My Life- a bit of it at least.

[jesseflo]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.

[flabbybody]

thx for posting this jess
I need to read it a few times to take it all in

[keepingitreal470]

Dont come a knockin when the rv is rockin. tsseduction

[jesseflo]

Dont come a knockin when the rv is rockin. tsseduction

lol gotta love it. :D

[Ts CinthyaNY]

Girl I feel you , I believe we all struggle trough our life and so far you been taking where it's coming to you and made the right decision.

You have accomplish many of the thing you have dream. Congratulation in all of that , and keep loving your parents, it's hard to find understanding and loving parents in all cases ..
Blessings...

[ARMANIXXX]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.


Where are you from originally, jesseflo?

[lupinIII]

You've come a long, long way, through hardships a lot of us couldn't even conceive, and you were almost always alone during these struggles. What makes you even more amazing though, is that you've come through, still holding onto the desire to live your life. You're freakin' invincible. Congrats. You're an incredible woman.

[msbhaven]

Jesse,

I think it's a wonderful thing that you were able to share all of that with us. Being open about who you are can be one of the hardest things to do when so many are ready to tear you down and humilate you for doing so. I think you have a lot of courage to live a life that other's might not approve of but that makes you happy. I look up to girls like you as role models for the kind of person I should strive to be in my own life. I think it's a shame that you don't feel like you have many friends. Even though we may be seperated by many miles I don't think I am alone in saying that I would be honered to call a girl like you my friend.

Hugs,
Ashlee

[jesseflo]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic. anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully. ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life. how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.


Where are you from originally, jesseflo?

im originally from a town called norco here in california, also much love to lupinIII and msbhaven. your comments make me smile and i appreciate it

[barefootjoe69]

Jesseflo,
You are a very beautiful girl .
Anyone that says otherwise is either a fool, jealous or blind.

[yodajazz]

well first off the life of a transsexual is quite a long and lonely hard life. i grew up in a city where there were none.-none i ever saw at least. so for me growing up i would go out places with my mom as a child and everyone would tell my mom what a beautiful daughter she had, and to me i was like like cool im beautiful.lol. but then mom would correct them by saying "daughter? thats my son" lol. very embarassing to me cause then the person would be all appoligetic.

anyways as life went on school was no very fun but i was happy to go as i loved to learn and was very smart(told ya i was a nerd.lol),also it got me outta the house and growing up very very poor i got outta the house at every opportunity i got. but the flipside of school was also a hell for me as i was constantly teased and taunted from 1st grade all the way til senior year. a long time to deal with shit. i mainly got the shit cause here i was looking like a girl-even though i did not wear makeup or anything girly i still looked like a girl-and here i was in the boys line or in the boys lockerroom(fun for me.lol) so people didnt know what to think of me.boys loved me secretly but when people were around they would call me names or be mean to me. as time went on i would suffer lots of painful experiences from school including severl rapes and even a gang rape. i was to scared to do anything about it so i never did. but its in the past for me as i try not to think about it anymore.when i told my parents that im a girl now my moms reaction was"DUH!" lol, she knew thats what i was really as thats how i acted,looked and was seen by others . so my mom and dad were always supportive and never judged me on anything ive done as im the good girl.lol

after i graduated high school with honors i lived with my first serious boyfriend who i lived with for 3 yrs but i felt unfulfilled in our relationship as i felt like a servant (both sexual and maidlike)and i felt like an experiment so when i finally had enough i left him and went through MANY boyfriends.lol. alot of the time being used and lied to by guys pretending the were after my heart but they just wanted a fantasy experience,which over time made me a lil bit wary of boyfriends.during my life ive delt with lots of bad feelings like depression,self doubt,disliking my face(thinking i need to change it and make it look better)and even suicide on several attempts(though i dont do that anymore-as i want to live and hopefully accomplish a better happier life and my new site helped get me one more step to that)

hearing from all the wonderful fans has helped me feel better about myself and love myself a lil bit more than i did.ive always been very shy(i know a shy pornstar?) but i am as in my personal life i have no friends or anyone to hang out or care about me,so im alone alot. but i do love animals so ive got quite a few(insert crazy cat lady joke.lol)i have thought maybe surgery would make me more confident to make friends and feel better about going out in public(as i dont go out much as i feel like ill be made fun of-years of being made fun of in school may have helped me get like that.lol) but ive gotten better and even go out with no makeup on and am fine.its a slow process of self love and accomplishments and they are coming to me thankfully.

ive worked real hard to get a better life and to help those around me, as i have for my parent who are still very poor,so due to my job i help them out whenever they need it and take care of them.so when i told my parents that im a porstar they didnt even bat a lash-no big deal to them they knew i was safe and making right descisions.lol. cant say that about men but at least in the rest of my life.

how did i get into porn? well i had been contacted by a webcam company to perform for them and i did it but it was just me sitting at home j/o a bit -done. then another company contacted me to do a adult film and i wasnt sure at first but then one of my cats got very sick and needed a expensive operation(gotta love vet bills.lol) so since i needed the money i decided to do my first film and web site shoot for Shemale yum.... to be continued.

Thank you so much for your life story. I wish that people outside of the trans community could hear these stories more. Then they would better understand, and treat trans people more humanely.

While I really do respect you for telling your story, I think that paragraph breaks would make it easier to read, and grasp your thoughts. I took the liberty to put some in, in order to show you, and see what you think. It's too bad that this forum does not take paragraph indentions. The only way you can make paragraphs here, is to skip a line.

Do not take it as a judgment on your writing, I'm doing it out of love. You said something about helping people around you. I consider my little edit something like that. And I want to say, that helping others is a key to overall happiness. I think some of the kids who were mean to you as a kid, were themselves afraid and insecure. They pick with others to take attention away from themselves. Or the main way they could feel ok about themselves, was to find faults in someone else. You are on the right path, just keep living and keep trying to be better. You will get there.

[Star Angel 86]

Jesse,what a touching story,in some aspects I can relate having an up and down life myself,in your case you seem like you have come out of all of these negative experiences a better person .In my short time posting on this forum I feel I know you somewhat because you are such a friendly person,I also feel this forum is better when you're part of it.Just keep a positive attitude good things are bound to come your way.Jesse, you are a wonderful person.. :)

[scroller]

Respect.

[milehightslove]

jesse could you go more in detail about the rapes and gang rapes you endured?

[keepingitreal470]

Dont come a knockin when the rv is rockin. tsseduction

lol gotta love it. :DYeah, its one of my favorite lines from a porno Jessie. I also liked what I was looking at when that line was said. I think thats why it stands out to me. lol

[keepingitreal470]

jesse could you go more in detail about the rapes and gang rapes you endured?Dude, what kind of fucking question is that to ask someone? What are you a shrink? NO. Some sick cock chasing fuck? Probably. Damm chasers just dont know what the fuck to say sometimes. :smh :smh

[DL_NL]

Geez, you got a raw deal so far Jesse! I really hope that from here on, your life will be more fun. You're a beautiful, smart and nice young woman who deserves a break in life.

[tommy80]

jesse could you go more in detail about the rapes and gang rapes you endured?

WTF? Does that turn you on in some way? If yes, it´s disgusting!

It brings tears to my eyes just to think about that that shit ever happened to such a wonderful girl like Jesse.

I already told you Jesse, that you are a role model for me. You live your life and your dream, no matter what shit you´ve been through. I´m so damn proud of you and you have such a big heart.

Love you forever, Angel!

[mikejones]

Jesse, from reading this and other of your recent posts, I can see that you have a beautiful personality. You have come through many hardships without becoming bitter or jaded.

At one time, I only knew who you were from your movies. But now you have shared more of your real life with us, and you are a truly amazing person, both inside and out.

Thanks for sharing. Hope you are not lonely for long.

[austinjohn1]

Ive dealt with rape personally before, my cousin ran 2 miles to where i was living at the time after being raped and burnt with cigarettes and forced injections of cocaine. it was very traumatic for me seeing her like that and thinking to myself why no one helped her as she ran down the street with her cloths torn and burn marks on her face and arms, I can only imagine how it must of been for her, and for you. some People have no thoughts about their actions or how it makes others feel, sorry to hear about that happening to you Jesse :(.

[baileyandkc]

I especially like the " never give up " attitude :D

Your only transgression is cats and not DOGS! :cry:

Old Yeller forgives you!

[vman2375]

wow! don't think anyone would have thought ur past was that traumatic. for u to come through it in one piece and looking foward to better things is so admirable.ur just as beautiful on the inside!! stay well

[MrsKellyPierce]

Jesse you have to look at it as this has made you the person you are today, I feel so priviledged to of met you. Most t-girls are a little wacko and I loved you from the moment I met you! You have an awesome spirit!

Love

Kelly

[harlemzfinest]

ever since I saw you in an early shemale strokers video I have always been excited to see any future projects from you. you are a beautiful person inside and out and I am honered to read your thoughts on this board.

[artemis2085]

Jesseflo,
You are a very beautiful girl .
Anyone that says otherwise is either a fool, jealous or blind.

No question about that. You have a look that draws people to you. Or at least I can only speak for myself.

Nothing wrong with leggy, blonde and beautiful. Plus a very endearing smile.

The cool thing about the American Dream is that everyone is entitled to it and can make it into whatever they want. You've made it happen for yourself.

My hats off...

[Chaingunner]

jesse could you go more in detail about the rapes and gang rapes you endured?

Quality post man...dumbass. You dont go asking people such a prying question when they have shared all they feel they want to.

To Jesse, keep doing what you are doing girl and keep bettering yourself as a person. You are loved and never forget that.

[Niccolo]

CG,

Let's give the fellow the benefit of the doubt, Jesse's statement is psychologically striking when you read it, and your first response upon reading it is to think, what the F happened? Giving voice to that thought is impolite, okay, but maybe the guy wants to know ... oh I don't know ... names. Let's just assume the guy lives in America. They have firearms over there ... and baseball bats ... and he wants to know their names .. 2 + 2 = .... 4?

Let's cut the guy some slack, maybe his heart's in the right place. Not that I would encourage Jesse to tell him any more than she already has, and I certainly wouldn't encourage him, or anyone else, to act upon such knowledge even if she did. But maybe the guy just saw the red mist for a minute there .. know what I mean?

[Felicia Katt]

Jesse, you know you have at least one friend anytime you are in LA :)

FK

[ted naves]

Well Jesse. I don't know you personally but from what I've read from you and the vibe I gather from it and from seeing you in some movies, I would think that you're an insanely brave and sweet woman whom I wish all the best to.

Writing what you had just written is very beautiful of you and you appear to be making the world a better place every day you're in it.

It's girls like you that deserve to be treated with honor, respect and love.

I try to be a better person myself and it's just one day at a time.

[PatrickFromNYC]

Well Jesse. I don't know you personally but from what I've read from you and the vibe I gather from it and from seeing you in some movies, I would think that you're an insanely brave and sweet woman whom I wish all the best to.

Writing what you had just written is very beautiful of you and you appear to be making the world a better place every day you're in it.

It's girls like you that deserve to be treated with honor, respect and love.

I try to be a better person myself and it's just one day at a time.

I totally agree with all that you said Ted....Hey Jesse we need more sweet,brave, honest and beautiful people (inside and out) like yourself in this troubled world...Be PROUD of yourself...You have earned it...

[transmaven]

Thank you for that touching and honest post, Jesse.

(though it was easier to read in Yoda's version I must admit.) :D

[jesseflo]

thank you to everyone who read and posted responses to my post. i appreciate all ther kind and positive words from everyone. sorry i didnt get to respond to each one as ive been in bed with a cold. feeling much better today though. love to u all! :D

[vman2375]

thank you to everyone who read and posted responses to my post. i appreciate all ther kind and positive words from everyone. sorry i didnt get to respond to each one as ive been in bed with a cold. feeling much better today though. love to u all! :DU REALLY R AS BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE AS OUT!!

[jesseflo]

thank you to everyone who read and posted responses to my post. i appreciate all ther kind and positive words from everyone. sorry i didnt get to respond to each one as ive been in bed with a cold. feeling much better today though. love to u all! :DU REALLY R AS BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE AS OUT!!


aww thank you so much for that comment! :D