dafame
10-21-2008, 08:34 AM
I've got a question and I know it may sound strange but I think that it's an explanation for what part of my attraction to tgirls is.
I've been in a long term committed relationship with a tgirl and prior to that it was a fantasy that I expressed through the normal internet sites which eventually led to a couple of experiences with an escort. That eventually got to a point where it wasn't enough.
I was in a relationship with a gg and found myself spending most of my available time (when she was gone from the house) on the internet looking at pictures or watching shemale porn. What developed was an increasing need to find a tgirl that I could find love with and with whom I could form a very real and meaningful relationship. It consumed my every thought and was increasing difficult to deal with. I guess I can probably equate it to the feelings that a man must have when he has been married to a woman for 10-15 years and has had children with her but has always known that he should have been a woman. I started to find myself losing my attraction for the gg that I was with to the point that it became difficult at time for me to become sexually aroused.
(Getting closer to the point) My relationship with the gg ended (long story not worth going into) as an underline result of the feelings I was having in regards to tgirls. Once this happened I made it my mission to find a girl and I did. We had a live in relationship that lasted a little over a year.
What I found is that I treated her far better than I had ever treated a gg. My point is that after some real hard self examination I've come to realize that although my attraction for her was not directly related to the fact that she had a penis, the way that I treated her was.
I've become aware of the fact that I was extremely turned on by the fact that she had a penis not because of anything I could do with it but more so because I knew that this (please don't take this the wrong way girls) wasn't (genetically) the way it was supposed to work. I found that I got a kick out of coming home with new outfits for her or flowers or jewelry or any of the things that a man may treat his woman to not as much because she was my woman but because genetically she wasn't a woman at all accept in my mind as well as hers. I loved touching her and rubbing her back and kissing her and making her feel safe and protected more so because if nature had worked differently with her, ever so slightly different, she would have been doing those things for a woman as a man.
Does this make any sense to anyone? Can anyone relate to these feelings or does it mean that I'm just very different in my feelings that the rest of the people on this board and my words will just be relegated to the "fag talk section"?
Girls feel free to chime in as well if you've heard anything like this from a guy before.
I've been in a long term committed relationship with a tgirl and prior to that it was a fantasy that I expressed through the normal internet sites which eventually led to a couple of experiences with an escort. That eventually got to a point where it wasn't enough.
I was in a relationship with a gg and found myself spending most of my available time (when she was gone from the house) on the internet looking at pictures or watching shemale porn. What developed was an increasing need to find a tgirl that I could find love with and with whom I could form a very real and meaningful relationship. It consumed my every thought and was increasing difficult to deal with. I guess I can probably equate it to the feelings that a man must have when he has been married to a woman for 10-15 years and has had children with her but has always known that he should have been a woman. I started to find myself losing my attraction for the gg that I was with to the point that it became difficult at time for me to become sexually aroused.
(Getting closer to the point) My relationship with the gg ended (long story not worth going into) as an underline result of the feelings I was having in regards to tgirls. Once this happened I made it my mission to find a girl and I did. We had a live in relationship that lasted a little over a year.
What I found is that I treated her far better than I had ever treated a gg. My point is that after some real hard self examination I've come to realize that although my attraction for her was not directly related to the fact that she had a penis, the way that I treated her was.
I've become aware of the fact that I was extremely turned on by the fact that she had a penis not because of anything I could do with it but more so because I knew that this (please don't take this the wrong way girls) wasn't (genetically) the way it was supposed to work. I found that I got a kick out of coming home with new outfits for her or flowers or jewelry or any of the things that a man may treat his woman to not as much because she was my woman but because genetically she wasn't a woman at all accept in my mind as well as hers. I loved touching her and rubbing her back and kissing her and making her feel safe and protected more so because if nature had worked differently with her, ever so slightly different, she would have been doing those things for a woman as a man.
Does this make any sense to anyone? Can anyone relate to these feelings or does it mean that I'm just very different in my feelings that the rest of the people on this board and my words will just be relegated to the "fag talk section"?
Girls feel free to chime in as well if you've heard anything like this from a guy before.