Confused and not sure what to do

[Mysticcal]

Ok, so I've been looking at transexual / futanari porngraphy for quite awhile, I've alway had a sexual interest in the female body, but seeing an aroused female with a hard cock that I can physically see orgasm.. amazing. I've had a girlfriend for 13 months and she knows of my desires. she's also a tad afraid that i'll leave her for a transexual... I'm just not sure of what I want or desire... maybe I can keep it a fantasy forever... I'd just love to get my girlfriend the reacharound while I do her from behind and make her cum out of a cock... she could even do me..... I think I may just buy her a feldoe..... not sure though

to add to why I think I'm like this is once my parents admitted they physically hit me as a child, I don't remember it but I've heard it can have harmful effects on your sexuality later in life...

Anyone got any advice? I'm really confused

[TomSelis]

Me too....what's a feldoe?

[Mysticcal]

google is your friend :P

http://www.justplainnaughty.co.uk/products/search.asp/keywords=Feldoe

[francisfkudrow]

I really doubt that this feldoe thing would work. It would keep getting out of position without a harness to hold it in place.

[Mysticcal]

eh, then i suppose a strap on will work.... not sure what I want to do.

[Kriss]

I don't think your desires all stem from the childhood experience.
I know people that have certain desires that obviously stem from their first sexual experiences. I really don't know exactly WHY I am attracted to Transexual women, sometimes what we feel isn't logical. It is important not to supress your feelings or desires as they probably won't go away however complicated it may be. I mean, look at the catholic church! Seems like you are honest with your girl and yourself, hope it all works out.

[Mysticcal]

I don't think your desires all stem from the childhood experience. I like to be spanked by a girl as she fucks me and I wasn't even beaten as a child!!??!
I know people that have certain desires that obviously stem from their first sexual experiences. I really don't know exactly WHY I am attracted to Transexual women, sometimes what we feel isn't logical. It is important not to supress your feelings or desires as they probably won't go away however complicated it may be. I mean, look at the catholic church! Seems like you are honest with your girl and yourself, hope it all works out.

Oh how I wish I could go back into last week and not even think about this

I posted an ad on CL explaining my situation, my GF found an email i responded to, here's the jist

her: I want you
myself: got any pics
her: nope, only on my cellphone
myself: I'm really confused, got AIM?

ended there, I didn't send anymore emails nor received anything

basicly, I went looking for sex contributes to cheating. And I didn't come to her first. ARGH, hate my life, I hope I can salvage my relationship, just not sure what to do. TBO I think either she's gonna leave me or we're just gonna end up breaking up

[loki]

Just be true to yourself and decide what you want before you hurt other peoples feelings.

[Caleigh]

word that Loki