CONFESSION

[YasminLee]

I GET A LOT OF GUYS ASKING ME IF I BOTTOM. THE ANSWER IS YES. WHEN I START DOING PORN I DID WELL AS A TOP AND SO DIRECTORS SEEMS TO FOCUS ON THAT. THOUGH I LOVE TO TOP, IN MY PERSONAL LIFE, I'M ALL ABOUT JUST HAVING FUN. SO FAR, ALL MY EX BOYFRIEND HAD ALL BEEN TOPS AND I LOVE IT. MY IDEAL GUY SEXUALLY WOULD BE HE MOSTLY TOP BUT WOULDN'T MIND BOTTOMING FOR ME NOW AND THEN.

[Dengoza]

Thats sweet, you seem like a great person in addition to being the sexiest and hottest ts on earth!!!

[YasminLee]

while on the topic of confession...A LITTLE WHILE BACK I MEET SOMEONE AND FEEL IN LOVE. THOUGH WE'RE NOT TOGETHER, I STILL FEEL LIKE I AM. MY HEARTS WANNA CONTINUE WAITING FOR HIM; FOR THAT HUT HE PROMISE TO BUILD ME ONE DAY. MY LOGICAL SENSE TELLS ME TO FIND WAYS TO FORGET HIM AND MOVE ON. HOW DOES ONE PERSON DO THAT THOUGH. FORGET SOMEONE U LOVE. IT'S TRUE TO SAY THAT WHEN U OPEN UP YOUR HURT, PREPARE TO LOVE BUT ALSO THE HEART ACHES.

[Dengoza]

love can be so strong yet so delicate

[blackrob]

damn you're sexy and glad to hear that you like to bottom even though you have a huge dick.

[RangeHova]

It is OK to still love the guy. You just have to find a place to put that love. You have to not let that love hold you back from opening your heart to someone else if it so happens that a special someone comes along.

I don't think you ever stop loving those who you really fall in love with, unless something bad happens. Sometimes even then the love for them still exist in some form.

Don't waste a bit of energy trying to forget the guy (ain't gon happen). Love him and value what he means to you and what made/makes him special. Just don't wait or put your life on hold for the guy. Life your life to the fullest.

[RangeHova]

damn you're sexy and glad to hear that you like to bottom even though you have a huge dick.

OK, your dick is hot and all (actually it's pretty, feminine in a way that few are) but it ain't got nothin on your eyes and that smile. You could have a 2" dick or none at all and those eyes would still pull guys in. I bet you have a real hard time hiding what you feel with those big pretty windows.

[blackrob]

damn you need to let a brotha have some of this baby.

[blackrob]

wow you're sexy as fuck!

[Ponyboy]

Yasmin - I wish I could take away your pain but I dont know how - all I can do is wish you happiness

[Ponyboy]

The funny thing is I have always been scared that Yasmin would hurt me if I met her. I find her so attractive that I'm scared I would be the one with a broken heart (and sore ass - yes I would bottom for you Yasmin).

[ChicagoDave]

in my opinion you never ever forget somenody you loved so much you just have to learn to deal with it. its a slow process but eventually youll come around Yasmine you being soooo desireable is gonna work this is gonna be a plus and a minus for you
1. youll have people throwing themselves at you like crazy (im not sure if thats good or bad for you trying to get over somebody)
2. it affects your self confidence making you think your just wanted for your assets.
3. it makes you wonder why he doesnt want you (dont worry its not you things like this just dont always work out)

im sure I could keep going but the bottom line is its gonna take time (and a trip to Chicago) to get over this good luck Yasmine!

[HiiiGH]

yasmin you are just fuckin amazing, nice eyez ;)


-HiiiGH-
until die

[Perverted Monk]

Hello Yaz,

Its good to hear that a beautiful girl like yourself enjoys botteming.

[bookaboom]

Lovely Cock! MMmmm

[islay]

Almost everyone goes through that sort of pain at some point in their life, if you don't you are very very lucky. The positive is you learn a lot that comes in handy during future relationships and hopefully never end up in the same situation again :)

Like Chicagodave said don't put your life on hold, you will regret the wasted time later and don't try to figure it out. It's easy to think what is wrong with me etc etc and WHY WHY did we split up but in the end that really doesn't matter, what matters is that YOU are happy again.

In the end it will make you a stronger person,
Take Care

[mrironknee]

One of the biggest things i've learned while monitoring this board is that these girls are just humans with hopes, dreams, desires and feelings like the rest of us. And, just as in society in general, some are more normal and balanced than others. And obviously, some are much more attractive than others!
Jasmine, at least to me, you are one of the hottest around. It's good to read you sharing your emotions and not being afraid of looking vulnerable to the group. I wouldn't mind taking your mind off of your heart break for just a little while.

[YasminLee]

THANK U SO MUCH GUYS FOR YOUR ADVICES. THOUGH MOST OF WHAT I HEAR I TELL MYSELF, WHEN IT's RECONFIRMED BY SOMEONE ELSE, IT'S VERY THERAPUTIC. I DON'T THINK I PUT MYSELF ON HLD. THANK GOD I HAVE SCHOOL TO KEEP ME BUSY. THE LOWS KICKS IN WHEN FALLING ASLEEP IN MY EMPTY BED FOR THE MOST PART. I SPEND A LOT OF TIME THINKING WHAT WE COULD OF BEEN.

FOR THE GUYS. SHOW HER NOTHING BUT LOVE AND SHE WILL EVENTUALLY GIVE IN AND LOVE U IN RETURN. I KNOW IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE FAIR IN THE BEGINNING WITH HER WORK OR HER NOT FULLY ATTENTIVE TO YOUR NEEDS. WHAT U DON'T REALIZE IS THAT WHAT U'RE DEALING WITH IS NOT HER BUT THE SHIELD SHE CREATED TO DEAL WITH HER LIFE. NOT TO SAY WHETHER HOW IS DOES IT IS RIGHT OR WRONG BUT RATHER WHAT SHE KNOWS OR THINK IT SHOULD BE. IT'S HER SAFETY BUBBLE. STAY STRONG, STICK WITH HER.

[fitnesshero]

yasmin i have to agree with you. I also sit alone in my bed wondering what could have been or what should have been. I actually find what you said before extremely interesting about girls putting up a shield. I find that to be very true but never thought about it until you brought it up. You are a very smart women Yasmin.

[qeuqheeg222]

its great that you communicate your feelings well some of the tgirls i know and went out with in the past have such a shield up in their personas-i think this is to deal with the drama out there,but also keeping their inner selves under some sense of control?i went out with a tgirl for five years and really dealt with some serious personal stuff,beside the daily tgirl drama...i still talk to her and in some way will always have a place in my heart for her (and always a place in my bed)..but breakups can take a long time to deal with...as far as you being a bottom im glad,so glad to here this..p.s is the red head angelica really a close friend of yours or a fan gettin really close?i used to know her a long time ago ..from a distance,thru some people...

[YasminLee]

angelica is one of my very good good friend. i love her to death. smart, beautiful and have a lot of common with me. epecially the ever understated "what a girl wouldn't do for love". she too just got her heart broken. just like me, she stop everything for him. went to work at macy's, love him to death and still loose him to his ex...a genetic girl. that pics was just two broken girls drinking the night away.

[BeardedOne]

Mega, dude, I only got half way down that post (I can only read your stuff a bit at a time because it makes my eyeballs hurt :) ), before I realized that you're the only one on this board that can verbally kick the shit out of both the guys and the gurls and have them stand up at the end and say "Yah, thanks, buddy!" while they wipe the blood off their egos.

Damn, that's talent! :wink:

[dajuicy]

yo, i love mega posts, he knows the world he talks about, and shoots from the hip....its refreshing.....the shady, hiv, thug bullshit behind the escort porno shit, is unfortunately very very real, and i fear that in the non-escort life of some people, there is a lot of "he okay", unprotected sex....and obviously hiv is out here, and in this world...lets face it......its scary....its in a way a tribute to yasmin, that she can work both ends of the game, the high end escort/porn thing and have a real life with family boyfriends, love hurt allthe regular shit...but i fear that one day it all has to come crashing down....i dont think you can play it all for the whole ride.....its sad, honestly, i been around a long time, one of mega Pathetic guys on this board, i guess, and been a silent window shopper down on 14th st for years...and i see some of the same girls on those same corners, week after week year after year....living hand to mouth....cell phone motel room on route 9.....one more john, one more trick...how can they keep doing it?....and at whate point do they juste hate guys, guys like me who lust after their dicks.....it surprizes me that more tricks arent fking murdered....because girls, a lot of girls hate the johns...thats why so many of them get ripped off, read the escort reviews, and the craigslist guys belly aching and see what really goes on. some guys seem to be able to play this shit off okay....they go to parties, hang with an escort, drop 200 bucks suck and get fucked, and alls well, go home to wifes and girlfriends. most guys dont tell other guys about this world....living a lie isnt good....i admire mega, cause hes out front and he is straight up what he is, and knows what he wants....later

[hondarobot]

Heh. Mega does make the eyeballs bleed, but he always seems to speak the truth. I admire that.

But us guys can go on and on about whatever. . . girls still want to be treated like girls.

I understand that. The girl I want to spend my life with someday would be treated like a princess, because that's what she wants, and I wouldn't spend my life with someone I wouldn't give the world to.

Regardless if she wants it or not, someday I'll offer her The World.

I'm just a sucker for the over dramatic/romantic stuff, who knows what will happen?

I'm probably not gonna be with this looney stripper chick I'm seeing right now for too long, I'll tell ya that. I've got plans for the future.

But, ya know, who knows what will happen?

[GroobySteven]

GREAT POST MEGA.
Unfortuantely, as it comes onto Yasmin's "confession" post which started it off, I think most will see it aimed a little too much in her direction - even though you stated otherwise.
Well said though.
seanchai

[angry]

Hey Jasmin,
I met you last month in NY.Thank you for fulfilling my ultimate fantasy.I was the guy who asked to watch Andre Agassi in one of his US Open matches.
Moving on from the place you are at right now is never easy.Staying in that place will eventually tear you down.You had something very special.Be glad.Eventually the pain of remembering will turn into a memory and feeling you couldn't imagine living without.You are letting yourself feel what you should be feeling instead of blocking it out.Being able to maintain an honest and open heart as you move on is what you owe yourself.
I cannot imagine you not finding that special love again in the future.You seem to smart, honest and beautiful not to do what is best for you.Keep living,keep laughing and keep feeling.You'll be fine.

W. :)

[Eric420]

Wow! I figured that since you were top in the movies I have seen with you thats just how it was... awesome.

Yasmine, you are so beautiful!!!

[yodajazz]

This thread has gone deep and it gives me an excuse to go deep and stick to the thread topic started by Yamsin. Despite the general topic of HA, I am a spiritual seeker also.

For Yasmin: As long as you continue to give love, love will be returned to you. One day it will be a more perfect person than your last relationship. But by love I am not just talking about sex and romance, I’m talking about the general love that you give to your family and friends and even skills and hobbies, outside of sex. How you treat others is simply the Golden Rule. You might be surprised to know how most men think. If a man sees you lying and cheating to your friends or loved one he will conclude that you will really do that to him someday, no matter how much you say you love him. Mega’s example of the two escort’s who were supposed to be best friends is a prime example. Will the one who cheated with her friends boyfriend, other friends really ever trust her? She is bankrupt and it is not because she is an escort, but because of what she did to her friend.

And even in the case of a woman who shows love with a life skill such as cooking, or a career. A man will think if she shows so much love and dedication to that, she can really love me, and we can have a successful life together.

The moment I chose my life partner; it was because she was happy to show me a pie she had baked, even though I had been out all night. I had the choice of another, with whom we had an exciting sex life. But I did not trust her. She was an actress that liked to have drama in her personal life in order to feed her craft. I chose love and trust over excitement thru sexual passion. Because of this, I will live to be an old man. Actually I already an old man now!

Yasmin, you have let us into your life. For this I, and everyone else with any sense, am deeply grateful to you. In your case, your outward beauty is a reflection of your mind, your inner beauty. There are others, who focus on their outside so much, they develop ugly attitudes on the inside, taking advantage of others, but not you. It is not your organ that makes you so special. You don’t have to even look for love; it will find you as long as continue to give it the ones already around you.

[Ponyboy]

Getting back to the subject of confessions, I have been hitting the dictionary and found threeo terms: frottage, frot and intercrural intercourse. Who likes the following?

Frottage is sexual activity without penetration that can include any form of sexual rubbing, whether naked or clothed, for arousal or orgasm.

frot, penile-penile rubbing for two males

intercrural intercourse, also known as interfemoral intercourse, placing the penis between a partner's thighs, from the front or rear.

For me the most beautiful feeling in the world is when someone rubs their hard cock against my naked ass and between my legs. The feeling is beautiful. And its also quite exciting knowing that someone is about to take me.

I always feel dissapointed when you bend over and they stick it straight up you. Does anyone else feel this way?

Also sometimes I feel embarassed when its over and they call me their bitch? Does anyone else feel this way?

Yasmin - you know you are my dream - do you enjoy doing those things above before you take someone?

[yodajazz]

yoda what a crock of shit u spouted...!!

My post was only a crock of shit for people that don’t understand what real love is.

That being said, thank you for taking the time to read and respond to my post. You missed my point but it was my fault. I was talking about Love in the larger sense, not just romantic love (and not sex). But I understand that that is an inappropriate topic to bring up on this forum. It does belong on Oprah. At least there, when someone talks about love, everyone does start to put there hand down there pants, etc. But there is a reason she is a gzillionare. Her show gives out a lot of great advice that people need to make there lives better.

Yes horrible things do happen to people. But one way around those times is to continue to give. There is a woman here in Cleveland, who daughter was found murdered. But she began to speak out against violence to the public out of love for her daughter. She became active in many events, writes a newspaper column, and is one of the most respected people in our community. But another woman, whose child disappeared, died about two years later. Everyone said that the real
cause was a broken heart. One mother gave, the other gave up.

You are right you just can’t give to anybody. It has to be the right people. Often people give and give in relationship, but deep down they are giving because of fear, insecurities and other negative things. Case in point, Yasmine, seemed to me, to give more attention to people who said negative things about her on this forum. Just giving attention is an important form of giving. That is why I am not angry at you; at least you took some time think about what I said.

But telling someone to continue to be loving and nurturing is not an empty slogan. It comes right out the Bible and many other religious texts. It is just that most religious people get lost in ceremonies, symbols, and details and forget about the greater message.
The alternatives are to escape through things drugs, and sexual conquests. Those things are only temporary and leave a person empty. Others fall in to depressed states and let illnesses take over their bodies.

One definition of love is to give without asking for anything return. So yes, people should do good for goodness sake. It is just that the law of the universe, according to many philosophies is that good is returned to you. It is just that it is usually in way that are not expected. Many people lose their good because they are not opening themselves up for the unexpected good. They are jaded, cynical and suspicious of everyone.

All that being said, you were right about your most important point, which lies in your last paragraph. Yasmin stated that she was working through a breakup of a love relationship. I, as well as others, thought that we would try to provide some words of comfort. There is nothing wrong with that. It appears that what she needed was a slap of reality. At least she did respond to the truth of Mega’s assertions. My post was meant to agree with some of Mega’s points, while also providing positive possibilities for the future. In this case speaking the truth was the more important principle. This was the spiritual lesson that I needed to learn. But this is not the case in every case. Yasmin’s story has not ended, so how can you say there are no fairy tale endings? I don’t think girls come here to be criticized by everyone’s warped or limited versions of reality. My question is why would people come on this board and call people ass kissers, when the vast majority of people here would do much more graphic things than that? Give me some ass, please, a big beautiful pre or post transexual ass!

To all who read this: I realize that my speaking about Love in the greater sense is not an appropriate subject for this forum. I hope that I an not banned (smile). I call everyone’s attention to the post directly following my previous (and before J's) post by Ponyboy. Bless him for confessing!

[yodajazz]

Sorry, the paragraph indentations did not take.

[josh]

wow, that's a lot to read...but over all a great message...

[bookaboom]

Oh no! Time to releave myself!