Cathy
03-08-2009, 05:25 PM
My story and my feelings are something I've wanted to put out there for a long time. I have been concerned about some of the comments I might receive but decided that I would follow my usual idea that honesty truly is the best policy.
I am a man in my mid 50's but am told that I look mid to late 40's. I began to crossdress when I was a child. I thought something was wrong with me, but it made me feel so good! I also knew and still do, that I have no attraction to men and so this became even more confusing to me.
I kept this secret until my second marriage and then shared my desires with my wife. She was receptive and finally I could crossdress from head to toe and what a great feeling that was. The hightlight of this was one night when I was in Manhattan and she dressed me up and we both went to the bar at the Waldorf Astoria for a couple of hours. I was elated!
Another exiting period is when I would dress up to the nines (very passable also) and have sex with her. The feeling was fantastic.
For quite some time, I believed that if I could live my life over, I would transform to a T-girl. Again, I had confused feelings as I still did not like the idea of being with a man and so this did not make much sense.
After about 3 years of doing this with my wife. Our sexual encounters with me dressed up would include me sucking or getting fucked by her with a dildo. I could not believe the enjoyment this brought to me. I then on a few occasions watched some tranny porn. The level of excitement and arousal was incredible.
I live in a relatively small region in upstate, NY and there are no real resources to be with T-Girls. On occasion, I travel for business and when going to NY or Chicago, I sought out TG/TV escorts. The good experiences were exquisit and the bad ones were still exciting.
What I have learned is that the crossdressing was a substitute for what was missing from my life.
Now I know that if I were younger and lived in a more metropolitan area, my search for a partner would be a T-Girl. For me that is the best of all worlds.
My advice to men with my kind of story is to go for what you want regardless of the opinions of others. My advice to T-Girls is that you should not act like men with tits, nor should you act like women today as they have ruined it for themselves. You should be a woman with a femine and more traditional nurturing approach. You will win over many modern men this way. There are others out there like me that want a good woman in their lives that they can build a solid relationship with.
What do I hope for now at this point in my life? Quite frankly, I would be ecstatic to be able to find T-Girls to socialize with when I have the opportunity to travel. While it is fine to get an escort for an hour or two, it is not the same as being able to sit, laugh and share together. Am I opposed to that leading to or being involved sexually....no, not at all. In fact that would be a wonderful bonus as there is not a moment of any day that passes that I don't have at least fleeting thought of being penetrated by an attractive woman or kneeling in front of her having the opportunity of pleasing her orally. This reality would be a welcome relief from my daily struggles with only having this as my fantasy.
Thanks for letting me finally air my thought and feelings. I have been fortunate to have been with several wonderful TG escorts over the past few years. My memories of those times will never fade.
Cathy........I appreciate having had this forum to vent and share and hope it is received in the spriit in which it was intended...Thanks!
I am a man in my mid 50's but am told that I look mid to late 40's. I began to crossdress when I was a child. I thought something was wrong with me, but it made me feel so good! I also knew and still do, that I have no attraction to men and so this became even more confusing to me.
I kept this secret until my second marriage and then shared my desires with my wife. She was receptive and finally I could crossdress from head to toe and what a great feeling that was. The hightlight of this was one night when I was in Manhattan and she dressed me up and we both went to the bar at the Waldorf Astoria for a couple of hours. I was elated!
Another exiting period is when I would dress up to the nines (very passable also) and have sex with her. The feeling was fantastic.
For quite some time, I believed that if I could live my life over, I would transform to a T-girl. Again, I had confused feelings as I still did not like the idea of being with a man and so this did not make much sense.
After about 3 years of doing this with my wife. Our sexual encounters with me dressed up would include me sucking or getting fucked by her with a dildo. I could not believe the enjoyment this brought to me. I then on a few occasions watched some tranny porn. The level of excitement and arousal was incredible.
I live in a relatively small region in upstate, NY and there are no real resources to be with T-Girls. On occasion, I travel for business and when going to NY or Chicago, I sought out TG/TV escorts. The good experiences were exquisit and the bad ones were still exciting.
What I have learned is that the crossdressing was a substitute for what was missing from my life.
Now I know that if I were younger and lived in a more metropolitan area, my search for a partner would be a T-Girl. For me that is the best of all worlds.
My advice to men with my kind of story is to go for what you want regardless of the opinions of others. My advice to T-Girls is that you should not act like men with tits, nor should you act like women today as they have ruined it for themselves. You should be a woman with a femine and more traditional nurturing approach. You will win over many modern men this way. There are others out there like me that want a good woman in their lives that they can build a solid relationship with.
What do I hope for now at this point in my life? Quite frankly, I would be ecstatic to be able to find T-Girls to socialize with when I have the opportunity to travel. While it is fine to get an escort for an hour or two, it is not the same as being able to sit, laugh and share together. Am I opposed to that leading to or being involved sexually....no, not at all. In fact that would be a wonderful bonus as there is not a moment of any day that passes that I don't have at least fleeting thought of being penetrated by an attractive woman or kneeling in front of her having the opportunity of pleasing her orally. This reality would be a welcome relief from my daily struggles with only having this as my fantasy.
Thanks for letting me finally air my thought and feelings. I have been fortunate to have been with several wonderful TG escorts over the past few years. My memories of those times will never fade.
Cathy........I appreciate having had this forum to vent and share and hope it is received in the spriit in which it was intended...Thanks!