suckseed
04-28-2007, 12:19 PM
And, no, not the body part.
I had to work a double today. Took a fairly hard spill last night and my back feels like shit right now. At times during the day, i found myself thinking about bullies, assholes, jerks and people with nothing better to do than fuck with others.
I thought about the time two kids nearly managed to smash a frog i brought to school.
I thought about the kid that caught a pet rabbit of mine that escaped her pen and slashed her throat and left her on my back doorstep (my parents caught him dropping the body off.)
I thought about the stories you read where someone burns a puppy or throws a cat out a car window.
And I thought about this asshole who said what he did to Peggy out of the blue.
I'm not an internet tough guy, or particularly proud of myself for what I'm about to say, and I know it's hardly enlightened.
But these people create a desire in me to beat the complete shit out of them. I probably couldn't. But the emotion is there.
Is this unusual?
I don't tend to 'blame God' for bad things that happen, because I think that our anthropomorphized image of a God that spares some and strikes down others makes no sense. It's absurd, yet I retain the belief that there is more to life than what is readily apparent, and I believe in trying to do good and not bad things to others.
Now one can argue that bullies and sadists were abused or raised without loving parents, etc., yet the exceptions to this are many. Not all who are abused grow up to be abusive, and some bullies are raised by normal people.
So do we just chalk it up to whatever, and turn the page?
All I know is I fucking hate whatever it is that drives humans to do fucked up things. And it's ironic that someone like myself, who's never physically hurt anyone, should be able to graphically imagine taking someone out who would hurt an innocent human being or animal. It's admittedly disturbing to me, and it doesn't feel good when it's happening. Ironically, I think I had just said something here about not losing my temper while making some point about the latest kellygate thing, and then Boom! I read what Numbnuts had to say to Peggy, who's never been anything but nice to everyone, and I just lost it.
Am I the only one around here who feels this way?
Sometimes I wonder if Heaven and Hell are constructs by which we imagine some ultimate justice for all the countless shitty things which happen all the time, largely unpunished or even known about.
My higher self simply thinks, "Every problem has a solution..why would anyone choose not to try to be a part of that? How can I help this simple idea to catch on?"
P.S. I find it incredible that religious types that reject the theory of evolution never consider that evolution could be the mechanism by which
Whatever's-out-There's creations are realized. Or that the only alternative to free will is an elaborate puppet show, predetermined and pointless.
Good night.
I had to work a double today. Took a fairly hard spill last night and my back feels like shit right now. At times during the day, i found myself thinking about bullies, assholes, jerks and people with nothing better to do than fuck with others.
I thought about the time two kids nearly managed to smash a frog i brought to school.
I thought about the kid that caught a pet rabbit of mine that escaped her pen and slashed her throat and left her on my back doorstep (my parents caught him dropping the body off.)
I thought about the stories you read where someone burns a puppy or throws a cat out a car window.
And I thought about this asshole who said what he did to Peggy out of the blue.
I'm not an internet tough guy, or particularly proud of myself for what I'm about to say, and I know it's hardly enlightened.
But these people create a desire in me to beat the complete shit out of them. I probably couldn't. But the emotion is there.
Is this unusual?
I don't tend to 'blame God' for bad things that happen, because I think that our anthropomorphized image of a God that spares some and strikes down others makes no sense. It's absurd, yet I retain the belief that there is more to life than what is readily apparent, and I believe in trying to do good and not bad things to others.
Now one can argue that bullies and sadists were abused or raised without loving parents, etc., yet the exceptions to this are many. Not all who are abused grow up to be abusive, and some bullies are raised by normal people.
So do we just chalk it up to whatever, and turn the page?
All I know is I fucking hate whatever it is that drives humans to do fucked up things. And it's ironic that someone like myself, who's never physically hurt anyone, should be able to graphically imagine taking someone out who would hurt an innocent human being or animal. It's admittedly disturbing to me, and it doesn't feel good when it's happening. Ironically, I think I had just said something here about not losing my temper while making some point about the latest kellygate thing, and then Boom! I read what Numbnuts had to say to Peggy, who's never been anything but nice to everyone, and I just lost it.
Am I the only one around here who feels this way?
Sometimes I wonder if Heaven and Hell are constructs by which we imagine some ultimate justice for all the countless shitty things which happen all the time, largely unpunished or even known about.
My higher self simply thinks, "Every problem has a solution..why would anyone choose not to try to be a part of that? How can I help this simple idea to catch on?"
P.S. I find it incredible that religious types that reject the theory of evolution never consider that evolution could be the mechanism by which
Whatever's-out-There's creations are realized. Or that the only alternative to free will is an elaborate puppet show, predetermined and pointless.
Good night.