!! Also I love cars so any racing games you recommend?

[rockabilly]

Try the Forza series if you like sim racing and for arcade go w/ Need for Speed ... imo NFS most wanted was the best and it's like $20 now. Yes the games i recomended are shootes w/ light rpg elements. Wow we have alot in common. :)

[rameses2]

I looooove shooting games!! I hope thats what those are cause ill check them out for sure!! Also I love cars so any racing games you recommend?You could, also, check out Burnout Paradise. It's arcade-y driving where ramming and crashing is encouraged! They also have alot of free DLC (like motorcycles ) and online play. Maybe there's a demo you could download?

[rickinoc]

drop dead gorgeous!!!!!

[timebomb]

Watched your other video. I had a smile on my face when I heard my idea out there. Nice to see such a great, and positive response to your video!

[Quiet Reflections]

your voice is great and I cant believe you don't have a man trying to give you the world. How do the men of your city let you walk around without trying to snatch you up.

[barefootjoe69]

blonde_sweetheart, I thought your video was Great!
You transitioned into a very beautiful young woman.

[MrsKellyPierce]

Lovely video honey! If you can stay out of the adult industry I would. :)

[Legend]

Wow thank you both! Jennifer you are soo beautiful I'm a little intimidated =))

Thanks girl. No need to be intimidated, be inspired!

Jennifer

I don't 'kiss ass' or 'suck ass' or anything close to it, for that matter. You are obviously a specialist, and I shall leave you to it. :roll:

Dude why are you trying to go at her, do you honestly want her attention that bad, i'm the guy who called you a ass kisser not her she is only trying to give the op some encouragement.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Lovely video honey! If you can stay out of the adult industry I would. :)


Thanks Kelly! You are beautiful and you inspire me!! When my friends and I watched Maury they literally thought you were the most gorgeous one there!!


But anyways yesterday I tried starting my "day in the life" video but my camera ran out of space!! =((( Let me know details of what you all want to see or hear...it helps me get my creative juices flowing for when i redo it =)))

And who knows why guys dont like me!! I wish I knew,if I did I could change it.Maybe because im flat chested? Wish I knew.

[BLKGSXR]

Try the Forza series if you like sim racing and for arcade go w/ Need for Speed ... imo NFS most wanted was the best and it's like $20 now. Yes the games i recomended are shootes w/ light rpg elements. Wow we have alot in common. :)co-signed forza is the best for 360-since u can play regular forza or Forza2 on the 360- I say buy both-very realistic compared to gran turismo-imo.

[MrsKellyPierce]

Lovely video honey! If you can stay out of the adult industry I would. :)


Thanks Kelly! You are beautiful and you inspire me!! When my friends and I watched Maury they literally thought you were the most gorgeous one there!!


But anyways yesterday I tried starting my "day in the life" video but my camera ran out of space!! =((( Let me know details of what you all want to see or hear...it helps me get my creative juices flowing for when i redo it =)))

And who knows why guys dont like me!! I wish I knew,if I did I could change it.Maybe because im flat chested? Wish I knew.Aww thank you darling, but I think maybe part of the reason you have problems with boys, is merely age. I am not suggesting dating someone older, because you being younger and him being older, he has more life experience making him not a good canidate in my opinion to truly date. I think you shouldn't give up hope, and keep holding out. There has to be someone your age that will accept you for you! Good luck darling!

[xxxian]

Truly a remarkable set of images. Well done. The pic near the end.. is that you with your parents? If so, I'm glad to see their support and love for you.

Xian

[Crackdsatyr]

This video was super cute! I found it deeply touching. If it may help other young people, who are in the same situation, to go on transition, great! Parents who have a kid like you should absolutely look at this video.

Good success in everything you choose to do. :o

[blonde_sweetheart]

Lovely video honey! If you can stay out of the adult industry I would. :)


Thanks Kelly! You are beautiful and you inspire me!! When my friends and I watched Maury they literally thought you were the most gorgeous one there!!


But anyways yesterday I tried starting my "day in the life" video but my camera ran out of space!! =((( Let me know details of what you all want to see or hear...it helps me get my creative juices flowing for when i redo it =)))

And who knows why guys dont like me!! I wish I knew,if I did I could change it.Maybe because im flat chested? Wish I knew.Aww thank you darling, but I think maybe part of the reason you have problems with boys, is merely age. I am not suggesting dating someone older, because you being younger and him being older, he has more life experience making him not a good canidate in my opinion to truly date. I think you shouldn't give up hope, and keep holding out. There has to be someone your age that will accept you for you! Good luck darling!

Maybe...but I still think something is wrong with me.

And yes those are my parents =))) I do love them =)))

So anyonehave any ideas/suggestions for my next vid???

[timebomb]

I bet you something - You are going to start running into guys that you just graduated with, and they are going to start having interest in you. Or they are going to tell you that they have liked you for a while.

HS is a very closed culture atmosphere, which I am sure you know all too well. Most 17, 18 year old dudes are not going to take the shit from their friends for venturing out of the "norm". But as soon as HS is over it seems that people just become who they have been suppressing.

I am 25 now and I have seen so many people that I knew in high school become different people completely. One of my friends came out of the closet, and so many other guys came out of the closet. They finally felt free to be who they really are with having constant judgment around, and not having that pressure to conform.

In the same sense I am sure there where guys who liked you but were afraid to let their feelings be know.

Regardless, you will have no problems getting a dude.

Okay know for another video idea - how about something fun, like a music video of you. I don't know how good your video editing skills are but it would be cool to see you make a music video where it cuts to different outfits :-)

[tsslutboy]

Liked your video and how it shows that a person's past is what shapes them into girl she is now. I know the bf problem is not you it's the guys.In time you will find a bf that will treat nice and love you.
oh and your next vid idea i would like to see u doing thing that you enjoy and make you happy

[rockabilly]

Dance Party!!

[zukkobaby]

seanchi, she's 18, where's her Yum spread?

[rockabilly]

She's not a porn girl.

[blonde_sweetheart]

seanchi, she's 18, where's her Yum spread?\

Could be really sooon!! ;)

[rockabilly]

I stand corrected :(

[blonde_sweetheart]

I stand corrected :(

Why the sad face huh??

[mark 29]

Very good complilation , shows your personality and i love your smile !

[rockabilly]

I stand corrected :(

Why the sad face huh??
check your pm

[rockabilly]

Best of luck to you , whatever you decide to do :shrug:

[BritneyBoykins]

:P :P :P She is soooo hot!

[blonde_sweetheart]

:P :P :P She is soooo hot!


You are tooo!!!! I love your stylee!!! Wish we lived closer we could hang out =)))

[BritneyBoykins]

:P :P :P She is soooo hot!


You are tooo!!!! I love your stylee!!! Wish we lived closer we could hang out =)))

OMG bitch I know. You & I could do some major fucking damage!
We are DEFINITELY hanging out, fer' sure!. . .I love you. End of story
:D :D

[blonde_sweetheart]

:P :P :P She is soooo hot!


You are tooo!!!! I love your stylee!!! Wish we lived closer we could hang out =)))

OMG bitch I know. You & I could do some major fucking damage!
We are DEFINITELY hanging out, fer' sure!. . .I love you. End of story
:D :D

Yes...Britney and I are taking over the world!!! You can all get on your knees now ;)

[rockabilly]

Britney already had me on my knees , i'm her footstool.

[BritneyBoykins]

:P :P :P She is soooo hot!


You are tooo!!!! I love your stylee!!! Wish we lived closer we could hang out =)))

OMG bitch I know. You & I could do some major fucking damage!
We are DEFINITELY hanging out, fer' sure!. . .I love you. End of story
:D :D

Yes...Britney and I are taking over the world!!! You can all get on your knees now ;)

That's my girl :twisted:

[muhmuh]

And yes those are my parents =))) I do love them =)))

So anyonehave any ideas/suggestions for my next vid???

i see one right there in those 2 lines


I bet you something - You are going to start running into guys that you just graduated with, and they are going to start having interest in you. Or they are going to tell you that they have liked you for a while.

HS is a very closed culture atmosphere, which I am sure you know all too well. Most 17, 18 year old dudes are not going to take the shit from their friends for venturing out of the "norm". But as soon as HS is over it seems that people just become who they have been suppressing.

someone too afraid to be himself sounds like a prime catch for a girl who apparently isnt

[tsslutboy]

oh my BritneyBoykins and Blonde_sweetheart in the same room would be so hott! It would also need to be fireproof cuz both r so smokin hott.

[blonde_sweetheart]

oh my BritneyBoykins and Blonde_sweetheart in the same room would be so hott! It would also need to be fireproof cuz both r so smokin hott.

Hehe thanksss =)))

[zukkobaby]

1. if shemale yum offered, would you model?
2. where is the uncensored profile pic? that pink heart is killing me, I wish I had x-ray vision

[blonde_sweetheart]

1. if shemale yum offered, would you model?
2. where is the uncensored profile pic? that pink heart is killing me, I wish I had x-ray vision


1) yes


2) it's a secret ;)

[rockabilly]

Good Luck :)

[rsvert892002]

I must say, you look great. I think it awesome you have the video of you growing up. Look forward to seeing more from you. My god you look awesome. Love the new avatar!

[luxxxuzz2001]

WOW !!!
amazing !!!
congratulations !!!
this is the best one i´ve seen on youtube !!!
and i´ve seen a very big bunch !!!

Now you are a preaty girl !!!

[Border80]

I went to the same high school as her, but a few years before she did. I have to say, she is incredibly feminine and incredibly passable, like nothing I could imagine.

[AllStar83]

so... would you date long distance :wink:
lol

[droog]

well done. :D

[retrozen]

Show some pics of your feet... PLEASE!!!

[El Nino]

lol

[flabbybody]

Clearly you have the love and support of your family. Everyone should be so blessed. Thanks for sharing those wonderful photos.

And by the way...no shemaleyum in your future. It may seem cool now but picture yourself doing your residency in about 10 to 12 years. The worldwide web does not have an expiration date. As dysfunctional as we characters can be on this board I guarantee that we all wish you the best. While many of us tend to encourage young girls such as yourself to exploit yourself to our personal delight I think even the worst of us are encouraged by you and what you have shared with us.

well said Chuck..
but that's for her to decide

[blonde_sweetheart]

so... would you date long distance :wink:
lol

Im looking for a rich guy to take care of me to be honest...since my parents can no longer take care of me!

[rockabilly]

I'm not a rich man , but i am a good man.

[bte]

Bravo on the video

[NewAgain]

Amazing!! you look so great!!!

[blonde_sweetheart]

Your all so nice to me :)

[rockabilly]

Your a very nice girl and it is a pleasure to talk to you. :)

[worldbro]

Hey blonde sweetheart, how much did you estimate that you spent from age 14 to now, which I assume you are 18 so four years. How much was the total spend on Hormone treatment.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Not much at all!! I used to order Premarin offline it was 60dollars and it lasted me like 3 months...since I got an Rx from my doctor...Spiro is 35 dollars which lasts forever(but im not taking that shit anymore)She had me on Premarin for the same price...but I switched over to injectable delestrogen which is more expensive..idk really how much but nothing astomnomical!

[Chuck]

Clearly you have the love and support of your family. Everyone should be so blessed. Thanks for sharing those wonderful photos.

And by the way...no shemaleyum in your future. It may seem cool now but picture yourself doing your residency in about 10 to 12 years. The worldwide web does not have an expiration date. As dysfunctional as we characters can be on this board I guarantee that we all wish you the best. While many of us tend to encourage young girls such as yourself to exploit yourself to our personal delight I think even the worst of us are encouraged by you and what you have shared with us.

well said Chuck..
but that's for her to decide

My bad. I forgot that porn is a right of passage for all transgenders. Can't even claim membership in the sisterhood unless you have the nude photos on the internet to prove it.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Clearly you have the love and support of your family. Everyone should be so blessed. Thanks for sharing those wonderful photos.

And by the way...no shemaleyum in your future. It may seem cool now but picture yourself doing your residency in about 10 to 12 years. The worldwide web does not have an expiration date. As dysfunctional as we characters can be on this board I guarantee that we all wish you the best. While many of us tend to encourage young girls such as yourself to exploit yourself to our personal delight I think even the worst of us are encouraged by you and what you have shared with us.

well said Chuck..
but that's for her to decide

My bad. I forgot that porn is a right of passage for all transgenders. Can't even claim membership in the sisterhood unless you have the nude photos on the internet to prove it.

I really don't have much going for me right now...I'm flat broke..my car needs 1,500 in repairs and I just graduated.My parents made some stupid financial mistakes and I'm paying the price for that.I'm the type of person who isn't just going to wallow in it like my parents...I'm going to do whatever it takes to get ahead.If they can't take care of me I WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES FOR MYSELF.Right now,this is the path I'm choosing the take.

[Quiet Reflections]

i feel you guys. I don't want to see any girl turn to porn and become a bitter jaded woman but i have to support anyone that makes the decision after careful educated and guided discussion. I cant imagine she would make the choice if she thought it would hurt her parents(who i hope she would have spoken with since they are so supportive). Plus i would love to see those pictures

[blonde_sweetheart]

Actually,I havent talked to my parents they dont need to know LOL!!! but why would you say Im bitter and jaded??

[rockabilly]

As i said have a clear goal in mind and an exit strategy. Best of luck sweety ;)

[Chuck]

We all do what we got to do. Life happens.

But it is a stereotype to assume that all young transgenders must rely on some form of the sex / porno industry in order to earn a living. Most people your age, who don't have rich parents sitting on a phat college fund (and that was most of us) have tough decisions to make.

Sometimes a stereotype that goes un-challenged becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.

[blonde_sweetheart]

We all do what we got to do. Life happens.

But it is a stereotype to assume that all young transgenders must rely on some form of the sex / porno industry in order to earn a living. Most people your age, who don't have rich parents sitting on a phat college fund (and that was most of us) have tough decisions to make.

Sometimes a stereotype that goes un-challenged becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.


This might sound naive to you but have you ever considered that stereotypes might have some base in the truth?
Girls like me don't find love...maybe this is what I was made for.I certainly have never been treated as anything else.

[rockabilly]

Then you live surrounded by jerks.

[Chuck]

We all do what we got to do. Life happens.

But it is a stereotype to assume that all young transgenders must rely on some form of the sex / porno industry in order to earn a living. Most people your age, who don't have rich parents sitting on a phat college fund (and that was most of us) have tough decisions to make.

Sometimes a stereotype that goes un-challenged becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.


This might sound naive to you but have you ever considered that stereotypes might have some base in the truth?
Girls like me don't find love...maybe this is what I was made for.I certainly have never been treated as anything else.

Uh OH :o Already on the road to bitterness and jadedness?

No girl or any person finds love when they are seeking it in the wrong places. As a man I disagree with your claim that "girls" like you don't find love. I have loved two beautiful and intelligent "women" and shared relationships that lasted a few years. My faults as a man in those relationships had nothing to do with them being TS. It had to do with me being an asshole, which is something I have been with GG's also.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I wasn't looking in the wrong places when I believed a guy could love me and find me attractive and want me...after years of being ignored,passed over and abused I stopped believing.I closed my heart for my own sanity and peace of mind..this is where I am today and if it makes me bitter and jaded,so be it.I'm not hurt.

[rockabilly]

A life w/o love is sad ... i have been there longer than you have.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Who needs 'love"!!! Why is everyone so damn concerned with finding it...chasing after it...talking ENDLESSLY about it! It's not real.

IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S NOT REAL.

We would all be more happy without it.

[rockabilly]

Love is like the wind , you cant see it but you feel it. Just because love hasn't found you yet is no reason to put a wall around your heart or ice water in your veins.

[Chuck]

I wasn't looking in the wrong places when I believed a guy could love me and find me attractive and want me...after years of being ignored,passed over and abused I stopped believing.I closed my heart for my own sanity and peace of mind..this is where I am today and if it makes me bitter and jaded,so be it.I'm not hurt.

Sweetheart you're only 18!!! What 18 year old finds love, let alone knows what it is? Yeah, I know. When we're 18 we think we know all about love. Actaully very few of us do at that age. What we do know is that we want so badly to experience it.

Your experience with guys, who might best be described as jerks, is not unique in any way to you as a transgender. It's exactly what the teenage GG's go through. Trust me. In addition to working with teens for a living I have a daughter your age. You'll experience love and all that goes with it, both wonderful and not so wonderful, in due time.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Im not looking for love...and I never really was...maybe even just "like"!! Maybe just someone who wanted to fuck me or hookup with me...just to make me feel wanted and attractive like all of my friends! They all have that...so why can't I? Because Im not really female!!!! Its just another reminder.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I can't even look at myself.Pathetic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Quiet Reflections]

Actually,I havent talked to my parents they dont need to know LOL!!! but why would you say Im bitter and jaded??
I wasnt saying you were bitter and jaded i was saying i don't want to see you become that way.

[timebomb]

Maybe you were overlooked in high school! but you shouldn't care... that was just High school. After a couple years you will look back and understand how meaningless those 4 years were to your social life, because you have so much better days ahead of you.

Attention from guys is coming, thats guaranteed, whether you decide to do porn or not. But like you said I wouldn't worry about love, because frankly at this point who cares.

Have fun in your life... and worry about all those "emotions" later, when they could actually mean something.

[Quiet Reflections]

Im not looking for love...and I never really was...maybe even just "like"!! Maybe just someone who wanted to fuck me or hookup with me...just to make me feel wanted and attractive like all of my friends! They all have that...so why can't I? Because Im not really female!!!! Its just another reminder.
There are alot o guys that will make you feel temporarily wanted but its the ones that want you when your not at your best that you should want back. I have found that when you stop looking for love it will find you so its probably good to stop looking for it just make sure that while your not looking for it you are are spending time loving yourself.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I don't believe that any guy could treat me the way I want to be treated...Im just not good enough.Otherwise,one would've tried to get me by now.

[timebomb]

Do you think any of your gg friends have been treated the way a girl wants to be treated? Because to me it would seem more of an age thing than a tg vs. gg thing.

[transmaven]

Maybe just someone who wanted to fuck me or hookup with me...just to make me feel wanted and attractive like all of my friends!

There's a feeling I get from your posts, and I hope you won't mind my expressing it. :) You are a delicate person. The last thing you need is to give yourself to someone just because he wants to "fuck" you.

You may feel love when you first experience intimacy -- and most of the guys who will offer "just to fuck or hook-up" with you will be exactly those guys most likely to hurt you. Because the guys who will respond to your (desperate?) signals will be the wrong guys. They are the predators. Alas, I should know.--

And porn is a tough path for someone like yourself. It is a cheap and all too easy source of cash and "acceptance." But sometimes it empties out your heart and makes you sadder than before. Please think about these things very carefully.

And take care.

[blonde_sweetheart]

Maybe just someone who wanted to fuck me or hookup with me...just to make me feel wanted and attractive like all of my friends!

There's a feeling I get from your posts, and I hope you won't mind my expressing it. :) You are a delicate person. The last thing you need is to give yourself to someone just because he wants to "fuck" you.

You may feel love when you first experience intimacy -- and most of the guys who will offer "just to fuck or hook-up" with you will be exactly those guys most likely to hurt you. Because the guys who will respond to your (desperate?) signals will be the wrong guys. They are the predators. Alas, I should know.--

And porn is a tough path for someone like yourself. It is a cheap and all too easy source of cash and "acceptance." But sometimes it empties out your heart and makes you sadder than before. Please think about these things very carefully.

And take care.


Id rather have those guys anyday over what I have now...which is nothing!And I am not sad Im perfectly fine. lol

[blonde_sweetheart]

I wish some girls would back me up on this!!

[Quiet Reflections]

I don't believe that any guy could treat me the way I want to be treated...Im just not good enough.Otherwise,one would've tried to get me by now.
fuck that. I'm moving! I'm coming to get you!!!! Anyway you have to remember that guys are generally afraid to talk to attractive ladies because most are scared of rejection.

[transmaven]

I didn't say you were sad -- I said porn might do that to you. If you're fine now, then what are you so worried about? :P

BTW. How about a regular job of some kind?

[rockabilly]

I beleive Kelly Shore said dont do porn earlier.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I have a regular job now...but I dont want to become like my parents.I want breast implants and a new car and to move out of this shitty ass town!!! I will do whatever it takes to get exactly what I want.

[transmaven]

"Life's about holding on when your heart has had enough,and giving more when you feel like giving up."


:wink:

[blonde_sweetheart]

"Life's about holding on when your heart has had enough,and giving more when you feel like giving up."


:wink:


Who said I wasnt?

[rockabilly]

We all want that ... well as a guy i didn't want implants lol but that is what every teen in the world wants. Even your parents felt that way at your age. But what everyone is saying is Porn is not a magic carpet to money and fame.And sex does not equal happiness.

[AllStar83]

come to houston if you move. then you could also hang out with britney. 2 birds, 1 stone lol

[Down2Earth03]

Don't worry Ash you'll find love sooner rather than later. The important part is that you don't change, you'll want somebody who loves you for who you really are! Why change and then have someone love some fake Ashley. Not worth it, and you'll feel empty. Just always be yourself.

Hell, I don't live far from you in that "shitty town" lol. I'm around your age to (23), lets go eat ice cream and talk about how love sucks! haha

[AmericanDream]

you look splendid, I'm glad your happy.

[BeardedOne]

Just finished it...my transition in pictures =) Let me know what you think!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpoqmw7AG8w

Great vid! Thanx for sharing this bit of your life. :)

[AmericanDream]

Wait I just actually read stuff from this thread...

Why are you talking like that sweetheart? Your beautiful and I'm sure you deserve the best. I don't know why your saying loves not real, do you not love your parents? don't give the excuse that it's a different love. I'm not sure what you want but when I see your pictures I see a big smile.

Don't do porn. move to NJ and lets get together.

[Quiet Reflections]

....

[Chuck]

See...we might not all be the smartest "mofos" but I think you're getting some pretty honest, heartfelt thoughts from people who are expressing their higher self to YOU!

I believe there are many (more than you can imagine) guys who would treat you lovingly beyond your greatest dreams and hopes. Some might be right here on this board. Go ahead and friend them on facebook or myspace (whichever or both). Even through the internet you can find out who people truely are.

[blonde_sweetheart]

I just don't care anymore.

[rockabilly]

I am sorry you feel that way Ash ... But the world is yours , you have your whole life ahead of you. Let go of the past and embrace your future. I only wish you happiness and i hope you find what your looking for in life and in love ... goodbye.

[Quiet Reflections]

I am sorry you feel that way Ash ... But the world is yours , you have your whole life ahead of you. Let go of the past and embrace your future. I only wish you happiness and i hope you find what your looking for in life and in love ... goodbye.
+1

[dunkiex]

What a beautiful and moving video. I hope other young people searching for their identity as you did see the video.

[xon]

Hey there first of all your video was very nice ;)

secondly i don't know how guys are where you're from but it seems to me that any guy would be lucky to have you. You seem to be beautiful on the outside and a very beautiful personality to boot :)

Also regarding ur thoughts bout porn....well im a med student now and when i graduated the equivalent of high skul for u guys in america, i needed cash bad i thought about going into it and i had looked up a lot on it and was ready for a shoot....but a friend of mine enlightened me, patients nowadays check up on their docs via the web and as was said by some1 else on this thread the net has no expiration date......now i dunno how the people in your town would react but i dnt think they would trust me that much here......

if u join Med skul maybe one day ill see u at some conference or sumthin :P

[alyssats]

I understand what blonde_sweetheart is feeling

I also dont know why but from my experience most guys just treat TS girls as sex object and fantasy for them. And most guys who will say they are looking for a LTR,girlfriend,marriage for a TS girls are 99% bullshit and lie jeje. All are just talk we need action. Admit it guys :P

They might be real genuine guys there who will have LTR or marry a TS girl but very very very very few lol

When Im not yet in escorting Im very genuine and honest to have a bf/ltr but so many guys had played games with me. Im working so hard in the corporate world to earn money and save to have breast operation but most of my money, time and effort got wasted from lies and bullshit of guys saying they are looking for LTR when in reallity they just want free sex then will leave you alone and look for other girls that they could victimize. :roll:

[blonde_sweetheart]

I understand what blonde_sweetheart is feeling

I also dont know why but from my experience most guys just treat TS girls as sex object and fantasy for them. And most guys who will say they are looking for a LTR,girlfriend,marriage for a TS girls are 99% bullshit and lie jeje. All are just talk we need action. Admit it guys :P

They might be real genuine guys there who will have LTR or marry a TS girl but very very very very few lol

When Im not yet in escorting Im very genuine and honest to have a bf/ltr but so many guys had played games with me. Im working so hard in the corporate world to earn money and save to have breast operation but most of my money, time and effort got wasted from lies and bullshit of guys saying they are looking for LTR when in really they just want free sex then will leave you alone and look for other girls that they could victimize. :roll:


Thanks for proving my point...you have some experience with guys at least so maybe what you have to say is a lil bit more credible than what Miss.Lonely Unkissed Virgin has to say.

[zukkobaby]

you going to college soon? if so which? some college guys will be at least a little more mature than high school guys. You might find some game-playing jerks, but you are so perfect I'm sure you will find a genuine guy for a LTR

[blonde_sweetheart]

I'm not perfect Lol

[blonde_sweetheart]

But Im going to school where I live now...I hate the idea of it and I dont want to at all...I want to move farrrr away!! Hopefully theres a rich guy out there somewhere who would want to take care of me !!! Get at me rich guys..

[zukkobaby]

spent hours chatting on IM... just have to say, AWESOME, genuine, down to earth girl. I really hope she finds a great guy, I'd even throw my hat into the ring if KC is far enough from home... not NYC or LA... so I can only wish

[zukkobaby]

not rich... I earn a living... better than most in this market, but no yacht

[muhmuh]

I also dont know why but from my experience most guys just treat TS girls as sex object and fantasy for them.

although im not quite sure how her gold digger lets become a fuck puppet plans would improve that situation

i cant figure out if this is a genuine wish or some kind of (perceived) beta female (allright allrigh refering to christopher moore twice in one post is excessive i know) status get out of jail free strategy

[AmericanDream]

I made a mistake, disregard anything I've told you blonde_sweetheart.

[worldbro]

Good news Blonde sweetheart, I just got this email from Nigeria saying that my assistance is needed because there is an large amount of unclaimed gold bullions worth millions and they just need a foreigner to open up a bank account out there; due to some international treaty or something, and I will have millions!

That means now I'm rich now and can take care of you! all I have to do is send an cash advance(this is just to open up an account) and I'm sending for you baby!!!

I just need to borrow $2000 from you cause I dont has money for the advance.

[Quiet Reflections]

you will find far more guys with less money that will treat you right than you will rich guys. The rich guys know that their money will allow them to treat you like crap and keep you there. I have money but i never tell girls i want to date that I'm well off until after i don't think it matters to them. Even after its known i tell them that they must bring something to the table other than sex and looks if they want to eat.

[Quiet Reflections]

not rich... I earn a living... better than most in this market, but no yacht
Its better to have a friend with a boat than own one yourself.

[Nashvegas]

ok i came to this thread a little late, but you are super cute blonde sweetheart

[Yoite]

Do want :Q___

[xon]

where you thinkin of movin away to??? come to MALTA :P
not much rich guys runnin around here mind u but we sure know how to have fun ;) and its full of good people well most of us anyways haha

[zukkobaby]

you've been quite for a few days now... am I getting the big blow off? :(