I think I'm going to need therapy

[SXFX]

I think that I'm going to be needing therapy.
I've been looking back....something people of sound mind should never do.....at my life wondering why I'm so jaded. Why I quantify human relationship with economy and evolution and cold hard facts.

She's dating that guy because he has money, thus offering her a better life aka he's a provider.

He's dating that girl because of her ample bosoms and shape, she represents fertility.

And this goes in my every day life. Not one day do I sit in a meeting and not study peoples actions and movements and seat choices and come to cold hard conclusions.

I can't let go of old flames, i can't let go of old grudges and every time I see a beautiful woman.....i run the numbers in my head doing the evolution economic dance. I've become a mother fucker! A total jaded asshole!

I've lost sight of humanity. And why....well as I said I was looking back on my life today on my ride back home and came to a sad realization.
I've had to hustle for every single thing I have ever had. Be it relationship or product.

And you know what they say about those having worked hard for what they have and how they appreciate it? Well I've had to hustle for every thing! I've only been hit on once by a girl. I've never had an easy promotion. I've always had to kill off a competitor.

And this....this hustle this perpetual work has left me jaded. Yeah what I have is nice (condo, bike, cars, hobbies), it's better than most but it sure as shit isn't enough. Yeah my gf is cute, but fuck her ass looks like mashed potatoes in an old plastic bag. And yeah I know what I'm saying is wrong, I'm well aware of it. I should be happy I should be content. But I'm not.
I'm a jaded asshole.....and I don't want to be.

I just want to be human.

[hotvegasguy26]

hmm sounds like me..... i dont think you need therapy man... i just think you need patience....you need to find the shit in life thats gonna make you happy, you just havent found it yet... feels like theres something missing in my life and until i find it i'm gonna continue to view the world in a fucked up jaded way and the older i get the more i just dont give a fuck about what people say to me cuz i really just dont give a fuck....maybe ive been in vegas too long

[SXFX]

I live in NJ...that could be it.
But yeah I'm fucking tired! I'm tired of the hustle.
I just want to be human. I want to stop viewing all interactions in this sick way.
I just want peace.

[hotvegasguy26]

welll... you may have a fucked up jaded view of the world but if you're generally a good person and dont project hatred then shit will come to you... it's all about the karma... but to be honest i started thinking this way like ten years ago and my impatience started to drive me crazy to the point where i thought i needed fuckin help, but when i realized that shit sometimes takes a while to come together and started being more patient my stress level was so much lower

[RubyTS]

na ur just a realist

the saying "ignorance is bliss" is SOOO true
To be naive to the way the world works again, even for a day would be such a relief

I myself am a very calculated analytical person. I think everyyyyything through THOROUGHLY! My mind is constantly on the go. Its kinda frustrating because it makes it impossible just to live.

I know exactly what you're goig through

[hotvegasguy26]

i dont know shit when i feel too much hate towards the world i just go blow a tranny....it always puts a new perspective on things for me

[MacShreach]

I think that I'm going to be needing therapy.<snip>
I just want to be human.

Welcome to your mid-life crisis, son. And no I'm not picking on you, just telling you like it is. You have a choice: identify what it is you really want to do and then just go and do it......or stay as you are and keep on wondering what it might have been like. Not saying one is better then the other, but that is the way it is.

Therapy won't help. Better blowing the money on a decent BJ. Really.

[Solitary Brother]

Your normal you dont need therapy if you ask me.

[deee757]

I just think u need Kim Kardashian. Problem solved, crisis over.

http://fashionfeen.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/kim-kardashian-05.jpg

[fred41]

I think that I'm going to be needing therapy.<snip>
I just want to be human.

Welcome to your mid-life crisis, son. And no I'm not picking on you, just telling you like it is. You have a choice: identify what it is you really want to do and then just go and do it......or stay as you are and keep on wondering what it might have been like. Not saying one is better then the other, but that is the way it is.

Therapy won't help. Better blowing the money on a decent BJ. Really.

Well, he didn't say how old he is ,but your answer sounds correct. That's pretty much what happened to me and I picked option number one. Psychologists or therapists aren't a total waste though. If health insurance covers it , then go for it. A good shrink could at least help you make your decision, or remove some of the fog from your eyes. They won't make the decisions for you but they will help you steer the course to whichever destination you choose.

....but a good blow job wouldn't hurt either! :D

[SXFX]

31
and fucking tired!
Fucking just.....look I don't want any thing. I don't mind working for what I have but....does it always have to be so fucking hard? Do i have to hustle for every single thing? Bleeding for it doesn't make me appreciate it, it makes me resent my successes and never forget my failures.
I don't know...maybe a few hours of loving will solve this problem. I hear tickets to DR are cheap and the working girls are well priced that an average joe like me could get a full day of hugs and not loose his shirt.

[Alyssa87]

maybe if you break up with your gf things will get better.


...or at least for her they will.

i would be so hurt if i knew my man was talking about going to the caribbean looking for cheap whores. and thought my body was so gross.

[Nautica]

^^What she said! LMFAO!!!!!

Maybe next time use ziplock on her ass instead?

I think you should buy "The Secret"! As ridiculous as some may see it, it ,actually, works!

If you keep dwelling on the fact something negative's going to happen and you always expect it.......you're GONNA get it a large percentage/% of the time.

It seems, as if, you've made this some sort of habit a long time ago. When did this begin and what was the situation? That question would be a good start.

Relationships can hinder and make a person CONSTANTLY irritated, also, if you feel like you're 'settling'. That's 1 of the worse things to do. That can fry your brain.

What you need to do is take a week long vacation, ALONE, somewhere quiet. A nice private beach or something. It doesn't have to cost a billion dollars. You, just, need a week to YOURSELF to let your mind relax.

When was the last time you spent time alone? You need to go and clear your mind (as much as possible) and think about what you have and how BLESSED YOU ARE to be, even, typing on the computer. Once you take the quiet time to soak some things in, you'll find out it's not as bad as you think.

I saw a vid of a guy the other day. He has no arms or legs and the most BEAUTIFULLLLLL smile(handsome as heck, too). He was smiling so much and just seemed so free and happy. That had me in so many tears. He said:"DO NOT COMPARE DIFFICULTIES." Wow!


I saw this little girl in Africa (On the Oprah Winfrey Show..I think it was in Africa.) she had 1 dress and a piece of cut mirror and was saying how blessed she is. So many tears!

Some people are so greedy and no one's life is 100% perfect 100% of the time. I'm not calling you greedy.

This sounds like your mind is racing and you haven't let yourself catch up to it. Start small by broadening your horizons (Looking at some of the many people of the world.), changing people you deal with, changing the color of a bedroom, living room, or bathroom, buying a crazy gadget you've been wanting, watching a movie that made you happy when you were younger (Wizard of Oz?! :.), exercising (bike ride), etc.

At some point, you're going to have to let go of the past. You're probably so happy and don't know it, because you won't let your mind past the mist. Push forward through all of that extra and know that you ARE a STRONG and WISE person who was put here TO BE HAPPY! :.) If you weren't, you wouldn't have all of the 'hustling' knowledge.


Please take a little time to yourself......You will be ok! :.) ,


Nautica

[Nautica]

Omg! After I typed all that....Lol....My rambling azz!...... I remebered watching this video some time ago.

I'm always trying to help others when I need to work on myself. Maybe I should watch this video once a week. :.)


Please watch this vid and let the words into your mind. There, actually, is a message after the birthday stuff.:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1a-u5Allwk4

[MacShreach]

....but a good blow job wouldn't hurt either! :D

Yes I think I need one of those too....since I have apparently lost the ability to spell the word "than." :roll:

[yodajazz]

^^What she said! LMFAO!!!!!

Maybe next time use ziplock on her ass instead?

I think you should buy "The Secret"! As ridiculous as some may see it, it ,actually, works!

If you keep dwelling on the fact something negative's going to happen and you always expect it.......you're GONNA get it a large percentage/% of the time.

It seems, as if, you've made this some sort of habit a long time ago. When did this begin and what was the situation? That question would be a good start.

Relationships can hinder and make a person CONSTANTLY irritated, also, if you feel like you're 'settling'. That's 1 of the worse things to do. That can fry your brain.

What you need to do is take a week long vacation, ALONE, somewhere quiet. A nice private beach or something. It doesn't have to cost a billion dollars. You, just, need a week to YOURSELF to let your mind relax.

When was the last time you spent time alone? You need to go and clear your mind (as much as possible) and think about what you have and how BLESSED YOU ARE to be, even, typing on the computer. Once you take the quiet time to soak some things in, you'll find out it's not as bad as you think.

I saw a vid of a guy the other day. He has no arms or legs and the most BEAUTIFULLLLLL smile(handsome as heck, too). He was smiling so much and just seemed so free and happy. That had me in so many tears. He said:"DO NOT COMPARE DIFFICULTIES." Wow!


I saw this little girl in Africa (On the Oprah Winfrey Show..I think it was in Africa.) she had 1 dress and a piece of cut mirror and was saying how blessed she is. So many tears!

Some people are so greedy and no one's life is 100% perfect 100% of the time. I'm not calling you greedy.

This sounds like your mind is racing and you haven't let yourself catch up to it. Start small by broadening your horizons (Looking at some of the many people of the world.), changing people you deal with, changing the color of a bedroom, living room, or bathroom, buying a crazy gadget you've been wanting, watching a movie that made you happy when you were younger (Wizard of Oz?! :.), exercising (bike ride), etc.

At some point, you're going to have to let go of the past. You're probably so happy and don't know it, because you won't let your mind past the mist. Push forward through all of that extra and know that you ARE a STRONG and WISE person who was put here TO BE HAPPY! :.) If you weren't, you wouldn't have all of the 'hustling' knowledge.


Please take a little time to yourself......You will be ok! :.) ,


Nautica

Excellent post Nautica! I agree with everything you have said, but I’ll say the same thing in my own way.

This is why spiritual discipline advise people to be thankful for what you have today. You have so much good in your life, a job, a girlfriend, material goods, health, youth and a host of other things. In fact maybe you have too much to appreciate what you really have. It could also be that your career is taking too much of your energy, to be able to appreciate life. Most people don’t need all the material things, they think that you can’t live without. An example would be GPS systems. Before that people would called their friends for directions, and look at maps. Looking at a map is a time of quiet study and good for your mind. Also you see other places on a map, whereas the GPS only takes you to your destination. You only learn about things on the GPS route.

Your ‘jaded’ view of people, only sees a small slice of a person. People do thing for complex reasons. The example you used of a woman being with a man because he is a good provider, would only be part of the picture. He probably pays her attention, doesn’t cheat, maybe respects her relatives, likes to do things that she likes, and a million other things that define love.

It is written somewhere in the Bible, ‘of all things be thankful’. Even seemingly negative experience, teaches us valuable lessons. A lot of times that lesson is to appreciate the things we have left, after we lose something valuable. That half empty glass people talk about, is your life; with your life being the water part, with the past and negativity being the empty part of it. I know that I do not have as much in my glass as I used to, but I am more appreciative of the smaller part that is left. I have one more day to express love.

[fred41]

....but a good blow job wouldn't hurt either! :D

Yes I think I need one of those too....since I have apparently lost the ability to spell the word "than." :roll:

Oh, forget spelling, punctuation and grammar! I do..and I'm relatively happy ( in a manic-depressive sort of way). :)

[SXFX]

maybe if you break up with your gf things will get better.


...or at least for her they will.

i would be so hurt if i knew my man was talking about going to the caribbean looking for cheap whores. and thought my body was so gross.

I think she has it good. I'm paying for her university. And well......I've never paid for sex nor ever cheated on some one. I don't think I could do it any way. I have this little voice in my head that won't shut up about me at least trying to be a good person.....god I hate that voice!

Any how

I no longer see people falling in love, I see evolution at play. He likes her due to her ample bosoms and she loves him to to his ample wallet. Every business and life decision becomes a set of odds to be looked at, what are the odds of this what are the odds of that. And it all comes down to a stupid Persian saying "Put your head down and pull like a cow." That is to say don't look up just put your shoulder into it and plow the field of life.

And well.....I'm 33 halfway threw my life, I look back on the filed I have plowed and just see one hustle after another and more scars than I can keep track of. And like Sisyphus I've been pushing this rock of my life up hill.

Of which the rock represents every thing that i'm pushing for. Be it a better life or just convincing my gf to try new things in the sack or.....just getting fucking hit on by a half decent looking chick. And in my sick little mind I lived threw what i lived threw hoping that the hill would eventually level out. And sure I would push this rock......but the ground would be less steep, the earth a bit softer to plow. And as I looked up and around the bolder.......the hill is infinite.

It does not plateau it just goes. That is to say....there is no Karma, there is no god, there is no divine check book that says "Sx has suffered this hard, he has done this much good for others, and now he shall have a little easier job." NOPE the job is the job, the hill is the hill.

And my friend, who also had to hustle for every thing be it sex or work, just told me point blank, 10 years ago he too stuck his head out, looked around, felt the weight on his shoulders, realized that there was no divine entity who would or could alter the landscape and as such let go of the bolder.

He now only pushes only things that matter to him at this very moment. Wife's sex drive dead, does he care? He had his hand....ok she can go fuck her self. It can stay where it is, it can roll back and she can become a nun or she can fix her own dam self. He just won't push. Jobs a bitch, why push it? Why push hard turn your bones into dust only to not receive any monetary reward or a promotion. Let it be, let it ride, let it do it's thing.

Two beers and $20 in singles later I left that strip club feeling a lot better. There is no god, there is no check book and no accountability. What I suffered in the past was for nothing, for it was just my lot in life. Yeah I was once optimistic (hoping the hill would level out), thinking I would graduate with a good degree after working two jobs and going to school, be able to buy a sexy sports car, go on vacation to Ibiza and have porno quality sexy with my gf.......but that was all a mirage a day dream.

None of that stuff was even possible it was just hope. Hope that the hill would level out. So free of worry of the all mighty and knowing that I will only push the bolder I wish to push.........midlife crisis appears to be solved. As for the GF's boring sex life.....hay she can do what she wants to do. I have a bike and I'm learning how to sky dive. I'm not going to push shit on her. She wants kinky stuff....she has a credit card. No more "Surprise, look what I got for you!" from me.

Who needs therapy when you have good friends who can be honest with you.

[MacShreach]

.I'm 33 halfway threw my life,

ROFL You were 31 yesterday! Any advance? :lol: :lol: :lol:

[SXFX]

fat finger mate.
i'm sorry

[LilWyte]

smh @ this troll this is the same dude that made that thread about "girls chasing thugs" and he was pissed cuz a girl called him "a diamond in the rough"

[SXFX]

Hay "a diamond in the rough" doesn't get ass like a thug now does he?

And so why would any one want to be called "a diamond in the rough" when one is after ass.

[Alyssa87]

WHOA.

yeah, take that therapy and run with it!
i think you exhibit feelings of self-pity and entitlement.

[hotvegasguy26]

yes....therapy.... i concur

[yodajazz]

maybe if you break up with your gf things will get better.


...or at least for her they will.

i would be so hurt if i knew my man was talking about going to the caribbean looking for cheap whores. and thought my body was so gross.

I think she has it good. I'm paying for her university. And well......I've never paid for sex nor ever cheated on some one. I don't think I could do it any way. I have this little voice in my head that won't shut up about me at least trying to be a good person.....god I hate that voice!

Any how

I no longer see people falling in love, I see evolution at play. He likes her due to her ample bosoms and she loves him to to his ample wallet. Every business and life decision becomes a set of odds to be looked at, what are the odds of this what are the odds of that. And it all comes down to a stupid Persian saying "Put your head down and pull like a cow." That is to say don't look up just put your shoulder into it and plow the field of life.

And well.....I'm 33 halfway threw my life, I look back on the filed I have plowed and just see one hustle after another and more scars than I can keep track of. And like Sisyphus I've been pushing this rock of my life up hill.

Of which the rock represents every thing that i'm pushing for. Be it a better life or just convincing my gf to try new things in the sack or.....just getting fucking hit on by a half decent looking chick. And in my sick little mind I lived threw what i lived threw hoping that the hill would eventually level out. And sure I would push this rock......but the ground would be less steep, the earth a bit softer to plow. And as I looked up and around the bolder.......the hill is infinite.

It does not plateau it just goes. That is to say....there is no Karma, there is no god, there is no divine check book that says "Sx has suffered this hard, he has done this much good for others, and now he shall have a little easier job." NOPE the job is the job, the hill is the hill.

And my friend, who also had to hustle for every thing be it sex or work, just told me point blank, 10 years ago he too stuck his head out, looked around, felt the weight on his shoulders, realized that there was no divine entity who would or could alter the landscape and as such let go of the bolder.

He now only pushes only things that matter to him at this very moment. Wife's sex drive dead, does he care? He had his hand....ok she can go fuck her self. It can stay where it is, it can roll back and she can become a nun or she can fix her own dam self. He just won't push. Jobs a bitch, why push it? Why push hard turn your bones into dust only to not receive any monetary reward or a promotion. Let it be, let it ride, let it do it's thing.

Two beers and $20 in singles later I left that strip club feeling a lot better. There is no god, there is no check book and no accountability. What I suffered in the past was for nothing, for it was just my lot in life. Yeah I was once optimistic (hoping the hill would level out), thinking I would graduate with a good degree after working two jobs and going to school, be able to buy a sexy sports car, go on vacation to Ibiza and have porno quality sexy with my gf.......but that was all a mirage a day dream.

None of that stuff was even possible it was just hope. Hope that the hill would level out. So free of worry of the all mighty and knowing that I will only push the bolder I wish to push.........midlife crisis appears to be solved. As for the GF's boring sex life.....hay she can do what she wants to do. I have a bike and I'm learning how to sky dive. I'm not going to push shit on her. She wants kinky stuff....she has a credit card. No more "Surprise, look what I got for you!" from me.

Who needs therapy when you have good friends who can be honest with you.
If you did that much good for others, as you say, you did it for the wrong reasons. Because if it was for the right reasons, you would be happy, just knowing that you had the ability to give. Many people are not able to give for many reasons, including health reasons. Their bodies are just not working right. I have a loved one in the hopspital right now.

You might not see it but people still fall in love. Love exists, you just don't recognize it's form. No sex is the same after years with the same person, but there are so many other rewards for a person staying with day by day for many years. I just don't have the words or the time to describe it. I saw my relative today, who has been married for 65 years. It's not about sex, it's about finding joy in the events of today, or someone to share your sorrows with also.

From your description of your life, I would say that you are blessed. The only question is if you will have to lose things before you can appreciate thier value. But having a partner with a college degree, the two of you together could pull down 1 million dollars in ten years. That buys a things that others only dream of.

If therapy can help you to see this, by all means go for it.

[hotvegasguy26]

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