MrsKellyPierce
05-07-2009, 08:47 PM
So while I was in San Fran I did a phone interview with T Life a soon to be online magizine. Amy Kincade interviewed me. I copy and pasted what she sent me of the finish product. I hope you guys enjoy!
Transgender Actitvist turn pornstar Kelly Shore gives us a candid no holds bar interview. We caught up with Miss Shore in San Francisco while she was filming for sites. Talking to Miss Shore was a treat. She is bubbly, bright, friendly, and inviting. It was like talking to someone I have known for years, and she answered the questions to the point. This will be a two part interview, because she was such a joy to talk to. I wanted to learn about Kelly's amazing life she has been living T for fifteen years now. Her voice is sweet and soothing. She speaks eloquently and clear. She was an amazing woman to talk to, read the interview and you will see what I mean!
TL: Thank you Miss Shore for granting us this interview with your busy schedule. We wanted someone that has lived the life as a transsexual and really experienced it in all ways. I would say you have being that you have lived as a woman since twelve and attending high school then college as yourself. We wanted someone that could give wisdom to our readers on transitioning, dating, and life in general. We thank you from all of the staff for doing this.
KS: Seriously, its my pleasure. I have done many interviews about my life over the years and think its a story to be learned from at least thats what I hope to do when I tell it. I want to reach as many in the transgender community as well as outside our community. I want to break barriers by educating not fighting. I believe being candid about who you are and what things you do in your everyday life can change people's minds slowly but surely. Thank you for giving me the Oppurtunity to do this again!
TL: We wouldn't of had it any other way you were our first choice. You were famous in the transgender community before your porn days. You did activism for years right?
KS: Yes, once I fought the high school I attended in El Paso, Illinois to allow me to live as my needed self I told myself I was going to help others. I didn't think it was fair, education should be given to every child. They were trying to make it impossible for me, so I knew the same thing was happening to other kids. I was a transgender activist at the age of 17. I became the first transgender secretary of St. PETE PRIDE in 2006 when I lived in Florida. We beat out Ft Lauderdale for the largest PRIDE. I not only helped put on the event, I also hosted the event for entertainment and brought talent in. At the time I was working for a transgender owned and operated Laser Center and Hormone therapy. I have always had that need to fight for others that can't.
TL: You are a true inpiration. You have had a very normal life for such a young transitioner. You have helped out countless of other students and peers of yours for better rights. You have done so many good things for the community. Now comes the tough question. Please don't be offended, but what made you turn to the dark side as some might say? Porn.
KS: Yes the dark side. That it is said to be by so many. I've even recently been invited to do guest speaking at colleges and conferences, but once they found out what my current job is they will cancel on me. God knows I have nothing good to say now that I'm a 'dirty pornstar' Its quite sad to act so uppity up when so many transgender women are in the sex industry. Why? Because it doesn't discriminate, however that wasn't the reason I got into it. I got into it for the mere fact I was working 9 to 5 jobs for years. I was doing everything right. At the end of the month though I never had enough money to save or scrimp for surgeries I yearned for and needed to be happy. I got into it for just that to make the money for my transition. Not that I hate the job.
TL: Do you think some may think that self indulgent?
KS: Well if they do, I can't stop them from thinking that. I can only do what is right for me at the end of the day. This was the answer I had to pay for my surgeries. I'm not saying its the right answer for everyone, but it was my answer. You are probably gonna ask if I regret it. The answer would be definitely not. I have had the oppurtunity to get closer to how I want to look in the mirror on the outside at such a young age. I am grateful for that. I am also grateful, because some of the fans are just wonderful people. I have had some pretty awesome oppurtunities and have a few more coming up that will be life changing.
TL: How has porn changed your life?
KS: Well I am much busier of course. I get a lot more mail. [she hahas] I travel a lot more. I have gotten closer to my look so that part has made me happy. The part that makes me sad is how it affects relationships. The pre-judgement you get. Not being able to have the same privacy as before is a tough one for me at times. Dating life is already scary enough without being someone that can be so accessable online and being recognized in public while you are on a date is just horrible.
TL: So what advice would you give to our readers on guys?
KS: I have been in several long term relationships. My longest was five years. It was high school love that ended 3 years after high school. I would say I am more of a relationship type girl. When I look for a guy. I look of course for someone my age, someone I can speak to, and hopefully someone thats proud to be with me as I am him. I think thats the toughest part of finding a guy that will accept you in all lights. I want a best friend as well as a lover. My advice would be to hold out sometimes. Don't change yourself for any man. If he wants you to change or be someone else he really isn't in love with the real you. I see so many trans-women do this just as well as women in general If you want a long lasting relationship find a guy that wants the real you! A man thats proud to be on your arm! Someone you can talk to always about anything and just enjoy time with them. Otherwise your relationship is doomed in the first place.
TL: Good solid advice, what about the guys that give out that facade?
KS: Well I always think we have this little voice in our head as women that tell us there is something wrong. That this guy isn't being real, its just if we decide to pay attention to that voice inside our head. I know I have been guilty of not listening and have gotten hurt due to it. Then you beat yourself up more, because the answer was already right in front of you and you allowed it to happen. So ladies pay attention to those feelings! Its our weapon against broken hearts!
TL: I know exactly what you mean. You are very wise on this Miss Shore. Would you say dating life is harder now for you?
KS: Please call me Kelly! I feel so old when you call me that. [hahas again] Not to mention its so formal. Yes, I would say so. Dating is hard enough with out the porn and fame aspect. Its hard being stealth with a guy when your face is plastered on dvds and the internet. I do not date guys that won't take me out in public or to functions, but I will date guys that don't want other people to know my T. Its noones business but ours anyways. I find the hardest thing is with the porn aspect. You find a great guy. He is really into you. You get along great, and then one day you see him or you come over and all of a sudden he is acting differently. Why??? He watched one of your porns. He doesn't realize how it would affect him until he watches that first porn. Your relationship is pretty much over then. In the last year its what has ended my relationships. I of course pick up and move on, but you still feel the pain.
TL: Thats so sad, why do you think they watch?
KS: Curiosity gets the better of them. Maybe they are testing to see how much they care about you. Who knows, but if any single eligible guys are reading this that want to date! Word of advice don't watch my vids!
TL: Would you say you are looking for a boyfriend?
KS: I would say yes and no. I miss being in a relationship and everything that comes with it. I just got out of a relationship and I am still emotional at times from it. It was one of those relationships you were chasing after. I tend to do that. I'm a hopeless romantic. I have no hard feelings toward the guy it was just a hopeless situation. We were two fools in love. Trying to make the impossible happen. That sounds harsh! You know what I mean though.
TL: Yes I do. I have chased a few relationships in my lifetime. Those are the relationships that can tear you up the most. If you were looking for a guy what would he have to be?
KS: Being 27 now my views on men have changed. I want a guy that is of course attractive but he doesn't have to be a model. I would prefer him in shape, because I take care of my own body. I do prefer Italian men I have always seemed to date them along the way. Something about those dark looks are attractive to me and great butts. Like I said though I want someone that is my best friend as well as lover. I want the boyscout, the hero, the one that isn't afraid to be romantic. I really love chivarly, its died over the years. I want the guy that wants to go out and do stuff. I want the guy that isn't ashamed of me. I could never date a guy where I was his secret. I don't know how girls do it. Where all you do is stay in each others homes, don't go on dates, don't do couple things. Why, because his friends and family might find out. I am not that type of girl. I am 27 like I said I am looking for my Mr. Right. I have dated plenty of mr wrongs over the years. Mostly frat boys or someone in the service and they gave me nothing but trouble, but they always seem to be the ones that hit on me at the clubs ya know? I told my friend I will have to scold myself from now on even if they are attracted and seem perfect at the time.
TL: You seem to know exactly what you want so thats the first step lady. Kelly do you ever feel insecure being a pornstar I am sure you get compliments left and right.
KS: YES YES YES omg YES. I am definitely insecure at times. These last two months especially. Ususally I am not, but I have been going through those life changes. They make you feel insecure as hell. I have had other personal stuff and surgeries coming up that I will not share at this time, but maybe on the next interview. I think everyone is insecure. How to deal with it is realizing that! Trust you aren't the only person that got a pimple on a first date. You aren't the only one that has gained a few pounds. I don't ever try to play the victim act. My momma taught me better than that. She made me strong and determined. Confidence though can't be bought, it must be learned. By that I mean, If you feel unconfident. Change it. Don't be scared to sit in the mirror naked and tell yourself how beautiful you are. Eventually it will ingrain in your mind. Don't let the outter world define who you are or make you feel awful. Its something that is very hard to avoid when your face is out there, but I always try to believe in myself or I go to my friends and they always make me feel better. I need this especially on those days that you think you are looking hot for a shoot and then the pics come out and you are like ugh what happen? Yeah those days are the worst sometimes, because you know you don't look like that in person. People believe what they see in pics though, so using that therapuetic tool of mine always lifts my spirits.
TL: Do you really do that? Stand in the mirror naked and tell yourself you're beautiful?
KS: Hell yes I do. Who else is gonna tell you are beautiful, if you don't tell yourself first. I dance around naked after I get out of the shower, I sing, I cut up, and then I stand in front of the mirror and compliment myself. It keeps me going. I think its therapuetic.
TL: You heard it here first, everyone after your next shower, try this let me know! I will tonight and let you know Kelly.
KS: Awesome please do, I know it works! It takes a few times though. Its not an overnight fix, however when you repeat things like this to yourself over and over again you start believing it. Thats the important part believing in you.
TL: Is there anything else you would like to say to the readers before we close?
KS: Yes, transitioning is the hardest step you will take. Its a long road, and not to be taken lightly. Always remember to have a support system whether it be with friends, family, or a counselor. Its a tough burden to carry every day. You will always be clocked for your T sometimes no matter how beautiful you are. No matter how much you think you pass. So always remember that. Don't make it a competition, you'll just hurt yourself in the end. Stay grounded. Be you, being you is the most beautiful thing that you can do for yourself and mind. Lastly don't be afraid to take chances and live your life for you. Some call it selfishness, I call it being smart. Life is short and you only got one life. Do it how you want the first time! Good luck to all my transgender sisters on all their endeavors, their relationships, and their lives. Remember this don't back down, because someone else doesn't agree with you. You can only tell yourself whats right for you in your life! Don't be a sheep! Don't be a follower, be a leader! I know you have it in you!
TL: Great words Kelly! We want to thank you so much for doing this interview, you were a joy to interview. We will talk to you soon right? Thanks for being friendly, outgoing, and candid with your answers. These kind of interviews are the ones I enjoy the most!
KS: No problemo Amy, it was a pleasure. I love doing anything I can for my community and my sisters. I think we all need to be more sisterly and stop the hate against one another. There is enough discrimination out there with out us bringing each other down. Bye ya'll too, it was great letting the cat out of the bag for all of you! I mean what I said be you, be true, and you will always be beautiful. Definitely, anytime I can't wait till the next installment.
TL: Thank you beautiful words to end on. Kelly Shore can be seen at www.kellyshore.net and many other numerous websites on the web. As you can see she is not only beautiful but has a beautiful heart.
Transgender Actitvist turn pornstar Kelly Shore gives us a candid no holds bar interview. We caught up with Miss Shore in San Francisco while she was filming for sites. Talking to Miss Shore was a treat. She is bubbly, bright, friendly, and inviting. It was like talking to someone I have known for years, and she answered the questions to the point. This will be a two part interview, because she was such a joy to talk to. I wanted to learn about Kelly's amazing life she has been living T for fifteen years now. Her voice is sweet and soothing. She speaks eloquently and clear. She was an amazing woman to talk to, read the interview and you will see what I mean!
TL: Thank you Miss Shore for granting us this interview with your busy schedule. We wanted someone that has lived the life as a transsexual and really experienced it in all ways. I would say you have being that you have lived as a woman since twelve and attending high school then college as yourself. We wanted someone that could give wisdom to our readers on transitioning, dating, and life in general. We thank you from all of the staff for doing this.
KS: Seriously, its my pleasure. I have done many interviews about my life over the years and think its a story to be learned from at least thats what I hope to do when I tell it. I want to reach as many in the transgender community as well as outside our community. I want to break barriers by educating not fighting. I believe being candid about who you are and what things you do in your everyday life can change people's minds slowly but surely. Thank you for giving me the Oppurtunity to do this again!
TL: We wouldn't of had it any other way you were our first choice. You were famous in the transgender community before your porn days. You did activism for years right?
KS: Yes, once I fought the high school I attended in El Paso, Illinois to allow me to live as my needed self I told myself I was going to help others. I didn't think it was fair, education should be given to every child. They were trying to make it impossible for me, so I knew the same thing was happening to other kids. I was a transgender activist at the age of 17. I became the first transgender secretary of St. PETE PRIDE in 2006 when I lived in Florida. We beat out Ft Lauderdale for the largest PRIDE. I not only helped put on the event, I also hosted the event for entertainment and brought talent in. At the time I was working for a transgender owned and operated Laser Center and Hormone therapy. I have always had that need to fight for others that can't.
TL: You are a true inpiration. You have had a very normal life for such a young transitioner. You have helped out countless of other students and peers of yours for better rights. You have done so many good things for the community. Now comes the tough question. Please don't be offended, but what made you turn to the dark side as some might say? Porn.
KS: Yes the dark side. That it is said to be by so many. I've even recently been invited to do guest speaking at colleges and conferences, but once they found out what my current job is they will cancel on me. God knows I have nothing good to say now that I'm a 'dirty pornstar' Its quite sad to act so uppity up when so many transgender women are in the sex industry. Why? Because it doesn't discriminate, however that wasn't the reason I got into it. I got into it for the mere fact I was working 9 to 5 jobs for years. I was doing everything right. At the end of the month though I never had enough money to save or scrimp for surgeries I yearned for and needed to be happy. I got into it for just that to make the money for my transition. Not that I hate the job.
TL: Do you think some may think that self indulgent?
KS: Well if they do, I can't stop them from thinking that. I can only do what is right for me at the end of the day. This was the answer I had to pay for my surgeries. I'm not saying its the right answer for everyone, but it was my answer. You are probably gonna ask if I regret it. The answer would be definitely not. I have had the oppurtunity to get closer to how I want to look in the mirror on the outside at such a young age. I am grateful for that. I am also grateful, because some of the fans are just wonderful people. I have had some pretty awesome oppurtunities and have a few more coming up that will be life changing.
TL: How has porn changed your life?
KS: Well I am much busier of course. I get a lot more mail. [she hahas] I travel a lot more. I have gotten closer to my look so that part has made me happy. The part that makes me sad is how it affects relationships. The pre-judgement you get. Not being able to have the same privacy as before is a tough one for me at times. Dating life is already scary enough without being someone that can be so accessable online and being recognized in public while you are on a date is just horrible.
TL: So what advice would you give to our readers on guys?
KS: I have been in several long term relationships. My longest was five years. It was high school love that ended 3 years after high school. I would say I am more of a relationship type girl. When I look for a guy. I look of course for someone my age, someone I can speak to, and hopefully someone thats proud to be with me as I am him. I think thats the toughest part of finding a guy that will accept you in all lights. I want a best friend as well as a lover. My advice would be to hold out sometimes. Don't change yourself for any man. If he wants you to change or be someone else he really isn't in love with the real you. I see so many trans-women do this just as well as women in general If you want a long lasting relationship find a guy that wants the real you! A man thats proud to be on your arm! Someone you can talk to always about anything and just enjoy time with them. Otherwise your relationship is doomed in the first place.
TL: Good solid advice, what about the guys that give out that facade?
KS: Well I always think we have this little voice in our head as women that tell us there is something wrong. That this guy isn't being real, its just if we decide to pay attention to that voice inside our head. I know I have been guilty of not listening and have gotten hurt due to it. Then you beat yourself up more, because the answer was already right in front of you and you allowed it to happen. So ladies pay attention to those feelings! Its our weapon against broken hearts!
TL: I know exactly what you mean. You are very wise on this Miss Shore. Would you say dating life is harder now for you?
KS: Please call me Kelly! I feel so old when you call me that. [hahas again] Not to mention its so formal. Yes, I would say so. Dating is hard enough with out the porn and fame aspect. Its hard being stealth with a guy when your face is plastered on dvds and the internet. I do not date guys that won't take me out in public or to functions, but I will date guys that don't want other people to know my T. Its noones business but ours anyways. I find the hardest thing is with the porn aspect. You find a great guy. He is really into you. You get along great, and then one day you see him or you come over and all of a sudden he is acting differently. Why??? He watched one of your porns. He doesn't realize how it would affect him until he watches that first porn. Your relationship is pretty much over then. In the last year its what has ended my relationships. I of course pick up and move on, but you still feel the pain.
TL: Thats so sad, why do you think they watch?
KS: Curiosity gets the better of them. Maybe they are testing to see how much they care about you. Who knows, but if any single eligible guys are reading this that want to date! Word of advice don't watch my vids!
TL: Would you say you are looking for a boyfriend?
KS: I would say yes and no. I miss being in a relationship and everything that comes with it. I just got out of a relationship and I am still emotional at times from it. It was one of those relationships you were chasing after. I tend to do that. I'm a hopeless romantic. I have no hard feelings toward the guy it was just a hopeless situation. We were two fools in love. Trying to make the impossible happen. That sounds harsh! You know what I mean though.
TL: Yes I do. I have chased a few relationships in my lifetime. Those are the relationships that can tear you up the most. If you were looking for a guy what would he have to be?
KS: Being 27 now my views on men have changed. I want a guy that is of course attractive but he doesn't have to be a model. I would prefer him in shape, because I take care of my own body. I do prefer Italian men I have always seemed to date them along the way. Something about those dark looks are attractive to me and great butts. Like I said though I want someone that is my best friend as well as lover. I want the boyscout, the hero, the one that isn't afraid to be romantic. I really love chivarly, its died over the years. I want the guy that wants to go out and do stuff. I want the guy that isn't ashamed of me. I could never date a guy where I was his secret. I don't know how girls do it. Where all you do is stay in each others homes, don't go on dates, don't do couple things. Why, because his friends and family might find out. I am not that type of girl. I am 27 like I said I am looking for my Mr. Right. I have dated plenty of mr wrongs over the years. Mostly frat boys or someone in the service and they gave me nothing but trouble, but they always seem to be the ones that hit on me at the clubs ya know? I told my friend I will have to scold myself from now on even if they are attracted and seem perfect at the time.
TL: You seem to know exactly what you want so thats the first step lady. Kelly do you ever feel insecure being a pornstar I am sure you get compliments left and right.
KS: YES YES YES omg YES. I am definitely insecure at times. These last two months especially. Ususally I am not, but I have been going through those life changes. They make you feel insecure as hell. I have had other personal stuff and surgeries coming up that I will not share at this time, but maybe on the next interview. I think everyone is insecure. How to deal with it is realizing that! Trust you aren't the only person that got a pimple on a first date. You aren't the only one that has gained a few pounds. I don't ever try to play the victim act. My momma taught me better than that. She made me strong and determined. Confidence though can't be bought, it must be learned. By that I mean, If you feel unconfident. Change it. Don't be scared to sit in the mirror naked and tell yourself how beautiful you are. Eventually it will ingrain in your mind. Don't let the outter world define who you are or make you feel awful. Its something that is very hard to avoid when your face is out there, but I always try to believe in myself or I go to my friends and they always make me feel better. I need this especially on those days that you think you are looking hot for a shoot and then the pics come out and you are like ugh what happen? Yeah those days are the worst sometimes, because you know you don't look like that in person. People believe what they see in pics though, so using that therapuetic tool of mine always lifts my spirits.
TL: Do you really do that? Stand in the mirror naked and tell yourself you're beautiful?
KS: Hell yes I do. Who else is gonna tell you are beautiful, if you don't tell yourself first. I dance around naked after I get out of the shower, I sing, I cut up, and then I stand in front of the mirror and compliment myself. It keeps me going. I think its therapuetic.
TL: You heard it here first, everyone after your next shower, try this let me know! I will tonight and let you know Kelly.
KS: Awesome please do, I know it works! It takes a few times though. Its not an overnight fix, however when you repeat things like this to yourself over and over again you start believing it. Thats the important part believing in you.
TL: Is there anything else you would like to say to the readers before we close?
KS: Yes, transitioning is the hardest step you will take. Its a long road, and not to be taken lightly. Always remember to have a support system whether it be with friends, family, or a counselor. Its a tough burden to carry every day. You will always be clocked for your T sometimes no matter how beautiful you are. No matter how much you think you pass. So always remember that. Don't make it a competition, you'll just hurt yourself in the end. Stay grounded. Be you, being you is the most beautiful thing that you can do for yourself and mind. Lastly don't be afraid to take chances and live your life for you. Some call it selfishness, I call it being smart. Life is short and you only got one life. Do it how you want the first time! Good luck to all my transgender sisters on all their endeavors, their relationships, and their lives. Remember this don't back down, because someone else doesn't agree with you. You can only tell yourself whats right for you in your life! Don't be a sheep! Don't be a follower, be a leader! I know you have it in you!
TL: Great words Kelly! We want to thank you so much for doing this interview, you were a joy to interview. We will talk to you soon right? Thanks for being friendly, outgoing, and candid with your answers. These kind of interviews are the ones I enjoy the most!
KS: No problemo Amy, it was a pleasure. I love doing anything I can for my community and my sisters. I think we all need to be more sisterly and stop the hate against one another. There is enough discrimination out there with out us bringing each other down. Bye ya'll too, it was great letting the cat out of the bag for all of you! I mean what I said be you, be true, and you will always be beautiful. Definitely, anytime I can't wait till the next installment.
TL: Thank you beautiful words to end on. Kelly Shore can be seen at www.kellyshore.net and many other numerous websites on the web. As you can see she is not only beautiful but has a beautiful heart.