LilyRox
03-11-2019, 09:08 PM
Many guys probably wonder how TS girls start their journey or what it's like transitioning as TS. You either swim or drown.
When I was a teenager the first 2 years of highschool I suffered from extreme depression and hated looking at myself. I slept through all my classes and went a full year skipping lunch. I became anorexic and my body never fully developed because of it. The only thing that saved me was music.
It wasn't until I stumbled onto trans porn by accident that I realized why I was unhappy and started my journey transitioning. I became much happier and tried getting my body back to a better weight.
My body suffered for 2 months trying to gain weight before i was at a healthier weight. Anyone that tells people suffering with an eating disorder to just eat can't understand how hard it is. Beyond mental, your stomach becomes so small that eating a couple bites of food makes you feel like someone is stabbing your stomach with a knife. Your stomach is like a rubber band, the smaller it is the more painful when eating because it has less elasticity to stretch out. This is why some need clinical treatment and can be only fed liquids.
The next couple years were the best years of my life. I became pescetarian and developed a passion for exercising while maintaining a specific weight. I became extremely passionate about learning and went to college.
Transitioning is really a start of a completely new life. If you're taking hormones you are also starting your second puberty and having your body redefine itself.
The hardest thing is letting go of everything/everyone you love. The biggest change is losing friends or family because of it. I lost one of my best long term friends because he became a minster and felt that my transition wasn't part of his beliefs so he blocked me. Discrimination is probably the hardest thing to deal with early on. At the start, no one will take you serious. Its even harder to transition if you're of older age.
Another issue is that a lot of trans have financial issues. Surgeries are expensive and many can have problems finding a job. It can be really embarrassing doing interviews as trans and many struggle with that socially, especially early on. One of the worst feelings is going into an interview and wondering if you're going to have to explain anything to them about being trans. Transitioning can also feel impossible if you already have a stable job as your biological sex.
Right now I'm really happy with how far I've come and where I'm going.
I wanted to post this for years, but didn't know where to start or what to cover. Anorexia and suicide attempts are extremely common in the trans community. I will probably do a more in-depth video on this in the future when I start making youtube videos.
When I was a teenager the first 2 years of highschool I suffered from extreme depression and hated looking at myself. I slept through all my classes and went a full year skipping lunch. I became anorexic and my body never fully developed because of it. The only thing that saved me was music.
It wasn't until I stumbled onto trans porn by accident that I realized why I was unhappy and started my journey transitioning. I became much happier and tried getting my body back to a better weight.
My body suffered for 2 months trying to gain weight before i was at a healthier weight. Anyone that tells people suffering with an eating disorder to just eat can't understand how hard it is. Beyond mental, your stomach becomes so small that eating a couple bites of food makes you feel like someone is stabbing your stomach with a knife. Your stomach is like a rubber band, the smaller it is the more painful when eating because it has less elasticity to stretch out. This is why some need clinical treatment and can be only fed liquids.
The next couple years were the best years of my life. I became pescetarian and developed a passion for exercising while maintaining a specific weight. I became extremely passionate about learning and went to college.
Transitioning is really a start of a completely new life. If you're taking hormones you are also starting your second puberty and having your body redefine itself.
The hardest thing is letting go of everything/everyone you love. The biggest change is losing friends or family because of it. I lost one of my best long term friends because he became a minster and felt that my transition wasn't part of his beliefs so he blocked me. Discrimination is probably the hardest thing to deal with early on. At the start, no one will take you serious. Its even harder to transition if you're of older age.
Another issue is that a lot of trans have financial issues. Surgeries are expensive and many can have problems finding a job. It can be really embarrassing doing interviews as trans and many struggle with that socially, especially early on. One of the worst feelings is going into an interview and wondering if you're going to have to explain anything to them about being trans. Transitioning can also feel impossible if you already have a stable job as your biological sex.
Right now I'm really happy with how far I've come and where I'm going.
I wanted to post this for years, but didn't know where to start or what to cover. Anorexia and suicide attempts are extremely common in the trans community. I will probably do a more in-depth video on this in the future when I start making youtube videos.